WatNext wrote:Sorry to see your struggles OP but keep this in mind. Don't be embarrassed or broken about what you have atm. It is what it is and plenty of men and women have health issues.
If you have good sensation still, an implant will not only straighten your peyronies, but will send your confidence through the roof.
That being said there is no going back once it's done. Keep this in mind at all times. A surgeon or urologist is doing what they're doing for $$$. They will push whatever will make them that $$$ so their advise should be taken objectively.
Join the peyronies forum and seek advise from others who have already gone through the process, decide on your best route, and follow that through.
If going for an implant, go to the very best implant surgeon you can afford as that will govern your final outcome.
Thank you WatNext, I agree with all you say.
I am trying to keep the mindset of "It is what it is". Thats how I feel about life and usually pretty happy go lucky. Peyronies/Dick becoming deformed is something that has really rattled me though but, today has been a good day of treating it and hanging with friends, so life could be WAY worse.
I still think to myself "Thank F I can still urinate" otherwise that'd be a real problem. I do still have sensation which is good. I think my horizon see's an implant. I have spoken to one close friend about my issue (other than therapist) and they don't know the full details aside from basically my penis is broken/can't have sex. And they said to me today you might aswell do whatever gets you back to "normal" as soon as possible so you can live your life as you might not see tomorrow and I do think the same way, despite it being a life altering surgery I don't see much other options. Like I could die any day, so might aswell get an implant and deal with any future revisions.
I think my implant would be with Dr Ralph in the UK who seems to be one of the best in Europe despite having some bad reviews knocking about but it does seem the bad reviews tend to be around grafting rather than implant itself. I'm not sure though that's just what I've read.
In a dream world I would go with Eid or Hakky for example but I got to win the lottery to get the funds for that so it feels like I have to just bite the bullet and go to the NHS (Free healthcare) in the UK and have Ralph do it.
It's all getting quite boring at this point having to feel negative/down in the dumps, researching peyronies/doctors, looking at penis's and cut open penis's, putting a vaccuum onto my dick and sitting there like a lemon for 10 minutes, taking pills, to not have sex despite all of that because its deformed and unable, holding a heavy place in my head of distress and depression whilst carrying it on my shoulders where I go... This is just off the top of my head but I could think of some more lol... It seems like a
F it situation, give me the implant and let me live my life again. I'm 30 and I see opportunities to meet women all the time but I don't bother at this point due to everything.
Rant over