Nixtex wrote:CigareVolant wrote:Okay, here is some reassurance.
At a little over two years, I love, love, love my bionic cock. Works great for sex. Feels like "me".
But I had a bit of a rough start. I don't know why, but I got a lot of swelling at first. I was just re-reading my journal from after the operation, and even after three weeks my balls felt really weird. The left side was pretty normal, but on the right, where the pump went, things felt really weird around my ball. I mean, it was like thick cardboard around it and I really struggled to even distinguish my right ball from the pump. I was very frustrated.
I went back to my journal, and here's a note at day 30, which was when the doctor told me it was okay to cycle: "I did manage to press the deflate button in the office and Karpman said for me to cycle. I had managed to find the button in the office, though clumsily, and then did at home after a partial inflation. I was afraid to inflate too hard for fear of it getting stuck that way if I couldn't cycle. It's a little cumbersome, because the pump is kind of fixed in place and there's still some thick skin right nearby."
Remember, everything is wonderful now! So those feelings you are having now about how it's scary and broken and it doesn't feel right — all of those are normal. I mean, for whatever reason, my experience was worse than average, according to my doc, but it in the end it all worked out wonderfully. The skin is all back to nice, normal, thin scrotum skin, and I can easily feel the pump to inflate and deflate.
It wasn't until week 10 that I finally wrote: "Everything is working perfectly."
At week 12 I wrote: "My implant feels like part of me. Just normal. Inflating is easy, and I can even do it with my left hand. Deflation is easy and always works. (Sometimes it takes a bit longer than others, but it's never a problem. The skin feels "thinner" and I can more easily feel the components on the pump. My fingers are so used to how everything is positioned that I can usually go directly to the deflate position with little if any feeling around for right spot. Partly because I'm used to it, I think, but also because the thin-ness lets me feel the correct "landing spots" for finger and thumb."
Hopefully you won't take as long to heal as I did. As I said, my experience was unusual and towards the slow end. But the point is, in the end, despite the slow start, it all turned out wonderfully and I am thrilled about my decision.
Good luck!
Thanks for sharing this experience. I'm going through the same thing as you at your early stages. I'm just at my 4 week mark and I'm still having trouble feeling anything but the pump because my scrotum is swollen with thick skin. I'm hoping to be able to provide an update with some positive news soon.
hang in there - usually you'll turn a corner very soon and as the swelling resolves it will also become much easier to feel and mess with the pump. Huge frustration intitially.