Lost Sheep wrote:toddhd wrote:I've had ED most of my life, since I was a teen certainly. Not much has worked for me. I recently was turned onto injections of Trimix, and the resulting erection, for me, was life changing. I've never in my life really understood what it feels like to feel "like a man". I see other men get excited, and get an erection, and "go for it" sexually, as if it were as natural and easy as breathing. For me, I can be horny as all hell and have a naked beautiful woman in front of me and ready to go... however my penis will be completely flaccid. It's just very emasculating. When they injected me with Trimix, I had an actual "firm as hell" erection for the first time in my life, and also for the first time, I felt complete. I felt like man should feel. It's all I want.
All that being said, I realize that for some, the Trimix will stop working at some point. And when that happens, it seems as if an implant is the only other option.
Implants scare me. As I said, that feeling of blood rushing to my penis and making me engorged is what felt so damn good to me. But what if that part of the equation was gone? What if I had an erection, but there was no feeling of "fullness" or swelling?
That's my question. What does it feel like? Do you still get the excitement of an erection? Is there a feeling of fullness still, or does it feel... fake? Do you still orgasm and does it feel similar? Have you noticed that anything about your sex life feels better or improves as a result? Do you feel satisfied with your sex life, or is the erection really mostly for your spouse?
I hope these questions don't insult anyone. It's just an extreme and irreversible (to my knowledge) way to go, so I'd like to understand it better before I get to the point where I need to consider it.
Yours is a new take on a question asked many many times. But your new approach shows insight and sensitivity.
My history is not unlike yours, but in my youth I was able to achieve erections easily (though by the time I was old enough to get a partner, ED had progressed to the point I rarely gave a full and adequate sexual experience to my partner. So, I understand the emasculated feeling.
With an implant, the feeling of blood pulsing and rushing into my penis is gone. But the feeling of fullness and stretching is quite as strong as it ever was, even in my erectile heyday. Yep, my implant feels "firm as hell" and full.
The spontaneity of my erection coming by itself, of course, is gone. Once when a girlfriend woke me from a deep sleep with fellatio I found myself erect and in her mouth when I woke up. (It is a GREAT way to awaken!) That cannot happen with an implant unless I went to sleep inflated.
The excitment of an erection (for me) was always tied to the urgency of "quick, before it melts!" to get penetration before the erection would collapse. "Use it or lose it." was a window of opportunity that was only a minute or two (or less than a minute sometimes).
My orgasms are exactly the same as they were before with one exception. The pulses/spasms of ejaculation were limited; when my natural erection began to fade I could not continue thrusting so the number of pulses of ejaculation quickly stopped. With the implant, I can continue thrusting and that continued stimulation allows more spasms/pulses of semen. That is a great improvement in performance and sensation from before my implant.
My current girlfriend (widowed) is not highly experienced, having had sex only with her husband and me, but she is quite enthusiastic and supportive. Our sex life is better than it ever could be without a reliable erection on my part.
I decided to get the implant when I did not have a girlfriend/lover. I hoped that I would be able to have penetrative sex (coitus) with a lover again after implant, though sex by fellatio and cunnilingus was still possible and satisfying. But I would be happy with my erection whether it ever got into another vagina or not. The feeling of being masculine is good. The weight of an erection out front is a boost to my ego, if nothing else.
The satisfaction and orgasms of my lover is at least as important to me as my own. So, even if I did not experience an improvement in my sexual satisfaction I am glad I got the implant.
There was a time I wondered if I were given the chance to have a penis capable of giving orgasms to my lovers at the cost of never having another orgasm of my own, I would have made the trade - perhaps to my later regret, but that was my thought process. There was a period of time in the months after implant when I was anorgasmic. It bothered my lover more than it did me. Of course, I knew I would orgasm eventually, maybe the next time, but she REALLY likes the validation that my ejaculation provides. There is a medical study that attempted to measure that and found a positive correlation..
There is a substantial difference, though, with orgasm by coitus and I find it better than fellatio or masturbation. My lover (by her testimony) prefers coital/vaginal orgasms to clitoral/cunnilingual orgasms but enjoys both (I habitually prepare her vagina by ensuring her vaginal lubrication is primed-that, by giving her orgasms clitorally.) But she does much prefer the coital activity. I have read somewhere that "An orgasm with a full vagina is far better than an orgasm without."
So, yes, my implant is for her. And for me.