20 and contemplating implant

[Jrod1998]

Hi,

I’ve had ED since I first started being sexually active. I lost my virginity on my 15th birthday and since then I’ve been dealing with this shit. It started during my second sexual encounter when I didn’t get up for a random girl. For more than a year I suffered with this and it wasn’t until I met my current girlfriend that things got better. We’ve been together for over 3 years now and for the first 2 years of our relationship I didn’t really have any problems.

Almost a year ago when I suffered a groin injury from lifting and swimming the ED started to come back. Although it wasn’t the same as it was before. Before I started dating my girlfriend it was clearly phsycological. At first things weren’t that bad, I just didn’t get up for her one day and it wasn’t a big deal. As time went on I started to fail at least once a week. Then all of the sudden I started failing almost all the time. It wasn’t the phsycological part that was causing this because I had no reason to be nervous or uncomfortable. It was hard to get up no matter what I did, my penis also started leaning to the left as well as maxing out with a weak/soft erection. It wasn’t for a few months of this that it started to weigh on me that my ED had come back and it really started to impact my sense of well being.

I saw my physician to tell him what had been going on. My right groin was really inflamed and covered with swollen lymph nodes. Even now I still get shooting pains down my leg into my foot and right nut. The first time I saw my doctor was about 3 months into the return of my ED. He prescribed me antibiotics and viagra to help. The swelling went down some and the viagra worked great the first time. Then everything started going to hell.

Now it’s been about 6-7 months since I first saw my doctor and my ED is insanely bad. It just keeps getting worse and worse. I don’t get erections in the morning anymore, I can’t remember the last time I got hard randomly, the second I do get an erection it goes limp, and nothing works. I’ve tried up to 200mg of viagra and it’s pretty much ineffective, ive tried Cock rings, penis pumps, off the wall erection pills and creams. When I get up for my girlfriend I put it in and it goes limp after 20 seconds. The only good news is I have surgery on March 5th for a sports hernia after seeing my physician 3 times, as well as going to the urologist, orthopedic, and getting an ultrasound and mri.

If this surgery doesn’t fix my ED I am seriously considering a penile implant. I’m not using shots in my penis to get hard for the rest of my life. It’s really impacting my life. I’m having trouble focusing in college, it’s ruining my social life, and affecting my life as an athlete. I gave a promise ring to my girlfriend and I wanted to be with her for the long hall but I don’t know if that can work out anymore. She has said I’ve ruined sex for her because of everything this has put her through. I’ve had moments where I’ve just completely broken down in front of her. When things were working I had all the confidence in the world. I was doing great in every aspect of my life. I know if things worked again our relationship would be revived. I’ve had serious suicidle thoughts because this is so depressing for me. I know I’m only 20 but I don’t want to go another 5 years with ED, I don’t think I can live through that. What is so hard for me is that simply having confidence back doesn’t change anything because my penis is physically affecting the ED.

[Tmansdorfer]

I know exactly how you feel I have been where you are now The one piece of advice I can give you is to go see a urologist that you can trust that actually cares. He hardest thing for me when I would see my primary care dr and tell them about my loss of erections they would tell me it was in my head and just prescribe viagra. The thing that changed for me is when I found a great urologist that actually took what I was saying and wanted to find the cause. Get a penile Doppler test and that will tell you if there is something physically wrong with you. You may very well need an implant in the future but I would try all the other treatments First. I know this is a hard thing to go through at such a young age so if you need someone to talk to pm me.

[postra7777]

I wouldn't rule out the Trimix injections. They worked great for me until they didn't. If they kept working in would still use them. You get to keep your size (actually makes you have more girth) and you don't have to have a surgery. In your case you'll probably have 4 - 7 revisions in your life time with the current technology. Yes there are down sides to the injections but maybe you can put surgery off long enough to where there is a new ED cure. Once you go bionic there's no going back. Yes an implant is wonderful to those who have tried everything and used it as their last option. I'll say it again, they are making progress everyday with ED cures and with new technology for implants. Man I would an automatic one that you don't have to pump up.

Anyway, my 2 cents. Others probably have a different opinion which is fine. Good luck

[ED2013]

You’ve come to the right place. I understand your situation completely. I lost the love of my life because of the limp penis I had at the time. Don’t give up, there is plenty of hope for a normal sex life in your near future.

[Edrudd]

I am 18 and got ed from a antipsychotic 3 months ago. I am depressed don't know what to do. I don't know if I will ever have erections again. If I don't have, I'll be doing an implant.
I know how you are feeling, trust me. In my case I think it's better because I don't have a gf. But it's devastating to me, I can't go out with my friends anymore because reminds me of this and Devastates me. I dropped out school and don't leave my house. I just want erectioms back.

[Lost Sheep]

I am 18 and got ed from a antipsychotic 3 months ago. I am depressed don't know what to do. I don't know if I will ever have erections again. If I don't have, I'll be doing an implant.
I know how you are feeling, trust me. In my case I think it's better because I don't have a gf. But it's devastating to me, I can't go out with my friends anymore because reminds me of this and Devastates me. I dropped out school and don't leave my house. I just want erectioms back.

This observation may fall on deaf ears, but I assure you, "You are more than your penis."

A whole man is the sum of his parts. Your mind, your hands, your personality (though I recognize that your personality is being affected by your attitude towards your current situation) are vastly more substantial than your erection (or lack of erection.

Also, your E.D. is likely temporary. And even if it is permanent, it is not your entire being.

I recall Henry Kissinger. A rather homely guy. Did you ever see pictures of his wife? Kissinger once said, "Power is the ultimate aphrodisiac." Something to consider as you develop talents. Learn to write (or even just to recite) poetry, make music, Capoeira, ballroom dancing. There is more to enjoy with a woman than sex. More to bring to your male circle of friends than tales of sexual exploits.

Focus on the good things in your life, and on improving them. And give energy to FIXING what is wrong rather than focusing on the wrongness of it.

[alibaba]

Hernias can do that. I had a hernia that caused E.D. . Fixed by 1 doctor that made it worse. Repaired by another and it got better quick. 2 months later prostate cancer put me back in the "it doesn't work any more mode again" though. Cheers buddy. I think the hernia repair will make a big difference.

[needhelp]

Hi,

I’ve had ED since I first started being sexually active. I lost my virginity on my 15th birthday and since then I’ve been dealing with this shit. It started during my second sexual encounter when I didn’t get up for a random girl. For more than a year I suffered with this and it wasn’t until I met my current girlfriend that things got better. We’ve been together for over 3 years now and for the first 2 years of our relationship I didn’t really have any problems.

Almost a year ago when I suffered a groin injury from lifting and swimming the ED started to come back. Although it wasn’t the same as it was before. Before I started dating my girlfriend it was clearly phsycological. At first things weren’t that bad, I just didn’t get up for her one day and it wasn’t a big deal. As time went on I started to fail at least once a week. Then all of the sudden I started failing almost all the time. It wasn’t the phsycological part that was causing this because I had no reason to be nervous or uncomfortable. It was hard to get up no matter what I did, my penis also started leaning to the left as well as maxing out with a weak/soft erection. It wasn’t for a few months of this that it started to weigh on me that my ED had come back and it really started to impact my sense of well being.

I saw my physician to tell him what had been going on. My right groin was really inflamed and covered with swollen lymph nodes. Even now I still get shooting pains down my leg into my foot and right nut. The first time I saw my doctor was about 3 months into the return of my ED. He prescribed me antibiotics and viagra to help. The swelling went down some and the viagra worked great the first time. Then everything started going to hell.

Now it’s been about 6-7 months since I first saw my doctor and my ED is insanely bad. It just keeps getting worse and worse. I don’t get erections in the morning anymore, I can’t remember the last time I got hard randomly, the second I do get an erection it goes limp, and nothing works. I’ve tried up to 200mg of viagra and it’s pretty much ineffective, ive tried Cock rings, penis pumps, off the wall erection pills and creams. When I get up for my girlfriend I put it in and it goes limp after 20 seconds. The only good news is I have surgery on March 5th for a sports hernia after seeing my physician 3 times, as well as going to the urologist, orthopedic, and getting an ultrasound and mri.

If this surgery doesn’t fix my ED I am seriously considering a penile implant. I’m not using shots in my penis to get hard for the rest of my life. It’s really impacting my life. I’m having trouble focusing in college, it’s ruining my social life, and affecting my life as an athlete. I gave a promise ring to my girlfriend and I wanted to be with her for the long hall but I don’t know if that can work out anymore. She has said I’ve ruined sex for her because of everything this has put her through. I’ve had moments where I’ve just completely broken down in front of her. When things were working I had all the confidence in the world. I was doing great in every aspect of my life. My girlfriend also loved having sex with me all the time because I bottom her out. I know if I could just have a working penis again our relationship would be revived. I’ve had serious suicidle thoughts because this is so depressing for me. I know I’m only 20 but I don’t want to go another 5 years with ED, I don’t think I can live through that. What is so hard for me is that simply having confidence back doesn’t change anything because my penis is physically affecting the ED.

jarod1998, our ages may be different but the pain and reality are all the same. I know what your going through. I'm in a very similar situation. Mine all happened 9 months ago. Everything was great for years and then one faithful night my life changed. I'm going 9 months ago from a fully functionable sexual guy for 61 years to now someone who has to decide if I want an implant??.....and yes my gf just dumped me 2 days after her birthday (2 weeks ago). She met someone else. Its got to be one of the most painful things that a guy has to have happen to him, lose your gf because of ED. Valentines day was very difficult for me. Your not alone. This site has been one of the best things that could have happened to me. Every one is so supportive. Don't be afraid to express your feelings. I have. I've cried many nights. Mostly when I'm driving in the car when I'm alone. There times I hate the world for what has happened. Then you read about a guy who has bounced back to tell his story. Its up lifting. I've only been on this site a short time. Many have offer to talk on the phone. I've made some friends. I use to coach football. I was a hard ass on the kids. I wanted them to know that in a game your going to face challenges that will test you. The reality of it LIFE is the biggest challenge. What they did not realize is I wanted them ready for life. I never wanted them to give up because you never really know how strong you are until your tested. And I wanted my boys to beat anything in life. FUCK ED ….. and with all due respect fuck your gf for saying that to you. That was so hurtful. Tell her I said she is a BITCH for saying that. Do not give up jrod1998. If you ever want to chat just let me know.

[Jrod1998]

I am 18 and got ed from a antipsychotic 3 months ago. I am depressed don't know what to do. I don't know if I will ever have erections again. If I don't have, I'll be doing an implant.
I know how you are feeling, trust me. In my case I think it's better because I don't have a gf. But it's devastating to me, I can't go out with my friends anymore because reminds me of this and Devastates me. I dropped out school and don't leave my house. I just want erectioms back.

The best thing I did was being open about it. Tell your friends what’s going on, you’ll probably be surprised how they react. Hiding in the shadows is the worst thing you can do. This site is great but it helps a lot to have people you care about support you.