27M. Do I need an implant? Feeling defeated

[Anonymous1smile]

Whats up guys. Recently stumbled upon this community because of my current issue. Made a throwaway account for anonymity. Im a 27M who has a venous leak and it's ruining my life. I've become very depressed and have suicidal thoughts quite often. The only thing stopping me is that I'm not a selfish person and I realize the traumatic impact that would have on my family. Not here to look for pity or sympathy but hoping at least one person in here has experience with a similar situation.

I was very sexually active since my teens and had many partners, never had an issue with erections. Then around 25 I had multiple tragic events happen in my life and felt like I needed help. I spoke to a psychiatrist who got me on anti depressants. Like most people I experienced some sexual sides and difficulty maintaining an erection. I quit the anti depressants and got prescribed viagra which led me down a slippery slope. I'm not sure if I actually needed the viagra at a certain point or if i developed a mental dependency.

Anyway, I took viagra way more than I should for around a year and then it no longer worked. I saw multiple urologists and no solution. I tried everything, daily cialis and viagra. Overtime my erection strength kept dropping 70% -> 50% -> 25% until I could no longer maintain an erection. My urologist was convinced it was mostly mental but after me swearing up and down he had me do a doppler exam. Then came probably the worst day of my life, the doctor confirming I had a venous leak and that I would need a penile implant at just age 26!

My gf of 2 years ended up cheating on me (I'm guessing for sexual satisfaction) and I truly can't blame her but still had to break up with her. BTW I'm located in a big city known for modeling (NYC/LA) and a few months after my breakup I met a famous european super model. We hit it off and started dating but I could never get the job done. I even tried trimix injections. I used to be in my bathroom injecting my dick with a needle as I had naked supermodel in my bed. It got so bad I even said "fuck it" and doubled and tripled the recommended dose for the trimix to only get a 25% erection and fail after a few minutes. I had to break things off with the supermodel on my own because I could not keep going through the failures. Funny enough she begged me not to break up with her and somehow was convinced that I was not attracted to her. So yeah as if this hasn't been enough of a mind fuck, I'm now beginning to SHRINK. I was never large to begin with but now my life has become a joke.

Originally 6"x4.5". Now I'm about half the size of that. I never measured my dick flaccid because I was always more of a grower but my flaccid dick is a joke now, like 2.5" and a pencil. This is making me extremely depressed and I don't know what to do.

Its gotten so bad that I finally gave in and considered going forward with the surgery but I can't find any reputable surgeons that take my insurance. All reputable surgeons are private or only take blue cross blue shield (which I don't have)

I'm very tight on money and going through some difficult financial times right now so I need to know where to best allocate my funds.

Questions.

I recently got laid off and lost my insurance through my employer

I'm located in NYC. Which "unemploment" health insurance should I apply for?

What should I do? Purchase a vacuum/bathmate type thing? Will PE help?

Has anyone here tried shockwave therapy for blood flow? PRP?

I don't want to lose anymore size before I find a surgeon so Id appreciate any insight you could provide as possible shockwave therapy, vacuums, or PE exercises



Much appreciated

[Stayingstrong]

You live in NYC.? You NEED to contact Dr. Eid. Arguably the best in the world
A mans sexuality is his driving force.
Do not allow yourself to feel less of a man. You have control in this.
I know Dr. Eid has a package, all inclusive, plan for 32,000.00. He may even help a guy like yourself in some additional way???
He seems ultra compassionate and you would be doing yourself a total disservice by not talking to him, especially since, arguably, "the best in the world" is your next door neighbor.

[Anonymous1smile]

I cant afford 32k.
It's $500 just for the first consulation.
IDK what to do

[Anonymous1smile]

You live in NYC.? You NEED to contact Dr. Eid. Arguably the best in the world
A mans sexuality is his driving force.
Do not allow yourself to feel less of a man. You have control in this.
I know Dr. Eid has a package, all inclusive, plan for 32,000.00. He may even help a guy like yourself in some additional way???
He seems ultra compassionate and you would be doing yourself a total disservice by not talking to him, especially since, arguably, "the best in the world" is your next door neighbor.

I can't afford 32k. That's really not realistic for me right now.

[Stayingstrong]

You live in NYC.? You NEED to contact Dr. Eid. Arguably the best in the world
A mans sexuality is his driving force.
Do not allow yourself to feel less of a man. You have control in this.
I know Dr. Eid has a package, all inclusive, plan for 32,000.00. He may even help a guy like yourself in some additional way???
He seems ultra compassionate and you would be doing yourself a total disservice by not talking to him, especially since, arguably, "the best in the world" is your next door neighbor.

I can't afford 32k. That's really not realistic for me right now.

I get that but at least talk to him. His nurses in the office, Janice, Ruby, and Myra are all SO nice and helpful, they may be able to give you advice or direct you somewhere.
You should, at least, try. Nothing to lose and you might just get some direction.
Nothing is going to come to you. You have to go get it!
...And if you have ANY thoughts of harming yourself, PLEASE call for public assistance.

[Witheringhog]

You have a goal now, work 2,3,4 jobs and save as much as you can. Or go be a truck driver for 6 months, lots of options. Focus on you, work out, get into shape and dont spend a dime on bs, you will get there fast. 32k any single guy in his 20s can get that quick, work hard. Keep the end goal in mind, the implant will make you amazing at sex.

[Journeyman]

I lost a decade of sex due to ED . I was depressed and felt less than I man . Didn't even know penile implants were a thing . It took me about 3 years ( after discovering implants) to get my surgery . In April I flew to Houston and had Dr. Clavell do the surgery. It was life changing. A new " birthday " I'll continue to celebrate. Don't give up hope . I lived your despair and came out on the other side . Take baby steps to reach your goal . You're still so young and have a lot life to live and sex to be had . I remember in High School when the teacher was discussing suicide. She said something that always stayed with me .... " Suicide is a permanent answer to temporary problems." You can do this . Make the call to the Doctors office. They'll guide you . Financing is probably available. Start a " Go fund me " page .. etc. Just don't give up hope . In the meantime you need to start using VED's and traction devices to stop , and even regain, penile length / size . It worked for me . After a decade of no sex my dick shrunk. If you don't use it you lose it . I think I saw a video by Dr. Perito that said you can lose up to an inch a year . I'd saw videos and testimonials on YouTube about the penimaster pro. I was so impressed I bought 2 ( one for spare parts ) . It saved my length . I'd stretch with the pp pro then hit it with the VED to engorge my stretched out member with blood . I did this for about 2 years before I had surgery. Dr. Clavell was able to implant me with a titan 22cm. When I first started cycling , I would measure 6 1/2" . 7 months post op , I'm now measuring 7 1/2" fully pumped . Hang in there young blood . There's hope out there . I'm rooting for you

[Iwillbeatpd]

Some great advice here from some great people. Love to see people helping each other!

[Hope84]

Hey man, do not give up, stay strong, and keep fighting. You are definitely going through a hard patch, but trust me it will work out fine. As others have said, work hard to save up enough to get an implant with a top surgeon. In the meantime, focus on the things in life you do have control over: your career, studies, hobbies, your physical health. You now have an objective and have to follow it, no matter what.

Keep us posted and do not hesitate to seek out help, either here or with friends, doctors or psychologists.

[HikerMan]

[quote="Anonymous1smile"]Whats up guys. Recently stumbled upon this community because of my current issue. Made a throwaway account for anonymity. Im a 27M who has a venous leak and it's ruining my life. I've become very depressed and have suicidal thoughts quite often. The only thing stopping me is that I'm not a selfish person and I realize the traumatic impact that would have on my family. Not here to look for pity or sympathy but hoping at least one person in here has experience with a similar situation.

I was very sexually active since my teens and had many partners, never had an issue with erections. Then around 25 I had multiple tragic events happen in my life and felt like I needed help. I spoke to a psychiatrist who got me on anti depressants. Like most people I experienced some sexual sides and difficulty maintaining an erection. I quit the anti depressants and got prescribed viagra which led me down a slippery slope. I'm not sure if I actually needed the viagra at a certain point or if i developed a mental dependency.

Anyway, I took viagra way more than I should for around a year and then it no longer worked. I saw multiple urologists and no solution. I tried everything, daily cialis and viagra. Overtime my erection strength kept dropping 70% -> 50% -> 25% until I could no longer maintain an erection. My urologist was convinced it was mostly mental but after me swearing up and down he had me do a doppler exam. Then came probably the worst day of my life, the doctor confirming I had a venous leak and that I would need a penile implant at just age 26!

My gf of 2 years ended up cheating on me (I'm guessing for sexual satisfaction) and I truly can't blame her but still had to break up with her. BTW I'm located in a big city known for modeling (NYC/LA) and a few months after my breakup I met a famous european super model. We hit it off and started dating but I could never get the job done. I even tried trimix injections. I used to be in my bathroom injecting my dick with a needle as I had naked supermodel in my bed. It got so bad I even said "fuck it" and doubled and tripled the recommended dose for the trimix to only get a 25% erection and fail after a few minutes. I had to break things off with the supermodel on my own because I could not keep going through the failures. Funny enough she begged me not to break up with her and somehow was convinced that I was not attracted to her. So yeah as if this hasn't been enough of a mind fuck, I'm now beginning to SHRINK. I was never large to begin with but now my life has become a joke.

Originally 6"x4.5". Now I'm about half the size of that. I never measured my dick flaccid because I was always more of a grower but my flaccid dick is a joke now, like 2.5" and a pencil. This is making me extremely depressed and I don't know what to do.

Its gotten so bad that I finally gave in and considered going forward with the surgery but I can't find any reputable surgeons that take my insurance. All reputable surgeons are private or only take blue cross blue shield (which I don't have)

I'm very tight on money and going through some difficult financial times right now so I need to know where to best allocate my funds.

Questions.

I recently got laid off and lost my insurance through my employer

I'm located in NYC. Which "unemploment" health insurance should I apply for?

What should I do? Purchase a vacuum/bathmate type thing? Will PE help?

Has anyone here tried shockwave therapy for blood flow? PRP?

I don't want to lose anymore size before I find a surgeon so Id appreciate any insight you could provide as possible shockwave therapy, vacuums, or PE exercises



Much appreciated[/quote


I agree with the other posters.
FIND a way to come up with that cash.

Make it your burning desire, lock down on your target and go after it.
If even after a year you are little short, MANY high end world class surgeons will work with you to finance the rest.

This can be done but it will take hard work and discipline.
At your age I was working 14 hour days fairly regularly.

Door dash, UBER ......ANYTHING.
Just get it done.

Life is way too short to be a monk.