My Implant Journey

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[Genome]

All of my worst fears became reality today. Damn I hate being right....but my predictions were 100% accurate.

I lost a full 2.5 inches in length
I lost an inch in girth
I lost 52% of my overall penis size (volume)
Because I have a Titan...there will be almost no expansion. He agreed that was so.
My dick head is loose and that causes discomfort as it folds back on my shaft..
My erection now is smaller than my previous flaccid by 20%

I can only ejaculate/orgasm in making love by firmly rubbing the underside of my penis against my wife's vasginal wall. TODAY I was told TO NOT DO THIS...because of my loose dick head. May hurt and bruise. Shit!

When my penis is flaccid, it still sticks out 6 inches....doesn't hang down. Looks like I have an erection. So I can not change clothes, shower, sauna at the gym anymore without people thinking i am erect. Have no idea how long this may last. Titans are far stiffer flaccid and erect than AMS so you AMS guys cant relate.

I deeply regret ever getting an implant. This if far worse than the ED I had before surgery.

CRAP!


I appreciate all the good wishes and the support you guys have given me. And I just wish that all the good predictions that Jack and Mike told me would happen.....did indeed happen. It happened for them but not for me. (sigh)

[knotreel]

Damm, sorry to hear of your dissapointment. Were you given any encourage that after daly pump ups some of your concerns might be resolved, like the loose glans. I have read some reports of milking the fluid back into the reservoir to give a more normal flacid look, hopefully when you get used to using it you might at least get some relief on that concern. Again I am sorry to hear how thing worked out. Don't give up.
Ron

[tmwstw]

Damnn!! What happenedd?? How?? Put aside the lost length .. From my understanding the only way you get a loose dick head is you're missized really bad. Dr. Milam did not comment on that?? He's supposed to be THE MAN FOR THE JOB .. But a loose dick head is bad, there's no getting around it. You need to ask him what happened to you.

[tmwstw]

Second though you should call David and ask his experiences ... He started out real bad too .. maybe because of the "over size" it'll take longer to get size back? I still dont think Dr. Milam would have done a loose dick head implant. I only hear good things about him. He's fixing messed ups ... This is not how it should be??

[Genome]

Remember....did not get to see Milam...only Doran. Both age good men. But I am not a happy camper. I dont get to see Milam for 3 months.

[Josh_14_11]

There's not an adequate emoticon for this one. All I can say is that you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

[Cajun Jeff]

Jerry, Damn I was so hoping that was not going to be the news of the say. Is there any way to get to see the Dr. sooner. I just dont understand. is the fix a new implant? So mnay thoughts running through my head and I am sure you have so man emotions boiling as well. Jerry Take a deep breath. We on here will all walk with you on this trip.


Cajun Jeff

[antelope]

Like everyone else, I hoped for better news. But don't give up hope, buddy. Keep telling the surgical team "this is not an acceptable outcome." I have to think they will resolve it in some way.

Continued prayers and manly hugs, dude. We're all cheering for you even harder.

[Genome]

One thing I hope no one says to me (well intentioned as it may be)...to try and cheer me up is....

"Well Jerry, at least you have a dependable erection now."


This is an invalid statement for 2 reasons:

(1) It may be inflatable but it is not functional. Because of the loose head I was told to not rub the underside of my penis against the vaginal wall. This is the only way that I can have an orgasm. Never been able to orgasm...with sex or masturbation without aggressive stimulation just under and behind the glans.

(2) It should never have been an either/or choice. It was never presented as an either/or choice. EITHER a reasonable size, snug glans, functionally usable penis OR a dependable prosthesis. It is reasonable to expect an implantation to give you all of those. Nothing less than that is acceptable.


So please...well intentioned as you may be....please dont say that to me, fellows. I do appreciate your support and concern. But that incorrect statement does not help me deal with this.