Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby jwdetails » Tue Mar 17, 2026 3:12 pm

Lawrence13 wrote:Dr. Eid’s office confirmed today my insurance authorized full coverage and my surgery date is locked in for April 14.

I have experienced a wave of emotion and anxiety. Did anyone else deal with anxiety and fear in the lead up to surgery?

My fear of living more of my life not feeling whole outweighs the fear I’m feeling now. However, I must admit I am quite scared. I also feel sorrow/ mourning the loss of my natural erection forever( even though it’s already limited). Being only 38 years old and doing this is hitting me hard.


Just basically want to know if anyone else experienced fear and sorrow once surgery was confirmed and how they dealt with it.



absolutely normal - you're going with top notch surgeon so rest assured. Complications can happen but at least you have a surgeon that's seen it all and can help optimize your result.
62 year old, ED+PD, Coloplast Titan 22 cm no RTE in 2019 with Dr. Irwin Goldstein => failure, now with plaque excision/tunical expansion to Coloplast Titan 26 no RTE in 2022 by Dr. Darshan Patel, now with classic pump 2024 :D

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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby Azchris » Tue Mar 17, 2026 5:47 pm

Lawrence13 wrote:Dr. Eid’s office confirmed today my insurance authorized full coverage and my surgery date is locked in for April 14.

I have experienced a wave of emotion and anxiety. Did anyone else deal with anxiety and fear in the lead up to surgery?

My fear of living more of my life not feeling whole outweighs the fear I’m feeling now. However, I must admit I am quite scared. I also feel sorrow/ mourning the loss of my natural erection forever( even though it’s already limited). Being only 38 years old and doing this is hitting me hard.


Just basically want to know if anyone else experienced fear and sorrow once surgery was confirmed and how they dealt with it.


Hey man, I would say yes completely normal. I am scheduled for next Thursday the 26th. I have been all over the place. Shots are still effective but I know not sustainable. Im feeling more peace w it compared tp weeks ago and ive messaged many on here and have researched as much as I possibly could over the last year. Lol. Just praying everything goes well and I can get back to my amazing sex life even tho its w shots right now we still manage 4 days a week. Good luck bro!
45 years old. Married 11 years to the most supportive loving woman. Struggled w/ed last 5 years. Pills worked until they didn't. Currently on shots. They work for now but with side affects and no spontaneity. Currently scheduled for ams 700cx march 26th.

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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby GoodWood » Tue Mar 17, 2026 11:08 pm

Absolutely normal. March 25th will be my implant’s 1st birthday. Dr Eid did it. I had a quick and easy recovery. I love this thing. Affectionately known at home as The Beast™️ LOL.

But in the weeks leading up to it I felt a wide range of emotions:
Excitement I was going to be done with ED.
Sadness it had come to this.
Fear I was doing something irreversible.
Anxiety I was doing it at the wrong time.
Gratitude I was able to get it done
Disbelief this was actually happening.
Hopeful that I would have a reliable penis again.
Anger I had struggled with ED for so many years.
Relief there was a solution.
Concern about the level of pain/discomfort I would have.
Worry I might have a surgical complication.
Now oscillate between those emotions…

But mainly I was feeling excitement and hopeful.

Dr Eid, his staff, and everyone at Manhattan Eye, Ear, Nose, and Throat are great. I had an excellent experience. (They should add “and penis” to the end of the name.
LOL)

Hang in there and feel free to PM me with any questions or if you just need to check in with someone that has been there. Soon you will be on the other side of this.
57yo, NYC. ED started at 40. Pills, then shots for 10 years. 24cm Coloplast Titan XL w/classic pump by Dr Eid 3/25/2025. Will meet for show & tell.
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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby duke_cicero » Tue Mar 17, 2026 11:27 pm

Anxiety is very normal. On the day of surgery my resting heart rate was 110bpm until they started giving me something for it, lol.
Born 1990. ED since age 20 after a bicycle accident. Coloplast Genesis malleable implanted December 2024 by the great Dr. Laurence Levine in Chicago.

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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby Lawrence13 » Tue Mar 17, 2026 11:40 pm

jwdetails wrote:
Lawrence13 wrote:Dr. Eid’s office confirmed today my insurance authorized full coverage and my surgery date is locked in for April 14.

I have experienced a wave of emotion and anxiety. Did anyone else deal with anxiety and fear in the lead up to surgery?

My fear of living more of my life not feeling whole outweighs the fear I’m feeling now. However, I must admit I am quite scared. I also feel sorrow/ mourning the loss of my natural erection forever( even though it’s already limited). Being only 38 years old and doing this is hitting me hard.


Just basically want to know if anyone else experienced fear and sorrow once surgery was confirmed and how they dealt with it.



absolutely normal - you're going with top notch surgeon so rest assured. Complications can happen but at least you have a surgeon that's seen it all and can help optimize your result.



Appreciate the response and support man!
38 nyc. Great sexlife 18-31. Ed at 32, Trimix/bi mix last 5 years. Confidence gone, spontaneity gone. Scar tissue building up. I want my life back. Surgery with Eid confirmed for April 14.

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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby Lawrence13 » Tue Mar 17, 2026 11:46 pm

Azchris wrote:
Lawrence13 wrote:Dr. Eid’s office confirmed today my insurance authorized full coverage and my surgery date is locked in for April 14.

I have experienced a wave of emotion and anxiety. Did anyone else deal with anxiety and fear in the lead up to surgery?

My fear of living more of my life not feeling whole outweighs the fear I’m feeling now. However, I must admit I am quite scared. I also feel sorrow/ mourning the loss of my natural erection forever( even though it’s already limited). Being only 38 years old and doing this is hitting me hard.


Just basically want to know if anyone else experienced fear and sorrow once surgery was confirmed and how they dealt with it.


Hey man, I would say yes completely normal. I am scheduled for next Thursday the 26th. I have been all over the place. Shots are still effective but I know not sustainable. Im feeling more peace w it compared tp weeks ago and ive messaged many on here and have researched as much as I possibly could over the last year. Lol. Just praying everything goes well and I can get back to my amazing sex life even tho its w shots right now we still manage 4 days a week. Good luck bro!



Oh wow we’re similar age range and the same situation in terms of injections still effective but just not sustainable. Wow man you are right there. I’m excited for you dude. I hope you post your journey. I will follow with great interest as I will be just 3 weeks behind. I hope in 5-6 months both of us report back that we’ve been having awesome injection less sex and feel changed for the better. Good luck!
38 nyc. Great sexlife 18-31. Ed at 32, Trimix/bi mix last 5 years. Confidence gone, spontaneity gone. Scar tissue building up. I want my life back. Surgery with Eid confirmed for April 14.

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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby Lawrence13 » Tue Mar 17, 2026 11:51 pm

GoodWood wrote:Absolutely normal. March 25th will be my implant’s 1st birthday. Dr Eid did it. I had a quick and easy recovery. I love this thing. Affectionately known at home as The Beast™️ LOL.

But in the weeks leading up to it I felt a wide range of emotions:
Excitement I was going to be done with ED.
Sadness it had come to this.
Fear I was doing something irreversible.
Anxiety I was doing it at the wrong time.
Gratitude I was able to get it done
Disbelief this was actually happening.
Hopeful that I would have a reliable penis again.
Anger I had struggled with ED for so many years.
Relief there was a solution.
Concern about the level of pain/discomfort I would have.
Worry I might have a surgical complication.
Now oscillate between those emotions…

But mainly I was feeling excitement and hopeful.

Dr Eid, his staff, and everyone at Manhattan Eye, Ear, Nose, and Throat are great. I had an excellent experience. (They should add “and penis” to the end of the name.
LOL)

Hang in there and feel free to PM me with any questions or if you just need to check in with someone that has been there. Soon you will be on the other side of this.



Good wood you’ve been my North Star as the prime example of an excellent Eid result and recovery. That bit you just wrote about the weeks leading up to it and the oscillating feelings…. Absolute gold. You absolutely nailed it. That’s exactly what I feel, so to see it put so eloquently into words is reassuring.

I will absolutely be reaching out once it’s go time. No doubt about it. I appreciate your support.
38 nyc. Great sexlife 18-31. Ed at 32, Trimix/bi mix last 5 years. Confidence gone, spontaneity gone. Scar tissue building up. I want my life back. Surgery with Eid confirmed for April 14.

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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby Lawrence13 » Tue Mar 17, 2026 11:53 pm

duke_cicero wrote:Anxiety is very normal. On the day of surgery my resting heart rate was 110bpm until they started giving me something for it, lol.



lol duke! Yeah I’ll be grateful once the meds hit lmao. This has been stressful.
38 nyc. Great sexlife 18-31. Ed at 32, Trimix/bi mix last 5 years. Confidence gone, spontaneity gone. Scar tissue building up. I want my life back. Surgery with Eid confirmed for April 14.

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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby Jage64 » Wed Mar 18, 2026 1:06 am

For me, I pumped almost daily to keep my tissues stretched and oxygenated. I felt like I needed to train for the big day, looking forward to the longest cylinder measurements possible. I figured if I looked back and didn't do it I'd regret it, I'd never know if it would have made a difference or not.

Dr. Clavell asked me to stop pumping a day or two before surgery just to make sure there wasn't any residual swelling on surgery day.

I'm extremely happy with my outcome 3 years ago. I too was apprehensive, but I kept telling myself "what's the worst that could happen, my dick not work? I've got that now!"

Damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead.
2/22/23 AMS 700 CX 21cm + 1.5cm RTEs. was 58 yrs old, wife of 37 yrs. Penoscrotal. 100ml Conceal reservoir. Dr. Clavell. Pills failing and went right to implant. 2+ yrs post op: 7 3/4" x 5 7/8", now 61yrs old in 2025

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Re: Surgery confirmed for April 14. Is the wave of anxiety normal?

Postby richard_goes_bionic » Wed Mar 18, 2026 3:05 am

Hi Lawrence I feel a lot for you guys which have to experience ED in such young age. But I am sure you do the right thing. You choose a great surgeon and everything will be fine. The anxiety and sorrowness are very normal. I was really down the week or 2 after to never have a natural ereçtion but again I said to myself they were gone long time ago anyway so I concentrate on my recovery instead.
How is sexlive today? Just one word GREAT. You can follow my journey here. viewtopic.php?f=6&t=27926&p=272282#p272282

Wish you all the best to become a bionic brother.
68 years old, good shape but 10 years struggle with VED, pills, needles.
arterial sclerosis comb.with venous leak.
Rigicon infla 10ax, 22(12+10) x12 + 1cm rte. Dr. Beley, Paris. 06.11.25
before implant: VED 6,5 x 4.9 bone pressed.


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