Malleable journal - nervous but hopeful

[wasim1]

Hey Luck( AKA MR HANCOCK )
good to hear it back from u and very happy for u .we have been waiting for a pic and wishing u a good luck for next date ....cheers man

[LastHope]

Great news, Duke. I 100% agree. Waking up every day with morning wood is such a sweet bonus. I’d never really thought about it before, but in retrospect, it’s pretty amazing. Can’t wait to hear about your next adventure!

[FenderStrat_93]

Hey all, so sorry I haven't been as active — work has suddenly become extremely intense and for the most part, any personal time I've had for myself I've done away from screens and my phone.

Day 48. Everything is going well. I had a date last Saturday and while I didn't have penetrative intercourse (she felt uncomfortable because she hadn't shaved—I was clear that I didn't object and was interested in sex anyway), I did receive an impromptu blowjob that was simply amazing.

Something that's important to mention is that when she touched my pants, I immediately felt a pang of anxiety and nervousness. In my head, I thought "Oh no—what if I can't get hard or stay hard? What if I have an erection for only a few minutes and it goes away and completely ruins the mood? What if this upsets her? How will I fix it?"

And then I realized: Those days of anxiety and stress and insecurity are over. They're finally over. I touched my penis just to make sure I wasn't dreaming. Yes, of course it's hard. It's been hard 24/7 for almost two months straight. Even though I went through the pain of surgery, and recovery, and all the other stuff, I'm still not totally free of the mental anguish of the past. Still, deep down, there is a big part of me that is afraid that I will not have a satisfactory erection.

But, those days are gone. It's going to take time for my mind and my emotions to heal.

I have another date with a different girlfriend of mine this Saturday. We are exchanging late Christmas gifts and then getting right down to it, if our text message exchanges are any indication of her interest. I can't wait to update you guys.

Also, I know I'm late with a photo. I'll work on working up the courage to take care of that, too.

Love you guys. Thanks for all the ongoing support.

This is excellent to hear Duke, I’m glad it’s already working out for you. Gives me hope for my future implant!

From a sensation standpoint - how did things feel? Did you have any issues with numbness or over sensitivity from the blowjob?