Need to vent
Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2016 8:41 pm
Hey guys,
Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse-- (I could hardly get erections a few months ago)-- now, things have gotten 2x even worse. A month ago, I got mad that I couldn't get hard 100% so I stroked my unit too hard during masturbation and ended up hurting myself. Well, guess what. Seems that now that pain is PERMANENT... hooray. When I get boners now, it hurts me a bit at the same spot. Plus my boners have a different "feel" now... I dunno how to describe it but it's like there's much more pressure on the tip of the glans/frenulum now.
I'm actually SCARED to get boners now. I'm even more scared to get an implant because I'm scared of the fact that this same pain could be amplified.
So now boners are almost impossible to get. I do get them in the morning (thanks to daily 5mg cialis), but that's about it... when I'm aroused, I get a semi-boner that hurts me (a bit) and I can't get it to 100% unless I'm lucky. Also, I noticed that my unit stretches differently during arousal now... it is completely crooked and gets straigthened up at 100%... before, that would never happen.
Man, I feel SO MAD at myself for that DUMB mistake of stroking too hard. But I can't believe that ONE bad move could cause this type of permanent soreness/pain. Right now I'm furious, I punched the wall hundreds of time... and the worst part is that I can't do nothing about it. I'm seeing my uro next week but he doesn't take me seriously.
Honestly, I'm giving up soon. Can't believe that this BS could happen to me so easily.
End of rant...
Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse-- (I could hardly get erections a few months ago)-- now, things have gotten 2x even worse. A month ago, I got mad that I couldn't get hard 100% so I stroked my unit too hard during masturbation and ended up hurting myself. Well, guess what. Seems that now that pain is PERMANENT... hooray. When I get boners now, it hurts me a bit at the same spot. Plus my boners have a different "feel" now... I dunno how to describe it but it's like there's much more pressure on the tip of the glans/frenulum now.
I'm actually SCARED to get boners now. I'm even more scared to get an implant because I'm scared of the fact that this same pain could be amplified.
So now boners are almost impossible to get. I do get them in the morning (thanks to daily 5mg cialis), but that's about it... when I'm aroused, I get a semi-boner that hurts me (a bit) and I can't get it to 100% unless I'm lucky. Also, I noticed that my unit stretches differently during arousal now... it is completely crooked and gets straigthened up at 100%... before, that would never happen.
Man, I feel SO MAD at myself for that DUMB mistake of stroking too hard. But I can't believe that ONE bad move could cause this type of permanent soreness/pain. Right now I'm furious, I punched the wall hundreds of time... and the worst part is that I can't do nothing about it. I'm seeing my uro next week but he doesn't take me seriously.
Honestly, I'm giving up soon. Can't believe that this BS could happen to me so easily.
End of rant...