My history. Help

[España1980]

Hi, I'm from Spain (Europe), I'm 45 years old and I live in a tourist area in the south on the beach.
15 months ago, in January after breaking up with my girlfriend of 3 years, I went with a girl I met and during the sexual act, I don't know if because of nervousness or because I wasn't lubricated enough, I had to push my penis a lot to insert it into her vagina Then I noticed as if a wasp stung me, like a puncture that happens to many athletes, for example in the quadriceps, so I didn't give it any importance and continued with the girl and having sex that day and the next.
I have been taking 20 mg of cialis for 20 years, which had an effect of more than 72 hours and my sexual performance was absolutely good. I could spend hours and hours having sex.
Well, after those two days of sex with the girl, I came home and I still wanted to masturbate, I did, but then I noticed as if my penis had swallowed an egg, it was swollen.
I went to the doctor and he sent me an ultrasound in which he said that I had a tear and small 1.5 cm edema in the left corpus cavernosum (the tunica albuginea was fine). The doctors I went to did not give it any importance nor did they send any treatment.
From there I developed fibrosis in the area of ​​the rupture and I went to several urologists (about 12 in total) because I noticed that my erection was failing and that my penis had shrunk from the fibrosis to the tip, but the response of the Most of these urologists was that it was all in my head, or that I was too stressed with my penis, or that sex is not everything. and someone gave me treatment without scientific evidence and that cost me around 3000 euros (approximately 3000 dollars). I have already spent about 5000 between visits and treatments.
I have always been a sexually active person despite suffering from anxiety and insomnia and medicating myself for it with cialis 20 mg made the girls enjoy hours and hours and days and days. Less than two years ago I was with women between 25 and 35 years old, I wasn't attracted to women my age, but now that I haven't had sex for about 14 months, the truth is that age doesn't matter to me.
Well, today I have been without sex for 14 months, I have turned my house into a jail, I don't go out because I don't want to see beautiful women half-naked on the street (I live on the beach in the tourist area). I don't like TV anymore because either sexual things always come out or in some movie there are sex baits and I find myself terribly psychologically sunk. My anxiety has turned into severe depression. I could never have imagined that something like this could happen to me, even though I know that there are much worse things, it doesn't comfort me,
That is my problem right now, and the one that has me very bad, self-esteem, security, confidence. I have lost friends due to social isolation, I don't enjoy anything. I know that life is more things but grief invades me. It is as if my life had ended. I can't get an erection to last more than a few seconds without stimulation, the penis has lost volume in thickness and size. I was hoping that because it was a blow or an accident my penis would recover but every time I notice it worse and I think that leaving it for a long time is losing more penis.
I know that the only solution is an implant and I am going to have to travel to Madrid or Barcelona, ​​since it is a country like mine with about 50 million inhabitants, there are only 3 or 4 people specialized in penis and prosthesis and each one of them these doctors will do about 40 implants a year at the most.
I don't know if I'm psychologically prepared for it because if there is an infection or something goes wrong it would be my psychic end. And the more I investigate, the more doubts I have.
I also do not see that traveling to another country is an option because if there are any postoperative complications it will be a real headache.
Having fibrosis, erectile dysfunction and some doctors say that I also have Peyronie's is terrible for the mind, especially since I feel obliged to make a quick decision.
I know that many of you have gone through or are going through the same thing: what advice would you give me?

[Cnidium]

If money is not an issue then I would recommend getting an implant in the US (even though you stated you don't want to travel to another country). IMO, the US has the best and highest volume surgeons, minimizing risk of complications. If you can spend a few weeks here, then you can stay until you start cycling (depending on the surgeon) and you can leave for home knowing that everything is working well.

My other advise is to get as healthy as possible in order to minimize your recovery time, lower your risk of infection as much as possible, and to improve all other areas of life.

Its funny how much sex affects us. If its taken away too early, men often want to avoid everything else in life because of all the constant reminders.

[ThailandBound]

Friend. You have come to the right place. Here, you are in the company of men who have each suffered….suffered…with erectile dysfunction. The outside world might minimize our struggles and see us as just a group of guys obsessed with our dicks or sex. But here, you are in the company of mature men from many walks of life who understand the pain you feel. So welcome.

Our stories vary, the causes vary, but we have all arrived at the same place. We suffered because we lost one of the great joys in life. Sex. Most of us felt the terrible frustration of impotence, and like you, we suffered depression, social isolation, and loss of confidence. We weren’t always that way, but all found ourselves in the same place as you. You are not alone.

I too experienced that depression and horrible sense that something that brought me great joy….sex, was over. It contributed to the failure of my marriage.

But i am here to tell you, as others will, and as others have in past forum posts, there is genuine hope for you. This does not have to be your destiny.

I could not keep an erection for more than about :20 minutes after a mega-dose of trimix. After awhile, i avoided sex. Not because i didn’t want it, but because i knew i would probably fail.

Today i am only 3 months post op. My dick is hard as a steel spike, whenever i want. I just returned from visiting my girlfriend in Thailand where we had sex every single day, sometimes twice. We fucked in every position imaginable, and hard.

My life changed. Yours can too. Don’t abandon hope. You too can regain your confidence, overcome your ED-related depression, and have great sex again too. You.

As the member above said, you should not fear coming to the US to have your surgery. My doctor implants men from around the world routinely. When i was in Thailand, i met another bionic brother personally who had travelled from Tokyo to have his surgery done. He is doing great! He travelled home on the 3rd day after his surgery. There is well over a 98% chance of success with this doctor. Personally, i would, and did, take those odds, as many others have successfully.

Please continue to keep us updated and feel free to ask questions.

The men in this forum genuinely supported me in those difficult days, and i know that others here share my view in wanting a great outcome for you.

I love your part of the world btw. I’ve spent lots of time in Malaga, Mijas, and Torrox. Can’t wait to return!

[GoodWood]

You have found a great resource here at FrankTalk. Lots of experience here.

If you are serious about getting an implant the general wisdom is to get one from a high volume surgeon. Gabriel Antonini in Italy is a high volume surgeon. I have no personal experience with him but others here at FrankTalk have. The pictures of his work look really great. In particular, the upward angle of a lot of the implanted penises he does looks really great. Most times they point straight forward at best.

If I were in Europe I would go to him.

[GoodWood]

Here is a link to a video of one of his patients post op. What a great result.

https://www.isurgerytube.com/procedimen ... i-peniena/

[España1980]

If money is not an issue then I would recommend getting an implant in the US (even though you stated you don't want to travel to another country). IMO, the US has the best and highest volume surgeons, minimizing risk of complications. If you can spend a few weeks here, then you can stay until you start cycling (depending on the surgeon) and you can leave for home knowing that everything is working well.

My other advise is to get as healthy as possible in order to minimize your recovery time, lower your risk of infection as much as possible, and to improve all other areas of life.

Its funny how much sex affects us. If its taken away too early, men often want to avoid everything else in life because of all the constant reminders.

Thank you for your support, but I don't have enough money to travel to the US and spend several weeks there. In addition, after any complication, he would have to return to the US and it is a long trip for a penis in the emergency room. Thanks for your advice, but I think I should look for the best surgeon near where I live who has more volume, but if possible in Spain or a nearby country, I also don't speak English well.

By the way, friend, did you fix your titan curve? at the time I read your story

[España1980]

Friend. You have come to the right place. Here, you are in the company of men who have each suffered….suffered…with erectile dysfunction. The outside world might minimize our struggles and see us as just a group of guys obsessed with our dicks or sex. But here, you are in the company of mature men from many walks of life who understand the pain you feel. So welcome.

Our stories vary, the causes vary, but we have all arrived at the same place. We suffered because we lost one of the great joys in life. Sex. Most of us felt the terrible frustration of impotence, and like you, we suffered depression, social isolation, and loss of confidence. We weren’t always that way, but all found ourselves in the same place as you. You are not alone.

I too experienced that depression and horrible sense that something that brought me great joy….sex, was over. It contributed to the failure of my marriage.

But i am here to tell you, as others will, and as others have in past forum posts, there is genuine hope for you. This does not have to be your destiny.

I could not keep an erection for more than about :20 minutes after a mega-dose of trimix. After awhile, i avoided sex. Not because i didn’t want it, but because i knew i would probably fail.

Today i am only 3 months post op. My dick is hard as a steel spike, whenever i want. I just returned from visiting my girlfriend in Thailand where we had sex every single day, sometimes twice. We fucked in every position imaginable, and hard.

My life changed. Yours can too. Don’t abandon hope. You too can regain your confidence, overcome your ED-related depression, and have great sex again too. You.

As the member above said, you should not fear coming to the US to have your surgery. My doctor implants men from around the world routinely. When i was in Thailand, i met another bionic brother personally who had travelled from Tokyo to have his surgery done. He is doing great! He travelled home on the 3rd day after his surgery. There is well over a 98% chance of success with this doctor. Personally, i would, and did, take those odds, as many others have successfully.

Please continue to keep us updated and feel free to ask questions.

The men in this forum genuinely supported me in those difficult days, and i know that others here share my view in wanting a great outcome for you.

I love your part of the world btw. I’ve spent lots of time in Malaga, Mijas, and Torrox. Can’t wait to return!

thanks for your advice friend I sent you a PM

[España1980]

You have found a great resource here at FrankTalk. Lots of experience here.

If you are serious about getting an implant the general wisdom is to get one from a high volume surgeon. Gabriel Antonini in Italy is a high volume surgeon. I have no personal experience with him but others here at FrankTalk have. The pictures of his work look really great. In particular, the upward angle of a lot of the implanted penises he does looks really great. Most times they point straight forward at best.

If I were in Europe I would go to him.

Thanks for the advice friend, yes I read a lot about Antonini and I think he also works in Madrid, but I don't know about the infrapubic I think it gives more sensitivity problems from what I've read. the comrade franco666 underwent surgery with him a short time ago. This is screwed up, you have to be very vigilant with the surgeon, otherwise one's life is screwed up completely

[Cnidium]

If money is not an issue then I would recommend getting an implant in the US (even though you stated you don't want to travel to another country). IMO, the US has the best and highest volume surgeons, minimizing risk of complications. If you can spend a few weeks here, then you can stay until you start cycling (depending on the surgeon) and you can leave for home knowing that everything is working well.

My other advise is to get as healthy as possible in order to minimize your recovery time, lower your risk of infection as much as possible, and to improve all other areas of life.

Its funny how much sex affects us. If its taken away too early, men often want to avoid everything else in life because of all the constant reminders.

Thank you for your support, but I don't have enough money to travel to the US and spend several weeks there. In addition, after any complication, he would have to return to the US and it is a long trip for a penis in the emergency room. Thanks for your advice, but I think I should look for the best surgeon near where I live who has more volume, but if possible in Spain or a nearby country, I also don't speak English well.

By the way, friend, did you fix your titan curve? at the time I read your story

I'm 2 weeks post-revision. It appears by all means that Dr. Hakky fixed it. I will be making a post about it soon.