Unusual one for you all

[Chreaylander]

Hi I'm Chris, 26 years old, living in Newcastle Upon Tyne in the North of England. I have suffered from a strange form of ed all my adult life so far but am finally trying to tackle it. The problem stems from my sexual orientation ultimately, however, unlike most straight or gay guys that are happy with the way they are, I'm not and never have been.

The problem is psychogenic. I'm a straight guy somewhere inbetween straight and bisexual, what they call bicurious. I can't get and keep an erection with a woman until I'm actually intimately engaged with her (to put it politely as I'm told the English do), which has previously required the services of a gigolo to arouse me and keep me up - I can just imagine the smirks on your faces right now or the shocked expressions from the devout ones amongst you . No, but seriously it's true, I'm not ashamed, I needed it then to get there haha, but it's damn inconvenient and rather infuriating; particularly when the gigolo wants all the action with the girl. It doesn't work anymore anyway as my sexuality I think has masculinized a little more and just finds that whole process humiliating now.

As you've probably already guessed, yes, all the oral meds have been tried and have failed. I thought I'd try alprostadil MUSE next as I don't like the sound of Tri-mix, but consider, I have no physical ed problems. The guys over at Peyronie's Disease Forum tell me to go there first before Caverject, which sounds more dangerous to me, but MUSE can't be titrated to very small doses and Caverject can.

So essentially:
There's no physical ed, no bent cock, no Peyronie's;
I want to make out with girls as I know that's possible deep down;
but I don't find girls attractive.

I maintain my erection by thinking how much of a man it makes me to be able to engage sexually with a woman and although she mustn't be **** ugly she doesn't have to be all that attractive to me either.

What do you make of it, am I missing anything?






Chris