Telling future partner about past jelqing and implant
Posted: Thu Feb 27, 2025 2:30 am
Hi everyone,
Reposting here for visibility.
Long story short I'm pretty sure I gave myself moderate ED (venous leak) bc of PE/jelqing. I'm young, 26, and you can imagine how much emotional distress I've been through these last few years. What I did was stupid and out of insecurity and exposure to porn, but the past is past. I've grown from this ordeal, and I'm mostly past the point of grieving for myself. I'm ready to move forward. I've decided to get an penile implant as I was diagnosed with venous leak. I can get an alright erection but cannot maintain it without constantly stimulation + it's way worse while standing. Pills do not help.
My final block is psychological.
How can I get over my shame, especially when I get a partner? How do I explain my implant? How do I be totally honest about how I injured myself? I'm honestly very anxious to reveal this past about myself since I feel like I might be looked at with disdain. There are days when I feel like I will never be loved. I'm someone who does not want to hide anything, I do not want to go through life bottled up. Does someone have experience with this?
Thank you
Reposting here for visibility.
Long story short I'm pretty sure I gave myself moderate ED (venous leak) bc of PE/jelqing. I'm young, 26, and you can imagine how much emotional distress I've been through these last few years. What I did was stupid and out of insecurity and exposure to porn, but the past is past. I've grown from this ordeal, and I'm mostly past the point of grieving for myself. I'm ready to move forward. I've decided to get an penile implant as I was diagnosed with venous leak. I can get an alright erection but cannot maintain it without constantly stimulation + it's way worse while standing. Pills do not help.
My final block is psychological.
How can I get over my shame, especially when I get a partner? How do I explain my implant? How do I be totally honest about how I injured myself? I'm honestly very anxious to reveal this past about myself since I feel like I might be looked at with disdain. There are days when I feel like I will never be loved. I'm someone who does not want to hide anything, I do not want to go through life bottled up. Does someone have experience with this?
Thank you