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Update on my situation (I can't find my old thread)

A month ago I combined two drugs, cialis and pt-141. This gave me an incredibly strong erection as I lay down to sleep, I masturbated and it went away. I woke up with another one that took a long time to get rid of. I initially suspected priapism damage but it might be trauma to my ischiocavernosus and bulbospongiosus muscles, as along with nearly complete ED I have some symptoms similar of those with 'hard flaccid'. Thing is recovery stories are so rare with that condition, and mine is quite severe.

My uro was skeptical, and apart from all the new spider veins and blue ones on my penis (which he said he couldn't explain). He said it looked fine. Despite it being very firm whilst still flaccid, which it never was before. From my understanding my condition is rare, as in I'm the only person from my research who damaged themselves in such a way, and has all the symptoms I do. So I understand my uro to be skeptical and say it's all in my head. I have a doppler next week though.

Unfortunately it seems urology is one of treatments and less about finding the exact cause sometimes, but I would like to get in queue for an implant in my country as it takes years and in that time I can see if it improves but if not I have a solution. I don't know how to bring this up with my uro though and let him understand my reasoning and be convincing? Especially if I don't want to use VED or injections.

A few other questions:

How would an implant work if the ischiocavernosus and/or bulbospongiosus muscle were chronically tense/damaged? Would they pull on it a bunch? or hurt?

Any young guys with implants have any stories to share?

How do you mentally cope with ED at a young age? I'm to embarrassed to tell my parents or family that I took drugs and rendered myself impotent. Life was so amazing before this (minus my performance anxiety ED) but still it's tough to deal with. (maybe this should be in the emotional support section)

I am familiar with the peptide PT-141 haven used it for some time in the past. It is dose dependent and increases your desire. Cialis increases the blood flow but only when arrousal is happening. Without major organic issues you should have needed neither at a young age. That said, my understanding of the 2 muscles you described are they are both at the base of the penis and have differing purposes. I am no doctor, but a lot of these things take time to heal down there and you have been through a pschological trama with it so that may need to heal too. Implants should be a last resort as there is no going back from that.

Thanks for the reply, I know it's a big decision but I rendered myself impotent and this gives me hope.

I know I needed neither, I know I made a crazy mistake. Biggest mistake of my life but I had no idea how dangerous it was at the time. Which makes it all the harder to tell anyone (I don't think I can ever tell my family the truth). All I needed was time to deal with my mental ED. But what's done is done. I need to fix myself, and I feel implant is how I'll feel as close to normal again. I can accept living with an implant, it is obviously not ideal but I can be happy again with that.

If it were not for surviving crazy mistakes, there would not be old people. We old folks have been through our share too. Best of luck to you. take time to sort through it but do not over think things so they appear to be worse than they are or something that it is not. Everything always works out to one end or another. ED sucks but there are things suckier and you do have the option of a fix if that is what is needed. If your doc says things are fine, maybe you need to take a little time to decompress before you ask for an implant. I can't say the doctors are always right but most are. A mechanical instant hard on has it's appeal, but nothing beats the natural erection of a young man. Been there, did that, enjoyed the hell out of it and wish I could go back there again. If there is any chance you can bring that back, go there first. Even if it takes another year to go through the process or choose the option behind door number 3, you will still be a young man with a lot of road ahead of you. Being young you have an advantage that it might happen. Don't stress. Even if you have to go for a fix, don't stress. It's a mood killer. Cheers bud. d