charlesr wrote:Lost Sheep, good for you for taking it slow! Romance; we almost forget about the concept, let alone morality, etc.
Thanks you charlsr and HowHard for the opportunity to formalize my thinking on this part of my sexuality.
I posted on CraigsList, PlentyOfFish and Match.com for a woman to "help" with my ED.
Match had just a generic "Man seeking Woman" post .
CL and PoF had explicit requests for a woman willing to help with the pre- and post- operative experimentation and rehabilitation I expect will be involved with an implant. A hybrid relationship, part "Friends with Benefits" and part Sexual Surrogacy. My idea was she would help me through the pre-op evaluation stages, enjoying the sex I could manage (which is substantial if she enjoys cunnilingus, manual and/or "toys") and for an equal length of time after whatever cure I got was effected. (So she could enjoy the "fruits" of our labors.) After that we would end the relationship with the option to re-start the relationship as a more conventional/typical Man-Woman relationship with all the usual trimmings if we both wanted.
The rare woman willing to accept those terms has not been found. Realistically, I knew it was a long shot.
Surprisingly, I did get a few responses for this non-romantic but emotionally charged bid. Among the scams and misunderstandings were a few sincere and remarkable women willing to at least consider helping. But after vetting the candidates, I have yet to find one that could detach the emotional ties from the physical acts. No way would I set up another human being for the emotional pain of entering a physical/sexual relationship with a future anticipated to end.
So, I will not take advantage of a woman's hormones or human kindness if I think it has a good chance of hurting her. Period. Even if her eyes are wide open. Call it care-taking if you must, but that is me. I will not put that kind of wear on my soul.
Lost Sheep