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ThailandBound wrote:Interesting to read your post friend. I am 9 weeks postop (Dr. Clavell) now. I am in Thailand right now. Just arrived today. I have a ladyboy girlfriend and today was official inauguration day. (see my thread i just started “”Inauguration Day”.

I had many of your concerns, and it worked out great! I’m fact, just got back from dinner and about to go for round 2. Round 2!…..and as recently as this past December i couldn’t get it up!

Will write more later in response to your specific questions.

Zenmasterdj wrote:Hi guys
Just wanted to drop a note and tell everyone about me. I think I will be journaling my "adventure" going forward

Briefly about me.

Started working in strip clubs when I was 19. Started because the money was insane but ended up staying for the lifestyle. Something about making $1500 a night and getting to bang hot girls all the time made me stick around, even though the deception and madness of that lifestyle is rough on a person's psyche.

Not asking for sympathy. Like I said, it was amazing. But just like most things, it comes with a price

I was lost in a world of sex addiction, food addiction and basically gluttony. I was a hedonist in every sense of the word. Thank god I was smart enough to stay away from the drugs or I would probably be dead by now.

The lifestyle was amazing, but again, rough. You think seeing up to 150 hot, naked girls every night would be a dream but after a while you get more turned on by girls with their clothes on.

You think it would be amazing to have sexy young girls come over and touch your cock every few hours in a highly sexually charged work atmosphere, but some nights you just want to do your work and go home.

Like I said, don't feel bad for me. Just listen to my story.

I originally thought the work atmosphere was the reason for my slight ED. Figured i was desensitized from seeing thousands of naked bodies over my almost 20 years in the biz. Thought i had f%*ked my way to not care anymore. Maybe too proud to admit it was a physical problem. I am sure we have all been there.

About ten years ago I quit and opened my own business. Less money. More headaches. But I thought I was doing what was healthy for me. Got married to a beautiful Thai woman.

Had ED problems on our honeymoon (along with the annoying "not being able to cum very easy" problem I also seem to have). Had sex with her maybe 6 times over the next three years. Really shitty of me to make her feel that way but I just thought I was bored of her.

I mean, she would walk around naked and my cock would not get hard. I didn't even wake up in the morning with wood that often. And when We DID have sex, my cock would kinda fade off on me and I would just skip cumming.

I thought maybe it was her but most likely it was me.

Why sugar coat it. It was 100% me.

We got divorced.

Hard to hurt someone I cared about like that, but our relationship had turned into a brother/sister thing without the sexual connection. Again, my fault in the beginning. She just went with it.

So, in search of something that could make me "feel it" again, I sold my businesses (I had two by then) and moved to asia.

Figured I would really feed into my sex addiction. What could go wrong, right?

So I moved to Thailand prepared to have the time of my life living in Pattaya.

But the ED got worse. And the amazing times i had planned turned into occasional fun that worked out when my dick was properly medicated.

In the last 4 years I have tried everything. Every ED drug under the sun. Stem cells (3 times), PRP shots (6 times) and P141 peptides.

All of it worked for a moment in time but faded.

I mean, I have had 3 or 4 women over the last few years that were out of this world hot that actually liked me and wanted to have a relationship with me. But as soon as my dick would start acting up, I would ghost them leaving them wondering why on earth a below average looking 50 year old guy like me would reject a blazing hot 30 something girl like them.

I mean, it really drove a few of them mental.

I passed on all of them and settled for a nice girl who doesn't expect much.

I lay on my back and let her get off a few times a month and she seems content.

I find ways to jerk off when she goes to sleep although the ED makes that hard too.

Now I am finally done trying to struggle through it all and I am going to schedule to have an implant done.

I am still living in asia, but I had a virtual appointment last week with Dr. Jonathan Clavell. Seemed like a nice guy. Seemed passionate. Answered all my questions and deals with people who come in from out of town frequently.

He also seems to have good reviews here.

So I think my plan is to fly into Vegas on April 25th. I have a convention I need to attend. Probably fly over to visit my parents for about ten days and then fly to Houston to get the surgery. Stay in a hotel a few days, see the Doc again and then get on a plane for a 24 hour flight back here.

The 24 hour travel a few days after surgery sounds awful, I know, but he suggested it when I explained my agenda on the trip home.

And of course, I have a million questions

Most of them have already been answered on here, but I still them, gnawing at my brain, know what I mean?

How will my cock feel once it is in there? Like a cock, or like something else? (It feel like a real cock)

Will I really be happy with it, or just content that I have something, instead of basically nothing? (You'll be happy, Erection on Demand)

How much worse than a regular penis will it be? (It is different but not that much different)

How much better? (it can be both) (It is better because you can have an erection anytime you want, you can stay hard and keep having sex as long as you can physical handle it)

My cock is a grower...how uncomfortable will it be to be a shower? And how long will it take to adjust? (I guess it depends on which brand of implant you get. If you get a Titan, I've heard on FrankTalk that they don't shrink much when fully deflated. I have the AMS 700 LGX which has a softer flaccid look, but it still shows but not too much. I have an average 6 inch length, and when it's flaccid, I would say it's around 4 inches, it hasn't caused a problem)

What does it feel like flacid? Or hard? (My AMS 700 feels like a normal flaccid dick when I squeeze all the saline out of the implant tubes, but when you touch it, you can definitely feel the tubes and the tips of the tubes in your glans, but it isn't that bad and you get use to it).

Will I really be able to fuck as much as I want? And...will I want to? (Yes, Yes and Yes. If you have a good sex drive, it will still be the same. If my wife would have sex with me 7 days a week, I would want to, but we have different sex drives so we schedule sex at least twice a week)

How much will it hurt and for how long? (All of us are different and heal different. It took longer for my scrotum and penis to heal and it would hurt when fully inflated after about 30 to 45 minutes. I would say for me, at 4 to 6 months, it started feeling like a regular hard on erection. Now that I'm 16 months out from surgery, it doesn't hurt at all fully inflated for more than an hour.)

And I guess the most important...how can I make sure I do not get an infection? (The doctors will do all the pre surgery lab test to make sure you aren't susceptible to infections and you will be treated before hand to make sure. They test your nostrils for MIRSA bacteria and treat it, if it's there. I also took antibiotics 5 days prior to surgery for prevention).

And on a really personal level, will I go back to be an uncontrollable sex addict again? If my dick can get hard whenever I want for however long as I want, and I am living in a candyland of eager asian pussy, will I lose my mind? (It's up to you, but it sounds like you have a sex drive that is in overdrive.). (Good luck with that).

Honestly the ED has probably kept me from spending myself into the poor house banging 3-4 girls a day. (Settle down with one gal that has the same sex drive as you).

That was just a stream of thought and not really questions for the crowd, I guess.

I am sure I have a bunch more, and I am even more sure that each one of those answers is totally subjective to each person, so I don't expect you to answer. Just kinda putting it all out there.

Maybe just so I can see the words on the screen and remember they were mine.

I appreciate you all and I appreciate this group. I look forward to trying to add some value as I take some from you guys over the next months.

Zen

SWorks17 wrote:

Zenmasterdj wrote:Hi guys
Just wanted to drop a note and tell everyone about me. I think I will be journaling my "adventure" going forward

Briefly about me.

Started working in strip clubs when I was 19. Started because the money was insane but ended up staying for the lifestyle. Something about making $1500 a night and getting to bang hot girls all the time made me stick around, even though the deception and madness of that lifestyle is rough on a person's psyche.

Not asking for sympathy. Like I said, it was amazing. But just like most things, it comes with a price

I was lost in a world of sex addiction, food addiction and basically gluttony. I was a hedonist in every sense of the word. Thank god I was smart enough to stay away from the drugs or I would probably be dead by now.

The lifestyle was amazing, but again, rough. You think seeing up to 150 hot, naked girls every night would be a dream but after a while you get more turned on by girls with their clothes on.

You think it would be amazing to have sexy young girls come over and touch your cock every few hours in a highly sexually charged work atmosphere, but some nights you just want to do your work and go home.

Like I said, don't feel bad for me. Just listen to my story.

I originally thought the work atmosphere was the reason for my slight ED. Figured i was desensitized from seeing thousands of naked bodies over my almost 20 years in the biz. Thought i had f%*ked my way to not care anymore. Maybe too proud to admit it was a physical problem. I am sure we have all been there.

About ten years ago I quit and opened my own business. Less money. More headaches. But I thought I was doing what was healthy for me. Got married to a beautiful Thai woman.

Had ED problems on our honeymoon (along with the annoying "not being able to cum very easy" problem I also seem to have). Had sex with her maybe 6 times over the next three years. Really shitty of me to make her feel that way but I just thought I was bored of her.

I mean, she would walk around naked and my cock would not get hard. I didn't even wake up in the morning with wood that often. And when We DID have sex, my cock would kinda fade off on me and I would just skip cumming.

I thought maybe it was her but most likely it was me.

Why sugar coat it. It was 100% me.

We got divorced.

Hard to hurt someone I cared about like that, but our relationship had turned into a brother/sister thing without the sexual connection. Again, my fault in the beginning. She just went with it.

So, in search of something that could make me "feel it" again, I sold my businesses (I had two by then) and moved to asia.

Figured I would really feed into my sex addiction. What could go wrong, right?

So I moved to Thailand prepared to have the time of my life living in Pattaya.

But the ED got worse. And the amazing times i had planned turned into occasional fun that worked out when my dick was properly medicated.

In the last 4 years I have tried everything. Every ED drug under the sun. Stem cells (3 times), PRP shots (6 times) and P141 peptides.

All of it worked for a moment in time but faded.

I mean, I have had 3 or 4 women over the last few years that were out of this world hot that actually liked me and wanted to have a relationship with me. But as soon as my dick would start acting up, I would ghost them leaving them wondering why on earth a below average looking 50 year old guy like me would reject a blazing hot 30 something girl like them.

I mean, it really drove a few of them mental.

I passed on all of them and settled for a nice girl who doesn't expect much.

I lay on my back and let her get off a few times a month and she seems content.

I find ways to jerk off when she goes to sleep although the ED makes that hard too.

Now I am finally done trying to struggle through it all and I am going to schedule to have an implant done.

I am still living in asia, but I had a virtual appointment last week with Dr. Jonathan Clavell. Seemed like a nice guy. Seemed passionate. Answered all my questions and deals with people who come in from out of town frequently.

He also seems to have good reviews here.

So I think my plan is to fly into Vegas on April 25th. I have a convention I need to attend. Probably fly over to visit my parents for about ten days and then fly to Houston to get the surgery. Stay in a hotel a few days, see the Doc again and then get on a plane for a 24 hour flight back here.

The 24 hour travel a few days after surgery sounds awful, I know, but he suggested it when I explained my agenda on the trip home.

And of course, I have a million questions

Most of them have already been answered on here, but I still them, gnawing at my brain, know what I mean?

How will my cock feel once it is in there? Like a cock, or like something else? (It feel like a real cock)

Will I really be happy with it, or just content that I have something, instead of basically nothing? (You'll be happy, Erection on Demand)

How much worse than a regular penis will it be? (It is different but not that much different)

How much better? (it can be both) (It is better because you can have an erection anytime you want, you can stay hard and keep having sex as long as you can physical handle it)

My cock is a grower...how uncomfortable will it be to be a shower? And how long will it take to adjust? (I guess it depends on which brand of implant you get. If you get a Titan, I've heard on FrankTalk that they don't shrink much when fully deflated. I have the AMS 700 LGX which has a softer flaccid look, but it still shows but not too much. I have an average 6 inch length, and when it's flaccid, I would say it's around 4 inches, it hasn't caused a problem)

What does it feel like flacid? Or hard? (My AMS 700 feels like a normal flaccid dick when I squeeze all the saline out of the implant tubes, but when you touch it, you can definitely feel the tubes and the tips of the tubes in your glans, but it isn't that bad and you get use to it).

Will I really be able to fuck as much as I want? And...will I want to? (Yes, Yes and Yes. If you have a good sex drive, it will still be the same. If my wife would have sex with me 7 days a week, I would want to, but we have different sex drives so we schedule sex at least twice a week)

How much will it hurt and for how long? (All of us are different and heal different. It took longer for my scrotum and penis to heal and it would hurt when fully inflated after about 30 to 45 minutes. I would say for me, at 4 to 6 months, it started feeling like a regular hard on erection. Now that I'm 16 months out from surgery, it doesn't hurt at all fully inflated for more than an hour.)

And I guess the most important...how can I make sure I do not get an infection? (The doctors will do all the pre surgery lab test to make sure you aren't susceptible to infections and you will be treated before hand to make sure. They test your nostrils for MIRSA bacteria and treat it, if it's there. I also took antibiotics 5 days prior to surgery for prevention).

And on a really personal level, will I go back to be an uncontrollable sex addict again? If my dick can get hard whenever I want for however long as I want, and I am living in a candyland of eager asian pussy, will I lose my mind? (It's up to you, but it sounds like you have a sex drive that is in overdrive.). (Good luck with that).

Honestly the ED has probably kept me from spending myself into the poor house banging 3-4 girls a day. (Settle down with one gal that has the same sex drive as you).

That was just a stream of thought and not really questions for the crowd, I guess.

I am sure I have a bunch more, and I am even more sure that each one of those answers is totally subjective to each person, so I don't expect you to answer. Just kinda putting it all out there.

Maybe just so I can see the words on the screen and remember they were mine.

I appreciate you all and I appreciate this group. I look forward to trying to add some value as I take some from you guys over the next months.

Zen

**********I added all my answers to your questions in parentheses next to your questions above. ***********

I hope you move forward with the implant, it's made a big difference in my manhood being able to satisfy my wife and satisfy my desire to have sex also.

Good Luck