Penis Version 2.0 - Ongoing Journal

[stephen54]

So a little update, for anyone who may find value in the ongoing narrative and experience. I started another thread, the unfortunately aptly titled:

That &$%#@!! Deflation Button!

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Short version being, after much wrangling I finally...FINALLY...got myself inflated (easy) and then deflated (um, not easy) at home, successfully yesterday, for the first time and despite the wide-eyed hilarity and bemusement of my ever-present, horribly sexually deprived, yet eminently supportive wife. My edema/swelling is down enough for me to slightly better navigate the Titan bulb/deflate valve. Slightly.


Today I cycled it up again and held it inflated, probably at 90% or so, for 45 minutes. Super fucking uncomfortable after the first 10 minutes, wow and holy shit. Very odd, very new, very unnerving feelings. But my dick needs to stretch. I'm 2.5 weeks behind on cycling now because of my lingering swollen sac and my idiotic inability to work that valve. Anyway, seems positive. Seems like what most guys report. Need patience and consistent cycling and my body to stretch and adjust. So I've got a month and a half of daily 2x cycling ahead of me. Not looking forward to this discomfort, but it's whatever. MY DICK GETS HARD ON DEMAND. A little perspective is always helpful.

If there's any value, here's my dick prior to implant surgery. 7.5" length and 6.5" girth. This was on my typical Trimix dose. Sorry this picture rotation thing is maddening to figure out, for god's sake. Also my dick isn't sunburned, wtf...bad lighting. I'm certainly not a photographer.

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Here I am on day 30 post-op, first at home inflation, the one which ended up in a run to the clinic for the emergency deflate.

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For whatever it may be worth. I'm not stuck on the size thing at all. I'm just happily shocked my dick rises to rock hardness in 45 seconds. Will be grateful to recover size over time but...whatever...this weekend is the real world test drive...she's beside herself anxious to play. Me, too. Life is really good.

[stephen54]

Another view of day 30. I know. Fun House Mirror Effect. Unintentional, sorry...

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And below, here it was today, second at home inflation, day 50 post-op, so just 7 weeks out. I know it was not 100% full because I felt the valve still had fluid moving through it when I stopped pumping. It was getting very tight against my skin and I wanted to go 100% but it just got uncomfortable as hell. But I held it about 40 minutes or so.

Despite my declaration that I wouldn't measure...of course I did.

Now I am a full inch less length, now 6.5" or a bit less, and girth is a full inch down too at 5.5". My dick looks really different to me and feels different as hell in my hand. My glans/head is so dramatically smaller, it's crazy! As noted prior, my wife (despite her craving penetration and fullness) is sort of intrigued by the lesser girth. The "this should definitely make anal easier" mantra has been circulating our house. So there's that. Mmmm hmmm....

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[544kenmatt]

Hi Stephen
my experience with size is similar to yours. I didn't measure but I can tell it is shorter and skinnier. The glans is definitely not even close to the fatty I would get with Trimix, in fact, it's downright cold if im not stimulated. However, If I'm masturbating, it does get fuller. it also fills better if im upright instead of lying down. im going to ask about Cialis for this.

I joke with my buddies that it feels like the surgeon sewed somebody else's dick onto my body!

I still can't penetrate as it is still a bit painful to fully inflate. This is getting old.

Ken

[stephen54]

Hi Stephen
my experience with size is similar to yours. I didn't measure but I can tell it is shorter and skinnier. The glans is definitely not even close to the fatty I would get with Trimix, in fact, it's downright cold if im not stimulated. However, If I'm masturbating, it does get fuller. it also fills better if im upright instead of lying down. im going to ask about Cialis for this.

I joke with my buddies that it feels like the surgeon sewed somebody else's dick onto my body!

I still can't penetrate as it is still a bit painful to fully inflate. This is getting old.

Ken

Thanks, Ken, believe me, I am grateful for any and all perspective and feedback from all who can in any way relate to what I'm experiencing.

It's interesting, though...I absolutely feel the old familiar rush of blood to my dick when aroused. It's not remotely like it was pre-op, I'm not saying that. But it's unmistakably blood flowing in and taking up, at least a little bit, of space in there. Has not occurred when I cycle just to cycle (and again, today is only going to be day 3 of cycling so what the hell do I even know at this point) but when I am "flaccid" in the state that I think...think....is deflated (might not be fully, I'm shitty with this process still) if my wife does something...nearly anything...even borderline arousing around me, I do feel some slight engorgement down there.

Will be interesting to see how this plays out over time. I loved how fat and bloated my glans used to be prior to surgery, she did too - the visuals, the feel of it in her hands. But, on balance, it also frequently caused some difficulty. Like....I also need to be honest with myself about that part. It was fat and girthy enough that, not infrequently, it caused her difficulty vaginally. She would adjust but the combination of fat glans and my former shaft/girth with her smallness/tightness would sometimes just push her too hard and she'd have to rest, reposition, change gears, do something else for a while. Would truly not fit easily, or more than the glans and a tiny bit more, into her mouth. God knows she's tried over the years and always makes valiant efforts. So I don't know, maybe in some senses some diminished girth is going to play out to be a blessing and actually open some doors for us...or just make things we already like to do a little easier for her. Hope so.

[MARKOS2018]

Overall Stephen she will be overwhelmed! The more use and cycling will expand your cock and im certain that your wife will be more than satisfied. They get used to that really fast and you of course will feel more aroused and your glans well engorge!

Your pictures look like you are aroused cause the shaft is round in appearance rather than oval, as many with the implant complain.

Good for your quick recovery and have fun with it in the New Year!

Mike

[stephen54]

Overall Stephen she will be overwhelmed! The more use and cycling will expand your cock and im certain that your wife will be more than satisfied. They get used to that really fast and you of course will feel more aroused and your glans well engorge!

Your pictures look like you are aroused cause the shaft is round in appearance rather than oval, as many with the implant complain.

Good for your quick recovery and have fun with it in the New Year!

Mike

Thanks so much Mike! Shaft looks round here but it's bad camera work I think. It feels and looks quite flat, side to side, you know? Oval, like in the horizontal plane. I've read her where that tends to round out with time patience cycling and use. I'm in this for the long haul. All good.

Appreciate the kind words and advice, as always! Take care Mike -

[barrylandon]

Dr. Levine's name keeps popping up on the posts I've been reading lately. I will love to hear input from Dr. Levine's patients, especially Overall Satisfaction? Communication skills? How many implants he does in a typical year? Does he prefer AMS or Coloplast prostheses? Does he ever use RTEs? Anything else you think is important to mention?

Up until now, I've been leaning toward either Dr. Eid in New York or Dr. Mills at UCLA in Los Angeles (I live in Southern California). I'm an information junkie (as you might have already suspected!) so I would love for any of you guys in the community to weigh in on this subject.

[stephen54]

Dr. Levine's name keeps popping up on the posts I've been reading lately. I will love to hear input from Dr. Levine's patients, especially Overall Satisfaction? Communication skills? How many implants he does in a typical year? Does he prefer AMS or Coloplast prostheses? Does he ever use RTEs? Anything else you think is important to mention?

Up until now, I've been leaning toward either Dr. Eid in New York or Dr. Mills at UCLA in Los Angeles (I live in Southern California). I'm an information junkie (as you might have already suspected!) so I would love for any of you guys in the community to weigh in on this subject.

Hey there. I have shared my views on Levine in some of my other comments here, but to answer your basic questions above, my satisfaction with this guy could not be higher at the moment.

I've known him for 9 years. He has treated my hypogonadism/testosterone replacement and my ED. Took me from pills into injections. I left him for insurance plan reasons for several years and was not thrilled with the other guy. Came back to Levine in 2019 when I had 2 years of evidence that injections were coming to an end for me and I knew an implant was next. I did the implant-specific research on Levine and never looked back. I always trusted his judgment and implant was no different. I think he's done something approaching 3,000 implants.

If you read through my stuff you'll see my post-implant experience in some detail...short version? He's an absolute pro. A perfectionist. Never a moment in my 9 years of knowing him that he's given me the remotest reason to not fully trust him with my dick, my body overall, and my sex life as a result. He listens. He does not have a pre-determined linear way of thinking. The place we got to, for me...was in no small part because I was extremely blunt and open and graphic with him and proactive in explaining my goals. What I was accustomed to my dick doing, and what I needed it to do for us in the future. He is quietly confident. He just knows what he's doing. My surgery went 2 hours. He explained to me why he spent the somewhat considerable extra time. It's the perfectionist in him. I had some fibrotic tissue. He wanted it perfect. He uses both manufacturer's devices. I don't know that I would trust someone who doesn't. We talked about the generally recognized differences between the two companies' devices and he recommended a Titan for me because of my pre-op size being on the large side. He explained to me the pros and cons in his mind of both. Ultimately was my call but he was very diligent in explaining his bias for my particular measurement and situation being better matched to Titan. He sizes aggressively and with the perfectionist's eye. He honest to god wants you to love your dick afterward and have awesome experiences. He's vested in guys being happy. Very authentic guy.

Communication style is extremely low key. As I've mentioned elsewhere, he's not a flashy glitzy marketer like some other guys. His website isn't amazing. I just don't think he is comfortable beating his own drum much. Not his thing. I just would say, don't let his lack of self-promotion sway your opinion. Keep your thoughts on what his skills are with the knife in hand. He's low key. Listens. Pauses before he answers. Considers. Answers thoughtfully and credibly. He's got a talented PA and a very personable, quite talented young urology fellow there. I trust them all implicitly.

Message me if you like. I'm happy to talk live. Obviously I'm a fan, but I'll be happy to answer any other questions.

[barrylandon]

Thanks for the additional information, stephen54. I sincerely appreciate you taking the time to help out a newbie. I'm more of an average length and girth kind of guy but was blessed with a oversized, battering ram (haha) glans head! (Mother nature can be so fickle!) So, I'm guessing that an AMS device is more likely in my future. However, I've read some comments recently from guys that reported a shrinking and softness in their glans post-op. That concerns me since it's my most appealing asset. Also, I've had numerous penile enhancement surgeries and infections so that's also a major concern. Any idea what Dr. Levine's infection rate is? Thanks again stephen54 and I hope to hear from other Dr. Levine patients as well.

[Gt1956]

Thanks for the additional information, stephen54. I sincerely appreciate you taking the time to help out a newbie. I'm more of an average length and girth kind of guy but was blessed with a oversized, battering ram (haha) glans head! (Mother nature can be so fickle!) So, I'm guessing that an AMS device is more likely in my future. However, I've read some comments recently from guys that reported a shrinking and softness in their glans post-op. That concerns me since it's my most appealing asset. Also, I've had numerous penile enhancement surgeries and infections so that's also a major concern. Any idea what Dr. Levine's infection rate is? Thanks again stephen54 and I hope to hear from other Dr. Levine patients as well.

Barrylandon, as for glans issues. It is my opinion that you would be well served to seperate the results into 2 categories. Those that have had prostate surgery & those that haven't. All of us are on an implant forum. But it is my opinion that we come from 2 different groups & might not have the same problems & results.