Thursday 8/16 - Two weeks
Two weeks ago I returned from Baltimore with my new gear. A fair amount of pain, and a lot of discomfort. WTF did I do? Now, the pain is only momentary -- flashes at random times that last a few seconds -- and the discomfort is still there, but SO much less than it was. Standing for too long or sitting up for too long will make my scrotum throb, but that too is fading. All in all, the experience is nowhere near as bad as I had made it up to be beforehand.
I was a loose boxers guy for most of my adult life, and then came the prostatectomy and the pads, which forced me back into today's versions of the tightie-whities I grew up with. As my continence improved I migrated back to boxers, usually with just a mini pad, or none at all. Then, BAM! back to Jockeys with a jock strap over top. My boys (three of them now, and not playing nicely together) needed that support, and it kept Little Bob pointed up, which I was told was important. A couple of nights ago, Dr. Kramer told me I could lose the jock, and let the little man point wherever. With boxers and baggy gym shorts, I'm actually pretty comfortable. Regular clothing gets old pretty quickly.
I'm about 20% inflated according to the doc. And about 3" long. Not great, but better than the hiding turtle head I was left with much of the time after my prostatectomy. The doc says he's confident I'll get to 4-1/2 to 5" erect after cycling for 6 months or so. If I can get there, I'll be really happy. I haven't been past 5" since I was a young man, and usually around 2" flaccid (or zero inches if cold
).
I can feel the lumps of the "crinkles" on both sides of my penis from the cylinders not being fully inflated, and can slowly squeeze them away -- they then pop up somewhere else. Definitely feel the tips a little way from the the end of my dick, a.k.a. the glans (
). Pretty strange, but I guess I'll get used to it. The underside of my penis has a numb spot near the frenelum that I'm hoping goes away. Actually the whole thing is strange, but I'm amazed at how seldom I'm consciously aware of it.
The pump -- my new nut... Well, the tenderness of my scrotum has subsided to the point that I've been able to do some exploring. It seems to be located well, below and a little behind my old nuts, and a little to the left. I think I have a pretty good handle on the geometry of the pump. I can definitely feel the "brick" at the top, and am pretty sure I have found the deflate button. The whole thing feels as hard as a rock. The doc said if I get a good feel for it and am comfortable I could try to deflate it before my followup (August 28th). I would like to lose this semi woody, but sure can't imagine putting the big squeeze on this yet. Maybe next week.
I continue to be encouraged by the posts of my bionic brothers who are further into this journey. With a few exceptions, it seems like there is nothing but upside from here out. I had great difficulty climaxing after the prostatectomy (3 times, by hand in the shower; never with the half-assed sex I was able to have with the injections), and am concerned that after the implant it might be tough. It seems pretty standard that guys report their orgasms are way more intense, and that has my head spinning.
I'm really looking forward to "re-connecting' with my wife in that special way....
Bob 2.0
Born '52. Married '79. RALP 3/1/17. ED 50+% prior to surgery even w/ meds. VED, Injections, ineffective. Considering implant even before PCa diagnosis. Dr. Kramer 8/2/17. LGX 21cm+0.5 RTE. Kramer replaced/repositioned pump 12/13/17. Willing to Show/Tell.