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A little over 4 weeks out and decided I needed to try out the new equipment.
Have a strange relationship with my spouse right now, we're going through a divorce and have been separated for 6 months, but there aren't really options for dating for me in the country we live in right now so asked the wife if she would be down for trying it out. We go back and forth hating each other's guts, but timing was right and she said sure.

some thoughts:
- I still have some swelling and a lot of numbness on the underside of my dick and half my scrotum. Also I had to wear a condom which I'm not used to. All together this reduced sensation quite a bit and ultimately I wasn't able to orgasm. (part of not being able to orgasm could be the relationship issues..it was strange as fuck being with her in this situation).
- I tried just a couple positions, a couple variations of me on top and her riding me. It didn't hurt at all like I was fearing, but maybe it was just cause I wasn't pumped up more, but it felt strange near the base, especially when she was on top and like grinding back and forth vs up and down. It just didn't at all feel the way it used to.
- I struggled being in the moment. Like pre-implant, my head regularly wandered to my dick like I was checking in on it to make sure it wasn't going flaccid. I imagine when you get used to it, this happens less and less. it's still crazy awesome that I can wear a condom, take as long as I want, and not have to worry about losing my erection.
- She knows all about the implant of course, and says in some ways that had I gotten this years before our relationship may have ended differently. That ship has long sailed though.
- When I asked her what it felt like inside, she said it just felt like a dick. I only pumped up to maybe 70% for my own comfort. She said she would have never guessed it wasn't my natural erection (even though the shape is slightly different, she didn't spend much time looking at it though).
- I asked her if she was weirded out at all by it....she said no, but I think honestly she was a little bit. She didn't want to see how it worked, but she did ask some questions. She said she was trying to hear as I pumped if it made any sounds and she didn't hear anything.
- When I'm back on the dating scene I'm going to need some strategies for new partners. I went to bed completely drained and while it doesn't take me a lot of pumps to get hard, it was still awkward at the moment. Due to our relationship there wasn't a lot of foreplay and she didn't want me to go down on her. Even with existing partners I wonder how not to make it awkward, if you're going down on her you have some time (although not always in the best positon to pump), but if you're just touching for forplay then it seems awkward to stop touching her so you can pump yourself up...I dunno, I'm sure I'll get used to it.

Overall, I'm very happy and looking forward to an upcoming trip to Thailand in a couple weeks when I'll get to have a lot more variety trying it out

Congratulations on your inaugural session friend. This is a big day for all of us.

What you describe on 2 levels i can really relate to:

1. numbness is n scrotum and base of shaft. Yep. My inaugural was at 10 weeks. Experienced that. We fucked daily for almost 3 weeks. By week 3 i could sense improvement. The nerves are still repairing themselves. This is a slow process. Had sensation mid shaft, but not 100%. Fortunately good sensation in top third of shaft + glans. I asked the GF to focus her oral and manual attentions there. When fucking i just plowed in all the way. Felt good, but i was conscious i still have a ways to go to full sensitivity. I want to return to the point she can lick/tickle my balls and i can feel it.

2. That loss of being in the moment i can relate too. Early sessions felt awkward. Self conscious. “when do i pump”, “this is bionic me, not natural me?….how does it feel? hmmm?”. The mind races into the future. “when does this improve?”. “is this it?”. “hey, i’m distracted by all these thoughts, yet, here i am, fucking away anyway”.

All that stuff. Here, i lean on our predecessors much further along. They consistently report:

1. Sensation generally returns completely, over time. Patience is required.

2. Adapting to your “new normal” takes time. At this point it still feels a bit alien. Again, our predecessors report that over time it will feel “like you”, and normal.

Choice of partner helps. I lost my self consciousness pretty fast with my girl once i realized she was fascinated by it, and actually wanted to pump it up. It was like a toy to her. She wasn’t shy about randomly giving it playful squeezes at odd moments. (on the beach as we laid in lounge chairs, for instance). With her, i had my first sense that this actually can be fun.

She also likes to brag to her girlfriend about how i “have power” for a very long time.

Anyway, home in the US now. Now waiting until my return to Thailand in July. With that much more healing under my belt, i am optimistic that my experience will improve.

Keep us posted on your own Thailand experience!

ThailandBound wrote:Congratulations on your inaugural session friend. This is a big day for all of us.

What you describe on 2 levels i can really relate to:

1. numbness is n scrotum and base of shaft. Yep. My inaugural was at 10 weeks. Experienced that. We fucked daily for almost 3 weeks. By week 3 i could sense improvement. The nerves are still repairing themselves. This is a slow process. Had sensation mid shaft, but not 100%. Fortunately good sensation in top third of shaft + glans. I asked the GF to focus her oral and manual attentions there. When fucking i just plowed in all the way. Felt good, but i was conscious i still have a ways to go to full sensitivity. I want to return to the point she can lick/tickle my balls and i can feel it.

2. That loss of being in the moment i can relate too. Early sessions felt awkward. Self conscious. “when do i pump”, “this is bionic me, not natural me?….how does it feel? hmmm?”. The mind races into the future. “when does this improve?”. “is this it?”. “hey, i’m distracted by all these thoughts, yet, here i am, fucking away anyway”.

All that stuff. Here, i lean on our predecessors much further along. They consistently report:

1. Sensation generally returns completely, over time. Patience is required.

2. Adapting to your “new normal” takes time. At this point it still feels a bit alien. Again, our predecessors report that over time it will feel “like you”, and normal.

Choice of partner helps. I lost my self consciousness pretty fast with my girl once i realized she was fascinated by it, and actually wanted to pump it up. It was like a toy to her. She wasn’t shy about randomly giving it playful squeezes at odd moments. (on the beach as we laid in lounge chairs, for instance). With her, i had my first sense that this actually can be fun.

She also likes to brag to her girlfriend about how i “have power” for a very long time.

Anyway, home in the US now. Now waiting until my return to Thailand in July. With that much more healing under my belt, i am optimistic that my experience will improve.

Keep us posted on your own Thailand experience!

Thanks for taking the time for such a detailed response! I've been following you on your journey and very happy for you for your successes. I'll be sure to update about Thailand!

Although I'm weirded out by whom you had sex with Congrats on the test run.
My first time felt good during, my orgasm was long overdue, and I filled the wife with a good load. Afterwards I hurt, bad. Had to go sit in a hot bath for 30 minutes to ease the pain down. My shaft felt like it had been squished in a vice, my sack was sore from the banging into the wife's rear. It took six months to get used to the fact I could get an erection at any time and re-learn how to use it.

Reshuffle wrote:A little over 4 weeks out and decided I needed to try out the new equipment.
Have a strange relationship with my spouse right now, we're going through a divorce and have been separated for 6 months, but there aren't really options for dating for me in the country we live in right now so asked the wife if she would be down for trying it out. We go back and forth hating each other's guts, but timing was right and she said sure.

Congrats!

This situation sounds really weird but give you future ex credit for giving it a test ride. I'm sure that you'll make better use of it soon.

ThailandBound wrote:2. That loss of being in the moment i can relate too. Early sessions felt awkward. Self conscious. “when do i pump”, “this is bionic me, not natural me?….how does it feel? hmmm?”. The mind races into the future. “when does this improve?”. “is this it?”. “hey, i’m distracted by all these thoughts, yet, here i am, fucking away anyway”.

For me this was just like having the world off my shoulders during sex... No thoughts of what if I come early, if I can't come, if I lose the erection, etc. Took all the performance things I worried about completely out of the equation. I know it's going to be hard until I tell it to be soft. It feels somewhat surreal though, but if I knew then what I know now and I had had ED at 18 I would have opted for this over my natural penis. I mean as long as your penis is working right why modify anything you know? But God how I wish I had known about this way earlier in my ED journey. It's probably a good thing I didn't know about this at 18 and had ED though, stress of sex for me kept my partners down significantly I wouldn't be in the teens I would be in the '30s or '40s... 50s... 60s... I had a slew of opportunity I turned down due to the mental stress it put me under. That just doesn't exist now.

Old Guy wrote:Although I'm weirded out by whom you had sex with Congrats on the test run.
My first time felt good during, my orgasm was long overdue, and I filled the wife with a good load. Afterwards I hurt, bad. Had to go sit in a hot bath for 30 minutes to ease the pain down. My shaft felt like it had been squished in a vice, my sack was sore from the banging into the wife's rear. It took six months to get used to the fact I could get an erection at any time and re-learn how to use it.

And THAT is the gold nugget of information and cause for optimism for the rest of us less further along:

6 months.

I too hurt post-sex those first few times. Had to tap out after a full hour of banging away a couple of times, without cumming. (frustrating). I sensed that i wasn’t yet where i would eventually be, and have always been optimistic. And as the weeks pass, everything is getting better. The discomfort of cycling. Sensation.

Wishing you continued and ever increasing enjoyment in sex and life amigo.

phliptrip wrote:

ThailandBound wrote:2. That loss of being in the moment i can relate too. Early sessions felt awkward. Self conscious. “when do i pump”, “this is bionic me, not natural me?….how does it feel? hmmm?”. The mind races into the future. “when does this improve?”. “is this it?”. “hey, i’m distracted by all these thoughts, yet, here i am, fucking away anyway”.

For me this was just like having the world off my shoulders during sex... No thoughts of what if I come early, if I can't come, if I lose the erection, etc. Took all the performance things I worried about completely out of the equation. I know it's going to be hard until I tell it to be soft. It feels somewhat surreal though, but if I knew then what I know now and I had had ED at 18 I would have opted for this over my natural penis. I mean as long as your penis is working right why modify anything you know? But God how I wish I had known about this way earlier in my ED journey. It's probably a good thing I didn't know about this at 18 and had ED though, stress of sex for me kept my partners down significantly I wouldn't be in the teens I would be in the '30s or '40s... 50s... 60s... I had a slew of opportunity I turned down due to the mental stress it put me under. That just doesn't exist now.

YES, this is amazing and awesome to me. I too had ED from my first sexual encounters. I had so many opportunities that I either turned down or attempted and failed and the relationships just fell apart in the early stages thereafter (who can blame a girl for not wanting to be with a guy in his 20s with ED). Even though I kept having thoughts during my first post-implant sex about my penis, I kept reminding myself that I had no worries anymore, it wasn't going anywhere, I can just fuck and enjoy it. It was just so strange, and a little distracting. I can't wait to where that is just my new normal. It really does feel like this is just a second chance on a lot of things. One 6 months ago I didn't even know existed.

The last time I had sex was before I got my implant, unfortunately. Things don't always work out as expected.

dg_moore wrote:The last time I had sex was before I got my implant, unfortunately. Things don't always work out as expected.

I'm sorry for your situation.
God bless.