Implant Journal

[equusAz]

excited and terrified --- that was what most of us who went through felt, I am sure of that.

Yeah, you don't want to do much of anything for at least one week post-op. Just ice, recline, watch TV and more ice. I hope you plan to take 2 weeks away from work -- they are a beast to get through. Then it starts getting easier by the day.

Good luck!

Luckily it'll be in the holiday season - and I work from home 100% - so if I need to I can take calls from my bed with my laptop next to me. I've already booked at least a week off - and our company does almost no business during the holidays as all the executives and senior sales staff are off.

[equusAz]

So - it's been a minute - I've been going through all the emotions of trying to deal with the fact that a year and a half ago I was fine - and now I'm going for an implant due to cancer. Thanks cancer!

I've been cleared by my regular physician for surgery (required by the hospital) and just got approved yesterday through my insurance. Co-pay is 20% and I had not yet reached my maximum. Not only does it suck having had cancer and all this, I can't imagine how I would feel if I hadn't been able to pay for my surgery. I know there are a lot of folks out there who are in that boat. The ammount of anxiety I had waiting for word from my insurance that they'd pay - man - I can't express that ammount of frustration and fear.

But...on the bright side, that part is done. I'm continuing with my injections every few days. VED very very moderately. Just waiting for the day to come so I can it over with and begin healing.

T minus 17 days.

[equusAz]

Hey Guys!

Since we're down to about a week out from surgery I thought I'd post a few 'before pics' for reference so people can see what I'm going through. Two pics of me pre-cancer, one pic of me as of this week with the 'indents.' I thought this may have been cuased by VED but after discussing with the doctor via online portal this was more than likely caused by the injections - just a bad reaction and formation of scar tissue. I may be one of those individuals who form scars much thicker than normal - and I can attest to that since I've had other injuries that have led to scarring and it's been not-fun. Anyway - this is where I'm starting from and where I am on my journey.

My anxiety is way up - but so is my resolve. I HAVE to become functional again. I hate not being functional and the only way to get hard is through painful injections. As much as I loathe that I've lost length / girth - I just want to be able to engage in sex again. My husband has been an absolute rock - and I don't know what I would do without him. He's been super loving, patient and understanding and I don't think I would be as 'sane' as I am without him there to support me.

Anyway - this is where I am at. More to follow as we get to closer to the surgery and post surgery.

[Hope84]

Good luck on the surgery! I’m having mine on the 5th, just 4 days before you. Keep us posted! I will create journal myself.

[equusAz]

Will do Hope84!

[equusAz]

Alright folks - we are down to the wire!

I am less than 24 hours from surgery. I report to the facility tomorrow morning at 10am and by this time tomorrow I may be in recovery or discharged. I can't explain the amount of nervous I am, but at the same time a lot of relief that this journey will finally be over. I'm trying to keep myself optimistic about the proceedure and what my life will be like after, but its hard. All of this has been hard - in the last year and 8 months (almost two years) I went from normal, to finding out I had cancer, to having RP, to having severe ED, to having Peyrone's disease, to getting an implant. But hey - either I persevere or I give up - and I'm not a quitter.

The doc is going to do a scrotal implant which should be good. He's a bit concerned that since I'm a slimmer guy (about 160lbs) that the resevoir will be a bit a tiny bit visible but there isn't much that can be done. I'll take functional over pretty any day.

I did check that he's one of the premier doctors on the Titan website (center of excelenece or whatever they call it) and for my area is listed as #2 on the list. So I'll take it.

He also mentioned doing a pain block - so I'm hoping that will take care of any issues for the first few days. I tend to NOT do well with pain and burn off NSAIDS and other pain medication quickly so - here's hoping.

I probably won't be posting tomorrow and it may be a few days before I'm up to posting anything but of course I will once I'm able to along with details. As you can see I'm not shy so expect updates.

Wish me luck all!

[AussiePete]

Good luck with your surgery and going forward... You won't regret it.

[equusAz]

First of all, I made it home. But let me tell you that for those people who do not tolerate pain. Well, this has been an absolute ordeal! My issues with pain medication meant that I burned through the block already. They had to dose me at the clinic with some strong stuff and sent prescription off. The only other option was to be admitted to the hospital, and I’m not up for being admitted into the hospital at this time.

Second of all, apparently the surgery went quite well. The doctor was able to correct some of the curve just through conservative techniques, i.e. bending the penis during surgery.


Lastly, we changed implants from the Titan to the Boston Scientific. The main concern was over the reservoir, and secondary concern about the curvature. Doctors experience the Boston scientific is a better option for that. Can’t say that I’m surprised, and I’m perfectly fine with that as long as I get the function back that I’m looking for.


For now, I’m in the super amount of pain. I seem to be having some spasming in my perineum. I have ice going and I’m pretty out of it. I’ll be going back to the clinic day after tomorrow to have the catheter and drain removed.


I’ll report more tomorrow.

[equusAz]

I’ve made it to the next day. The night was a sleepless one as every twenty minutes I was changing out the ice pack. But I did make it. Probably only two hours of sleep total in bits and pieces

Pain is fairly under control now but that was an ordeal I would rather skip. They do have me on dilauded, Tylenol, and Ibuprofen. It hurts like hell in my entire pelvis region to move but if I stay still I’m good.

I have a surety consult with the nurses scheduled for today.

[equusAz]

I’m two days out now and healing continues. I removed the catheter this morning and I finally got a good look.

Bruising is almost nonexistent but there is a bit of swelling, however, and I know us early to say this, I’m a bit worried about sizing. He said he went with the AMS 700 CX. And in a note said sizing was 19 and 20. So I’m assuming that is two 18cm with a 1 and 2 RTE. needless to say it’s early but still. Thoughts anyone?

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