Congential Penis Curve / Prostate Cancer / Now Peyronies
Posted: Sun Dec 13, 2020 9:14 pm
I was born with a congential curve in my penis (I believe it is commonly called Chordee) where the curve is caused by unequal lengths in the corpora cavernosa. I struggled with this (what I called) deformity for the first 30 years of my life until I was tired of being what I thought was a freak. The plication surgery they do for peyronies is the same solution for Chordee. At that point I was willing to do "anything" to have the doctors put Humpty Dumpty together which they did.
Fast forward to 2 years ago when I was diagnosed with prostate cancer. Now, the correction for the Chordee took away a bit over an inch of length, then the prostate cancer surgery tool another inch. Because of both the surgery and radiation treatments that were necessary, my chances to regain the ability to have an erection "naturally" or with pills is next to nothing.
The lack of blood flow or other complications has now created a new curvature due to peyronies disease - which I literally had nightmares that this condition would come back to haunt me - and it did. So, now they can do a second plication surgery taking yet more of my penis' length, or I am simply to live with it. To say I am depressed is an understatement. I am very sad most days, bury myself in work, then head to bed once my work day is over. I no longer exercise, eat well, or really care about living. I've even made a bargain with myself that if the cancer returns, I will accept no further treatments to extend my life.
My primary Urologist referred me to another doctor in his practice and then I was referred to another doctor outside their practice. This latest doctor is of the opinion that I won't be happy with any outcome and now has insisted that I seek help from a sex therapist. This process has been mentally exhausting in and of itself to the point where I am in dire straights and sometimes have suicide idelation. I'm on a maximum dosage of two different anti-depressants and right now I am just saying and doing things that I know will get me through the day and that is about it.
The therapist I have initially seen, suggested I engage with this site and see if any information or materials available here may empower me some. But, I am so very angry at everything right now, that it is extremely difficult to even write this message. So, that is my story.
Thanks,
JayJongsma
Fast forward to 2 years ago when I was diagnosed with prostate cancer. Now, the correction for the Chordee took away a bit over an inch of length, then the prostate cancer surgery tool another inch. Because of both the surgery and radiation treatments that were necessary, my chances to regain the ability to have an erection "naturally" or with pills is next to nothing.
The lack of blood flow or other complications has now created a new curvature due to peyronies disease - which I literally had nightmares that this condition would come back to haunt me - and it did. So, now they can do a second plication surgery taking yet more of my penis' length, or I am simply to live with it. To say I am depressed is an understatement. I am very sad most days, bury myself in work, then head to bed once my work day is over. I no longer exercise, eat well, or really care about living. I've even made a bargain with myself that if the cancer returns, I will accept no further treatments to extend my life.
My primary Urologist referred me to another doctor in his practice and then I was referred to another doctor outside their practice. This latest doctor is of the opinion that I won't be happy with any outcome and now has insisted that I seek help from a sex therapist. This process has been mentally exhausting in and of itself to the point where I am in dire straights and sometimes have suicide idelation. I'm on a maximum dosage of two different anti-depressants and right now I am just saying and doing things that I know will get me through the day and that is about it.
The therapist I have initially seen, suggested I engage with this site and see if any information or materials available here may empower me some. But, I am so very angry at everything right now, that it is extremely difficult to even write this message. So, that is my story.
Thanks,
JayJongsma