14 Days............Counting....Gulp!

[saytar]

Well, 6/22/15 is the I day, if I don't chicken out I'll join the "bionic" club......always admired the "6 million dollar man" up to now............But have always had an aversion to doing anything that I couldn't undo. Guess it's my innate personality of always being "in control".....one reason I never got into maryjawannie or drugs.....(that and hated falling asleep while everyone else got....well you know had cover's fun....typical teenager I guess).

I can occasionally get a "fair" erection, but it's hard (no pun intended) to keep it staying there. Done the pump thing, was so so not really a solution, tried the pills (Cialis is only one that worked much), tried injections, gave those up real quick......ouch! Four hour uncomfortable hard on's. So I know that it's not ALL gone.......yet, but fading fast. Even with this fact hard to get the thinking head around the fact that once down the road with this, there's no going back (I know, I know ED rarely gets better............darn it).

64 here, started having "issues" about 12 yrs ago, but put it off for awhile thinking just "tired issues" due to Over the The Road Driving for several years (which I'm sure didn't help at all and most likely helped it along). At least I've managed to not lose too much length due to this as I've been able to "simulate" the morning wood somewhat (which is getting harder and harder to do ) several times a week since their is still SOME response with intense effort, but miss the "driving nails" erections at the mere thought of sex, of days gone bye. But something has to be done I suppose.......have some tremendous memories of lots and lots and lots of "adult fun" in my 30's and 40's (was a slow starter in High School and after for a few years) and definitely made up for any deficiencies in my younger days. I would like to at least be able to "recapture" those times if something came my way..right now no way...........sigh......sigh...

Girlfriend (of 14yrs) says I don't need to do this for her......and she's right somewhat as we're both not spring chickens anymore. I'm doing it for ME, selfish I guess, but I sure miss looking down and seeing "the boy" perked up a rev'ing the motor so to say at the sight of a pretty, long female's set of legs...I've grown found of "him" over the years and would like to keep him around "loud and proud" a while longer as I've seen on others what happens if you don't use it or abuse it often.........and it's not a pretty, or impressive sight, downright depressing to say the least. It's kinda of like a gun..........if it's not loaded then what good is it !

My main concern is a ooops moment while the Dr. (who is very good I believe) is "installing" everything.............the thought of sharp objects..not under MY full control..slicing around around the "boy and friends" is terrifying......watched more than a few video's of the "procedure", their sure not gentle....I made the GP Dr. (that had treated me over 10yrs) that did my vasectomy 30 + yrs ago put a mirror at the end of the table.....................so I could keep an eye on him and those sharp objects! He got a laugh out of that.....I did too.........afterwards. This type surgery is not "reversible" like a vasectomy and the thoughts of what COULD happen, at least it try's to do something now....................gulp! Now if they could put everything back later, just in case I'd have no problem with it!

Hoping they install the implant that allows for a little "growing".....always was a "grower, not a shower". Dr. hasn't decided yet which one to use, I think he's waiting to see what he's got to work with first, he said that all of them are available to him if he wants any particular one.

Just hope this surgery works right the first time and doesn't have to be repeated.........................Now if they could sweeten the pot a little and "add" a few centimeters and add a sexy nurse or two while their at it..............

[RelievedofED1]

Your story and your concerns sound familiar. Sounds like it is time to take a chance. My only regret is that I didnt push my docs hard enough (pun inteneded) to go through all the treatments when the first steps mainly pills werent working. Seems to be a wall they dont want to go past when it comes to injections and then implants. There is no going back one said but at least at this point not sure why I would ever want to, You will hear a lot of bad or less than ideal outcomes on websites like this. When we have issues we want to reach out to others who understand especially when the surgeon says oh well get over it. On the other hasnd I suspect many of us without anything but good news re pain, size and function dont post on the site or quickly stop as we are too busy taking care of some other part of our life or feel guilty because we had no issues after implant. That said there were others here that gave me encouragement and confirmed my choice of surgeon. The biggest thing with any surgery is do you have a great choice other than surgery so that if anything doesnt work out are you that much worse off after. In my case I was losing function like you with less and less ability to wake my penis up ever. And injections were impossible to predict and were causing scarring despite my local urologist saying no. Why they dont believe us????? It's our penis and we know our penis.

Big thing is to pick a surgeon that routinely does these on a regular basis as volume is important. And then plan to take time off from life for two weeks post op to lay around and not lift or sit/stand more than occasionally as swelling is hydraulic force pulling things apart and is not your friend.

Sounds like you are ready. We will all be thinking of you and looking forward to hearing how it went. I hope you are as disappointed as I was over the last few weeks since mine, less pain and swelling than I expected and great function sooner than he had told me to expect. And of course I am kidding about disappointed. I couldnt be happier and my wife backs me up on that.

[KMeister]

Well, 6/22/15 is the I day, if I don't chicken out I'll join the "bionic" club...

Saytar, who is the uro doing the surgery?

[tampagay]

Saytar, I am one week in and 6 years your junior and my issue resulted from a prostatectomy. I was totally impotent for over 5 years. Today is one week after the implant. When you get the bandages changed the first time you're going to be shocked, swollen and bruised. For me I took Percocet every 4-6 hours for 2 days and haven't taken one since. A triple abdominal hernia a few months back hurt a LOT more. At one week I can already tell that life is going to get better. For me going back would have returned me to a state where I had no chance anyway.

Your biggest risk is infection requiring removal. I was given a rather extensive bathing procedure for the night before and wipe downs with disinfecting cloths the morning of. Prior to that on my own I bought a big bottle of Hibiclens and made sure to bathe my torso and groin with it during the week preceding the surgery. I still use the Hibiclens daily and the nurses who bandage me each day have said I am healing faster than most and zero signs of infection.

The net of all this rambling is I am saying to do it and don't look back. I wish I had done it years ago.

[alibaba]

Saytar, I feel the same way about take the route of no return. I think that slaps us in the face the hardest when we have had a prostatectomy and I guarantee everyone who has had one wishes it could be undone. Makes it VERY tough to take another no return journey which may or may not do what we were sold. At least the do's seen to outnumber the don'ts. Makes it even tougher when the doc tells you that at your age it will probably have to be replaced at least 3-4 times in your lifetime.
Best of luck.
d

[saytar]

Well, 6/22/15 is the I day, if I don't chicken out I'll join the "bionic" club...

Saytar, who is the uro doing the surgery?

My urologist in OKC.........appear's to be quite good. Seems he travels to the main hospital (OU) and one in another town around here, does quite a few "robotic surgery" for other urologist's patient's and does some sponsoring internship's it seems.

I figure if he does that many robotic's then he must have a pretty good eye and touch, especially if other urologist have him do their "hard surgeries". Told him about my dual iligual hernia surgeries years ago and he said no problem on placing the resevoir...........

[saytar]

Saytar, I feel the same way about take the route of no return. I think that slaps us in the face the hardest when we have had a prostatectomy and I guarantee everyone who has had one wishes it could be undone. Makes it VERY tough to take another no return journey which may or may not do what we were sold. At least the do's seen to outnumber the don'ts. Makes it even tougher when the doc tells you that at your age it will probably have to be replaced at least 3-4 times in your lifetime.
Best of luck.
d

I'm hoping for that implant that "keeps on ticking" like the Timex watch's (the older one's pre China). At the very least maybe no more than one more before Nirvana.

[saytar]

Saytar, I am one week in and 6 years your junior and my issue resulted from a prostatectomy. I was totally impotent for over 5 years. Today is one week after the implant. When you get the bandages changed the first time you're going to be shocked, swollen and bruised. For me I took Percocet every 4-6 hours for 2 days and haven't taken one since. A triple abdominal hernia a few months back hurt a LOT more. At one week I can already tell that life is going to get better. For me going back would have returned me to a state where I had no chance anyway.

Your biggest risk is infection requiring removal. I was given a rather extensive bathing procedure for the night before and wipe downs with disinfecting cloths the morning of. Prior to that on my own I bought a big bottle of Hibiclens and made sure to bathe my torso and groin with it during the week preceding the surgery. I still use the Hibiclens daily and the nurses who bandage me each day have said I am healing faster than most and zero signs of infection.

The net of all this rambling is I am saying to do it and don't look back. I wish I had done it years ago.

That has been a major concern....sure hate to lose "my friend" over an infection...................I do have a gallon of Chlorhexidine 2% around the House (mix dowm for own mouthwash, wound care, etc). Could use that for at least a once daily "freshing". But I usually use betadine for those things............the Chlorhexidene is mainly for other half, she is allergic to Betadine, I'm not, its my go to wound care.......

Is everyone SURE that loving feeling (natural woodie's) doesn't ever come back?????? LOL Some days it seems to want to try....other's are a total washout. After a T shot it sometimes trys a little, but several days after..............nada.

[FlaDon]

Sayter,

Even after the implant, you can still get some residual erection around the implant. I had a venous leak, and the doctor explained that the implant in some cases can slow or stop the leak, and the remaining erectile tissues can still become engorged around the implanted cylinders, particularly when you are very aroused. So, yes, you may still get some of "that loving feeling".

[saytar]

Sayter,

Even after the implant, you can still get some residual erection around the implant. I had a venous leak, and the doctor explained that the implant in some cases can slow or stop the leak, and the remaining erectile tissues can still become engorged around the implanted cylinders, particularly when you are very aroused. So, yes, you may still get some of "that loving feeling".

Seems kinda of "shallow" to worry about such things doesn't it.................now if they come up with an implant that mimic's the real tissue's (but adjustable & tweak-able) they'd have a gold mine. I think mine is a combination of venous leakage and too many years smoking...not really good flow in and too good of flow out.

Just saying...............