Before the pandemic, I was an occasional user of recreational drugs (mostly stimulants, some psychedelics). Lock-downs in France were long and hard (no pun intended) and I started to work way too much, in an apartment too small and dark, with virtually no “life retribution” (i.e. concerts, movie, hiking…). What was occasional became weekly: I abused stimulants, group sex, masturbated chronically and probably hurt myself this way.
[2021] hits, I quit stimulants, slightly disgusted by them and noticed something strange: some kind of narrowing, distal flaccidity with some length loss. I did not consult for this: I stopped smoking, started to run on a weekly basis, hopping for things to resolve by themselves. By the end of this year, I clearly could feel the scar and sex became uncomfortable. I must have masturbated 10 times this year, twice for sperm conservation.
[2022] I finally see a doc, start using a VED daily, had PRP shots but could not feel any improvement. Depending on the quality of my erections, either I did not feel much or sex was simply painful. Masturbation was tricky but easier with the VED. I felt that it was a bit too late for the conservative treatments so I started to conceive implant as my salvation. In the meantime, I broke up with my girlfriend after 7 years and my uncle died.
I met several European surgeons who labeled me as psychogenic and, because I was complaining about a length loss while being still fairly long, as a C.U.R.S.E.D. Those m**her-f**kers, when I think about it. Osmonov was the worst: I went all the way to Kiel to be told that I should consult a sexologist because an injection of Edex worked; as if it was that simple. When I mentioned what I thought to be the origin of my ED, it was even worst: I was labeled as some kind of psychotic. This was reinforced by the fact that I do give a non-standard impression: I am inked, shave my head like a lot of metalheads who loose their hair and I am slightly on the autistic spectrum. The only one who took me seriously was Salvatore Sansalone who works with Djinovic in Belgrade but I had some red flags about this clinic. Guys, don’t look for an external validation and trust yourselves: I lost time, length and sanity points looking for a competent doctor. Here is the list of whom I do not recommend:
- Jonas Wilisch, Lyon France
- Jean-Etienne Terrier, Lyon France, The great PRP Inquisitor
- David Ralph, London UK: he was really nice but, since he could not feel the scar, considered me as psychogenic
- Daniar Osmonov, Kiel Germany: I just don’t understand why I received such hostility from him. We are both asian looking educated men with names from eastern Europe. I came all the way to see him, tried to explain what the problem was and was treated like some kind of junky
[2023] After several attempts with injections and worsening of my condition (if you have a distal hourglass, a restorex is not a very good idea), increasing dents,crushed, I finally found my surgeon. Fuck France, fuck Europe, I went to Atlanta GA. Hakky could cut the scar, managed to put a Titan 24 and warned me that this aggressive sizing would involve a lot of work and pain. With time and cycling, I may recover some of what I lost with the hourglass. Hope the Titan breaks it like it broke me. Right now, it does not look good but I haven't start cycling yet. I’ll keep you posted.
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