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I'm 21years old.
So, my problems started 3 month ago. Me and my partner were foreplaying, she was on top slightly moving front and back but all of a sudden we heard pop sound, it didnt hurt(at least at the time) , we stoped immediately therefore i cant remember lossing erection suddenly(i was high) but i think i didnt.we were going for the third round when the accident happened so we just gave up, all that stress fucked us instead:))
Any way, things was pretty normal the next day except for a 3-4/10 pain, i masturbated like 3 to 4 time next day to make sure everything is okay, but every time erections was weaker, next day was same scenario i mean it wasnt that weak and i thought it's probably because i'm masturbating alot. I knew i fucked up by the 4th day, my penis was inflamed visibly, and i couldnt have a 100 percent erection(at most it would have been 80%).i rushed to visit a urologist and he check and say" well, it is swollen for sure but nothing major, probably dorsal vein injury", prescribed me some anti inflammatory medicine and send me home. Just to mention, even after the swelling I had morning woods which were good by all means. Time passed (like 2 weeks) and I still couldn't get more than 75% erection. So just visited another urologist who didn't even listen, just wrote me an ultrasound (not even a Doppler) which showed no fracture(i mean, i knew it wasn't fracture, the idiot didn't even bother to examine me) .i was getting mental, visited third urologist who was passionate, after examining me, he said ''man, i will be frank and there is a good possibility that its venous leakage, the only reason i'm not sure is that u r having good morning woods, i mean u had some good morning wood after the injury and some bad ones, visit me in a month, if u r lucky ur body heals it self".
In the month of suffering, I cannot remember any period of time that I was more troubled and depressed, i went through alot before but this was in another league of suffering.
Shit started to get weird, erections were weak, but whenever i visited my partner i could get a good boner,(at least i can remember a good one which lasted like 30 minutes) but because of the situation we could always meet in the car, therefore i couldn't stand up. So u guys r probably thinking what is the weird part?? I still couldn't get good erections with porn, and even if i did, when i stood up it would have been dead in like 20 seconds.that never happened to me before, i was a guy who was horny 24/7:))
The time to visit my urologist came, I went there and told him about the situation(fool of me, I just mentioned the standing up part), he said u r fine. Long story short, I visited my partner today and this scared me the most. I wasnt that horny, I could get an erection, but it was 75% erected. I mean, this kindda things never happened to me,I know something is wrong. I should be 150 % horny to get a full erection which will go away a lot easier than before. i did have all stand up sex today but i felt like it wasn't fully erected and even my partner after sex said its like u lost some length(i thought i was paranoid to think i lost some girth and length even having a good erection).
I was definitely getting better over the past 3 month. All of a sudden everything got worse. I mean I had no problem getting erection only while visiting my partner but now, losing length and girth and not being able to achieve good erections even when she is around???that's scary. Not sure what caused it but i can remember after the accident while my erections were pretty normal , the were a bit curved upward so i slightly tried to make them straight,i didnt even even pushed it hard. i was scared to get peyronies after the accident ,i got scared as fuck. I mean all of a sudden my anxiety raised to sky. i dont know what to do, i wanted to go for a doppler(with injection) but its not available in my city and at the time ( at least for 45 days) i cant go to another city. Only u guys understand how it feels ,the loneliness , anxiety and everything. I don't know if it's PTSD or not because the first few days everything was ok and after some time I have seen some improvement.
Any advice or ideas?? Things are getting worse from last week and I don't know what I am supposed to do. I think it was a partial damage which is getting worse by time. I have used vitamin e ever since just to avoid peyronies. Sorry for typos and grammatical mistakes, I'm not native.

My story has some more detail, i didnt think it was important until i have read a reddit post with same issues. I know it alot to ask to read the same time line with minor differences but it would mean alot to mean and i will be thankful.

It all started after a penile truama, to be more specific 2 in one day. First one happened when my partner and were laying down beside and maturbating for each other, well, i asume she forgot she was holding my penis and in a sudden move she pulled it toward her, it was fucking painful, but only on the left side. We waited for for like 5 minutes and when the pain stopped, we started over. I hope i've stopped there, indead i wore my clothes but she was horny so in order to get me in to the mood she jumped on me started to slightly move towards fornt and back, even after 3 month the sound is still clear in my head, while she was doing that she accidentally pushed my penis and we heard a pop sound, i wasnot painful, i didnt lose erection but we have stoped. She was scared too, we waited a little longer so becuase theere was no pain thought we were safe. That day nothing sexual happened anymore.
Thenext day i woke up with pain, but the pain was in the lest side of base, exactly were the first accident cuased it. I dont know how i have never mentions it to urologists, i just said weheard the pop sound and i have pain,Silly me.so that day every thing was fine except the pain.
Few days passed and i saw some kind of inflamation, and the pain didint stopped, i mean whenever iwas lying down my penis was getting filled with blood but also hollow, erections were weak and as soon as i stood up, penis started to shrinke and become hard. Time passed, i did an ultra sound(not a Doppler unfortunatelyand it showd no fracture whatsoever). Little by little and becuase of the the anti inflammatory drugs (3 shots of methylprednisolone and 20 cilocsibe pills, thing got better) but still erictions were week, after 3 weeks i was getting mental, visited another urologist and he said it could be venous leakage but u should wait, i waited for a month and saw my partner in between. Things got better, both the hollowness of the penis and the eriction, still i would have lost eriction if i stood up.visited my urologist again and told him about the situation he said u r fine, the stand up problem willbe gone soon too. Things got better, until last week, i would have morning woods, good erictions, and even i could maintain my erections while standing up for a longer time. Fool of me i thoght i was getting peyronie's so the anxiety raised to the sky and i gently(i swear i didnt even pushed that much) tried to straighten that(silly me again). 2 days later back to the square one but with a little difference. The is no more hollowness felling while ling down, still standing up penis will shrink but not as much as before. Erections are weak, hf, lost some lenghth an girth, do not get horny with porn, i mean i dont maturbate alot but these days just to check if every thing isnormal i do. I will los eriction as soon as i stop touching it, i had few sex calls in which i could get hard 90% without stimulation but will lose it if i dont touch it soon. I mean anxiety was haigh even when i could an erection cuase i thought i was getting peyronie's(got paranoid about losing lenght and girth, and upward curve) and as soon as i felt that this happened to me. Now i don't know if its vl, hf or anything else, but my penis is always hf and will be crazily soft if i maturbate few time. There was a time that i tought i was gettin better (expect for peyronie's, i am really gettin paranoid after all of these) but all of a sudden this happen. Any ideas??? Anything would help.

Sounds like classic Pelvic Floor disorder. Get evaluated by a Pelvic floor physical therapist. Find one on http://www.pelvicrehab.com

And read everything here:
https://www.franktalk.org/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=23&t=19092

Paul