My Experience so far with my Titan OTR
Posted: Tue May 17, 2011 1:15 pm
I am amazed at how little discomfort and no pain from the surgery. Walking is a little difficult and gets sore but everyday it gets better. I use to not wear underwear and now I have to, to keep it more hidden. Maybe I should have started wearing underwear a month prior to surgery to get use to that.
How satisfied am I? Like everyone, just wish you could have gotten a little more but since I set my expectation low as a result of a lot of things I read and I turned out a lot better that I expected, I am extremely happy. Would I still make the decision? Knowing everything, I would have done it ten years ago and I would have lost even less. My current loss is not due to the implant. It is what is was prior to surgery but not pre-cancer/ radiation treatments.
I am doing my exercises. Last week I pumped and immediately deflated (well started deflating - I'll explain) and now I pump it up all the way and leave it for 5 minutes 2x a day. Next week I go for 20 minutes 2x a day and try to pump it even after I think it is full. My Doctor says I need to stretch things back up since I was a "didn't use it so I lost it".
The surgery seems to have improved my blood flow surprisingly! It gets a little swollen and twitches on its own and I can see the head swell. Prior to the surgery I basically lost my sex drive. I really thought about just giving it up. I had no sex drive to speak off. Since the surgery? I am fantasizing again and I cannot wait to use it and its been a long time!
Pumping it up... not as simple as I imagined it would be, even though I have seen others say the same. I am also surprised at the size of the pump even though I read it was large. But every time I practice it gets easier. I can get it pumped up in less than a minute and I think that is good. Even after it is pumped I try some more, but I am not feeling that "swish" so I think I have it full.
Deflating is another issue. If you have not had the surgery and you opt to have it done, I would make a note to not leave the hospital without your practice pump also called the "Keychain". You think from the pictures, it would be simple to locate and engage the deflation. But there is some swelling and stitches, etc and it can get slightly confusing at first. I also expected to feel the release pump push in and you feel nothing at all. I feel sort of a "let-down" when it starts to release but sometimes I am not sure if I am imaging it or not. On the video, the guys deflate in seconds (less than a minute) so I guess that is my goal. But right now it takes almost 15-20 minutes to deflate. Now part of that is I do not try and deflate it in one push. I rest so I do not cause discomfort and then release and squeeze again then rest. I think standing up also makes a big difference... does it? is there any other tricks?
I posted that I could not get it really pointing down but I found if I try and try, finally I can get it pretty deflated. I can tell when the tubes are empty because I can feel them "pop" when I compress and let go. At the very end also I can start to feel a swish in reverse. I will also look a little excited, but I do not mind. Before the surgery I was a real grower. I had the opposite problem in the gym, that I would shrink a lot and I also felt uncomfortable then. I might now but I think I will be more proud of the way it hangs.
The only real thing I do not like but my doctor says with the exercise it should correct itself, but he said i had a lot of scarring from the radiation, so one tube sits higher than the other. When I am inflated it is not noticeable, except the head if you look closely tilts slightly right. When I am deflated.. it is VERY noticeable. Maybe I will post some pictures. It really curves to the right..seriously to the right and one of the tubes (the long one) pushes out on the left side and you can see a noticeable bump. Dr. says it is normal and not to worry. Usually it is not bad just after deflation. I think the underwear pushes it right also. I tried to place my penis on the left side, but it is too uncomfortable.
I do not worry and am just more excited about using it. I cannot believe how much my sex drive is increasing and the thoughts I am starting to have. I feel a live again and that is huge for me. It was just over a year and a half ago I thought I could not cope and tried to take my life. It was really stupid I know, but my despair and pain was great. I was only 42 when i had cancer (E.D. starting showing prior due to MS, but Viagra worked back then), 30 when I was dx with MS, was going through my second divorce and then I had soldiers show up at my door telling me my son was killed (He was a SGT in the Army) and I also just had a hip replacement. I just felt the pain was never going to end and of course, E.D. and being single was horrifying and feeling like you would never feel intimacy again.
Overall I am extremely satisfied with my implant even with some of the "problems". I see a future again.
How satisfied am I? Like everyone, just wish you could have gotten a little more but since I set my expectation low as a result of a lot of things I read and I turned out a lot better that I expected, I am extremely happy. Would I still make the decision? Knowing everything, I would have done it ten years ago and I would have lost even less. My current loss is not due to the implant. It is what is was prior to surgery but not pre-cancer/ radiation treatments.
I am doing my exercises. Last week I pumped and immediately deflated (well started deflating - I'll explain) and now I pump it up all the way and leave it for 5 minutes 2x a day. Next week I go for 20 minutes 2x a day and try to pump it even after I think it is full. My Doctor says I need to stretch things back up since I was a "didn't use it so I lost it".
The surgery seems to have improved my blood flow surprisingly! It gets a little swollen and twitches on its own and I can see the head swell. Prior to the surgery I basically lost my sex drive. I really thought about just giving it up. I had no sex drive to speak off. Since the surgery? I am fantasizing again and I cannot wait to use it and its been a long time!
Pumping it up... not as simple as I imagined it would be, even though I have seen others say the same. I am also surprised at the size of the pump even though I read it was large. But every time I practice it gets easier. I can get it pumped up in less than a minute and I think that is good. Even after it is pumped I try some more, but I am not feeling that "swish" so I think I have it full.
Deflating is another issue. If you have not had the surgery and you opt to have it done, I would make a note to not leave the hospital without your practice pump also called the "Keychain". You think from the pictures, it would be simple to locate and engage the deflation. But there is some swelling and stitches, etc and it can get slightly confusing at first. I also expected to feel the release pump push in and you feel nothing at all. I feel sort of a "let-down" when it starts to release but sometimes I am not sure if I am imaging it or not. On the video, the guys deflate in seconds (less than a minute) so I guess that is my goal. But right now it takes almost 15-20 minutes to deflate. Now part of that is I do not try and deflate it in one push. I rest so I do not cause discomfort and then release and squeeze again then rest. I think standing up also makes a big difference... does it? is there any other tricks?
I posted that I could not get it really pointing down but I found if I try and try, finally I can get it pretty deflated. I can tell when the tubes are empty because I can feel them "pop" when I compress and let go. At the very end also I can start to feel a swish in reverse. I will also look a little excited, but I do not mind. Before the surgery I was a real grower. I had the opposite problem in the gym, that I would shrink a lot and I also felt uncomfortable then. I might now but I think I will be more proud of the way it hangs.
The only real thing I do not like but my doctor says with the exercise it should correct itself, but he said i had a lot of scarring from the radiation, so one tube sits higher than the other. When I am inflated it is not noticeable, except the head if you look closely tilts slightly right. When I am deflated.. it is VERY noticeable. Maybe I will post some pictures. It really curves to the right..seriously to the right and one of the tubes (the long one) pushes out on the left side and you can see a noticeable bump. Dr. says it is normal and not to worry. Usually it is not bad just after deflation. I think the underwear pushes it right also. I tried to place my penis on the left side, but it is too uncomfortable.
I do not worry and am just more excited about using it. I cannot believe how much my sex drive is increasing and the thoughts I am starting to have. I feel a live again and that is huge for me. It was just over a year and a half ago I thought I could not cope and tried to take my life. It was really stupid I know, but my despair and pain was great. I was only 42 when i had cancer (E.D. starting showing prior due to MS, but Viagra worked back then), 30 when I was dx with MS, was going through my second divorce and then I had soldiers show up at my door telling me my son was killed (He was a SGT in the Army) and I also just had a hip replacement. I just felt the pain was never going to end and of course, E.D. and being single was horrifying and feeling like you would never feel intimacy again.
Overall I am extremely satisfied with my implant even with some of the "problems". I see a future again.
and during the next 6 months pump at least once daily (mild stretch or mild discomfort) for 10-15 minutes each day for 6 months.