A New Reality

[Dave92014]

Yes, your bulb currently is filled with fluid. There is no air in the system, so whenever the bulb is not compressed by your fingers, it is full of fluid. That is one reason it feels hard to you.

I think you misunderstood the washcloth thing the other Dave suggested. He was suggesting to wrap a washcloth around the keyring pump so the washcloth would simulate the skin of your scrotum and the combo of washcloth and keyring would be simulate your scrotum and help you to learn where the parts are. If you already are finding the pump parts in your scrotum okay, the washcloth trick is probably not needed.

Best wishes. You seem to be on the good path.

Dave

[Bxguy1]

I had an idea to use a cloth (canvas) change purse that has a zipper in the middle. Its oval shape kind of reminds you of half a scrotum at least!

[Steven1111]

Dave,

Thank you for the clarifications. So my pump is full and that's why it's so hard. OK. Makes sense to me. And it's true I didn't get the washcloth trick, probably because I don't have the keyring to test it with... And since I can find everything OK by myself it's not necessary, but a good idea nevertheless.

Thanks for the encouragement,
Steve

[Steven1111]

I saw my doctor yesterday at 2 weeks from the surgery, and it was a great visit. He said I was healing very rapidly, faster than most men he'd seen in fact, and that everything looked really good. He was happy with the pump placement and the tips in the glans were in the perfect place which is how they feel to me too. The bruising is almost gone and the pain is minmal, except when I pee and that's going away bit by bit. He affirmed the FT wisdom that I'll be about where I was at when I did the stretch test when I inflate and pump it in 3 weeks. I still can't use it till week 6 and this is only 2 so I have a ways to wait but that's OK as long as it continues to heal as well as it is.

The pump bulb is still very hard and he said I wasn't really inflated much at all, which surprised me, and so he deflated me even more. So I guess I'm now 4 inches flaccid which is bigger than I'm used to and it feels quite large. I feel semi-hard all the time. Very erotic.... I hang down well to about 6:00 o'clock now and don't really stick out too much like I did before he deflated it. He said he put in a 16cm unit with 2cm of extenders for a total of 18cm which feels right to me from what I can tell and how it seems it'll extend out close to its usual size. This sounds good to me. It eased any worries I had about sizing. It's a big relief, even tho I'd accustomed myself to being shorter, but apparently I won't be, so I'm glad.

I finally got my pump replica keychain so I can play with it and see how it works and I can feel it all easily in my scrotum. I can't imagine being able to crunch that ball, it's so hard, but I guess it'll happen when I see him next and he shows me how to do it. He did say I needed to wait till week 6 to have sex, but can start pumping at week 5. That's what I expected pretty much, or hoped for at least.... I told him I'd been totally taken aback when I had an orgasm thursday, just 2 weeks after the surgery. I wasn't really trying but I was so sensitive it just happened and boy was I glad it did. I was a bit worried about my sensitivity and this showed me that I'll still be OK as I heal. A really good experience that felt good and only hurt a little bit. (After my PC radiation surgery I was able to cum in 4 days, so this was a good sign since it was far more traumatic for me.)

He told me that I could wear the jockey shorts or a jock strap or go naked depending on what felt good to me at this point because I was healing so well. That's a relief to me because I usually don't wear underwear but it feels good now so I'm wearing a string bikini which feels great as well as sexy. I slept naked last night and it was fine. I can also start doing more exercises and walking more and doing gentle things like some stretches and stuff. I miss exercise so that'll be good. I'll still be careful but at least I can move more and be able to drive a car again.

So, no problems at all, and things all look good. I couldn't have asked for a better report from him and I feel very fortunate that I'm healing so well and there are no complications. My Urologist did a great job it would seem. Sometimes it's good to just trust in your own doc I guess. I'm glad I did.

Thanks again to you all for the good support I've gotten on here. It's really helped me stay positive and be prepared for all the stuff that's happened and kept my expectations in line with reality. That's no doubt partly why I'm so happy. That and a good surgeon.

All the best to everyone,
Steve

[hoseboy]

Steve, It's really good to hear you are doing well. Keep up the good work! ...and keep those orgasms coming. Glenn

[Steven1111]

Glenn,

Thanks so much for the good wishes. I'm doing well still, healing more each day. Still a bit too sensitive to cum again tho. I've found that since the ED my "recharge rate" has gone to a couple of weeks sometimes but I'm hoping that changes for the better once I can use the implant. Here's to more and better orgasms!

All the best to you and yours,
Steve
PS. I like your handle a lot. Does this mean you're "Boyonic"?

[Steven1111]

A bit of an update. Today is 4 weeks from the implant, almost to the hour in fact. I've continued to heal well but I'm a bit surprised at how tender and touchy I am in certain places, notably my balls and scrotum and my penis. It also hurts a lot to pee still much of the time and it's hard to get it going. But other than those minor things I'm doing really well. I was able to have my long awaited second orgasm yesterday with a little help and that was great. My body requires a long time to "recharge" so it's normal and any of you who might be worried about it taking me so long don't worry. I take a lot of pain meds and they lessen my sensitivity a lot unfortunately. But I get there in time and I think once I get to using the implant that my timing will change since there's really nothing quite like real intercourse for stimulation.

I've really noticed that since I've been dealing with the ED and now the implant that my world has narrowed to my cock and it's lack of functioning and now its impending revival. I wonder if the rest of you have similar feelings of intensity about it all and the extreme focus on your manhood. I guess it's normal to be very hyper conscious of it when going thru a procedure like an implant. It's like all I can think about is being able to fuck again. I can certainly understand why guys say that it takes a long time to get used to this. But I will say that the pump ball is much less of an issue for me now than it was, tho I wonder about it banging around when I have sex. I barely notice it now tho it's still obvious, but it doesn't bother me really.

I see my doc a week from tomorrow to finally pump it up and will hopefully get the go ahead to start using it. I'll be just in time for our 5th anniversary on the solstice at my land in the woods. A great place to try it out in the complete privacy of 40 wooded acres. It's a bit primitive tho so I'll have to stay very clean I think. Lots of dust there. And I tend to work too much when there so I'll have to take it easy still and just try to relax and see how much sex I can have in the 4 days we'll be there. Can you tell I'm eager?

So that's about it for now. I'll post more next week after I get it inflated and see how that goes. I'm optimistic but a bit nervous since so many guys say that it hurts a lot the first time. Oh well I can deal with it OK I'm sure for the return it'll give me. I'm focusing on that and not worrying about the rest of it too much.

Thanks again for all the support here.
Cheers to you all,
Steve

[Steven1111]

So here's the latest... I saw my doctor and got to start pumping myself up a week ago friday and it was good. The doc did it for me at first which was good since I had concerns about being able to. He put in about 8 pumps and said I was hard. I was a bit shocked cause it was smaller than I expected and it wasn't all that hard. But he said it was hard and that it was as big as it would get, so I went with it for then. I tried it next and it took me a lot more than 8 pumps to get it hard because it kept slipping all around on me for awhile, but I eventually managed it fine.

Since then I've been practicing a lot and I've gotten it down pretty good. I put in 10-15 pumps so I can stretch it out some but it doesn't hurt to do that. I can also deflate it well. I've learned that if I let it buzz a few seconds and then squeeze my penis and bend it the deflate pump still buzzes and it keeps deflating till I'm totally flaccid. I was 4” soft when I was first let out of surgery. Now I'm 4 ¾” flaccid and almost 5 ¼” erect. Since I was only 5 ½” stretched this seems like a good outcome and maybe it'll even gain a bit more, we'll see. I just know it looks good to me and it feels great to have a rock hard erection in my hands again. Wow!!!

The difficult thing about the visit with the doc was that he told me that I couldn't have sex for 4 more weeks, making it a total of 9 weeks from surgery till sex. That seems like a long time to me and I've had that verified by a couple of guys and so I decided to take it for a test drive for our 5th Anniversary last night and I can see why I may have to wait a bit longer. It hurt too much in the tips to try to penetrate my partner, despite ample foreplay and gentle attempted entry, so I guess sex is still out for awhile yet. Oh well, I've waited this long I can wait longer.

The more pressing issue for me is that I can't seem to cum lately. It'll be longer than my usual 2 weeks to “recharge” and I'm concerned. I did have receptive anal sex and it was great and was almost like an orgasm but wasn't quite to the “tipping point”. Maybe I'll get there soon if I keep trying. I hope so. My asssessment is that it definitely takes a little more healing to be able to penetrate a man's anus than a woman's vagina. I guess that's why most of you get to play at 4-6 weeks and I have to wait till week 9. Just assuming here but it seems that way to me now. Bummer... tho it'll definitely be worth the wait...

Anyway, all is good and I'm basically happy. I don't feel the pump in my underwear too much anymore and I can sit normaly. I just took a 7 hour each way trip to my land and worked like hell with a chain saw and other tools and did fine with no discomfort other than my poor back. That's a different story.... I'm supposed to keep pumping my cock up a few times a day for the next few weeks till it's time for real sex, and I just hope I'm healed up enough by then to do it. I'm an optimist tho, mostly, and I think it'll all work out fine.

Here's hoping that all you guys are doing well and having good times with your bionic dicks. I'm having fun with mine even if I'm not having actual sex yet. It's still wonderful just to play with it and feel it again. I've missed this so much! I'm sure you all know what I mean...

Cheers to all,
Steve

[hoseboy]

Hey Steve, Thanks for the update. I think the timing of your healing mirrors what I experienced very closely. You are almost there! Do you know the size the doc put in you?

[hoseboy]

....sorry 18 + 2 just found it. Keep up the good work!