Malleable journal - nervous but hopeful

[LastHope]

The incisions have fully closed (or just nearly). There's just a couple very small scabs left, and I'm waiting for those to fall off. There is one tiny suture thread sticking out on the "rear end" of the subcoronal incision on the right side of my glans, but I think it's the only straggler left.

Good to know. Are you circumcised, Duke?
I also got a sub-coronal incision, but I'm uncircumcised.

Yes, I am circumcised. Are you experiencing any issues with blood buildup and what-not within your foreskin? Hoping you're having an easy go of it.

Glad that you are circumcised. I'm experiencing distal foreskin edema on the skin folds below the glans, and I have a feeling that the sub-coronal incision is a bad choice for uncircumcised patients like me. This thought came about today after I read this on Rigicon's website. I wish I didn't have this biological shock absorber boot below my glans!

Rigi10™ Malleable Penile Prosthesis Instructions for Use
https://www.rigicon.com/files/e-labelin ... US-IFU.pdf

Uncircumcised patients may have an increased risk of postoperative complications with the sub-coronal approach. Surgeons may wish to discuss performing a circumcision to reduce the risk of post-operative complications associated with this approach.

[duke_cicero]

LastHope, have you spoken to your surgeon's office for recommendations? I assume you have. I'm sorry you're dealing with this.

[LastHope]

LastHope, have you spoken to your surgeon's office for recommendations? I assume you have. I'm sorry you're dealing with this.

Yes Duke. They want me to keep wrapping that area up (2 inches below glans) and that's keeping the edema under control for now.

[FenderStrat_93]

Another consideration is pants — my jeans are too tight in the crotch area. I knew this would happen, but feeling it is entirely a different story.

Hey Duke! Good to read your updates and that things are coming together for you slowly but surely. VERY interested in this too - I wear jeans very frequently.

I wonder if one of those hybrid jean companies might be good? Check out “Mugsy Jeans” company. I don’t think they have great dark wash options but they have a lot of other styles.

[duke_cicero]

Another consideration is pants — my jeans are too tight in the crotch area. I knew this would happen, but feeling it is entirely a different story.

Hey Duke! Good to read your updates and that things are coming together for you slowly but surely. VERY interested in this too - I wear jeans very frequently.

I wonder if one of those hybrid jean companies might be good? Check out “Mugsy Jeans” company. I don’t think they have great dark wash options but they have a lot of other styles.

I bought a different cut of jeans last night and they should arrive tomorrow. I normally try to show off my legs (lol) and normally wear Levi 541's but I think those are just too tight in the quad/crotch area. Going for a looser fit and cut and will report back on details.

[FenderStrat_93]

Another consideration is pants — my jeans are too tight in the crotch area. I knew this would happen, but feeling it is entirely a different story.

Hey Duke! Good to read your updates and that things are coming together for you slowly but surely. VERY interested in this too - I wear jeans very frequently.

I wonder if one of those hybrid jean companies might be good? Check out “Mugsy Jeans” company. I don’t think they have great dark wash options but they have a lot of other styles.

I bought a different cut of jeans last night and they should arrive tomorrow. I normally try to show off my legs (lol) and normally wear Levi 541's but I think those are just too tight in the quad/crotch area. Going for a looser fit and cut and will report back on details.

I hope they work out for you! It’s one of the downsides for me of the malleable. I LOVE wearing jeans and pretty much wear Levi tapered dark wash jeans almost every single day! I’ll need to start thinking ahead to what will & won’t work for me when I eventually get implanted.

[adkd124]

Hi Duke. I have read that you got 11mm rods. Can you write what your girth (and diameter) was before the operation?

[adkd124]

Duca_cicero well what can I say, it's fantastic to have put on a malleable and not to have lost any size, does your penis seem oval or round like before? What size implant did he put you in? Does this sound tough for any sex you want to have? I congratulate you, you will enjoy this system without the fear that one day some pipe or pump will break

Thank you Frank - honestly it seems round like before but I think as I continue to heal up that could potentially change, not sure. He put in the longest malleable, he said, so I guess that's 27cm. But the rods are 11mm diameter. So I guess I'm just a little bit smaller than thedriver, who has the same implant (if I'm remembering his measurements correctly). If I'm standing upright I'm 6.5" long by roughly 5" around, but I don't have really scientific measurements.

But, I don't really care. It's basically the same as before, but ready for duty at all times. The thought alone has given me so much confidence and hope for the future.

11mm rods max length is 25cm. 13mm rods max length is 27 cm.

[wasim1]

Another consideration is pants — my jeans are too tight in the crotch area. I knew this would happen, but feeling it is entirely a different story.

Hey Duke! Good to read your updates and that things are coming together for you slowly but surely. VERY interested in this too - I wear jeans very frequently.

I wonder if one of those hybrid jean companies might be good? Check out “Mugsy Jeans” company. I don’t think they have great dark wash options but they have a lot of other styles.

I bought a different cut of jeans last night and they should arrive tomorrow. I normally try to show off my legs (lol) and normally wear Levi 541's but I think those are just too tight in the quad/crotch area. Going for a looser fit and cut and will report back on details.

Hello Duke hope u are doing fine any updates plz

[duke_cicero]

Hey all, so sorry I haven't been as active — work has suddenly become extremely intense and for the most part, any personal time I've had for myself I've done away from screens and my phone.

Day 48. Everything is going well. I had a date last Saturday and while I didn't have penetrative intercourse (she felt uncomfortable because she hadn't shaved—I was clear that I didn't object and was interested in sex anyway), I did receive an impromptu blowjob that was simply amazing.

Something that's important to mention is that when she touched my pants, I immediately felt a pang of anxiety and nervousness. In my head, I thought "Oh no—what if I can't get hard or stay hard? What if I have an erection for only a few minutes and it goes away and completely ruins the mood? What if this upsets her? How will I fix it?"

And then I realized: Those days of anxiety and stress and insecurity are over. They're finally over. I touched my penis just to make sure I wasn't dreaming. Yes, of course it's hard. It's been hard 24/7 for almost two months straight. Even though I went through the pain of surgery, and recovery, and all the other stuff, I'm still not totally free of the mental anguish of the past. Still, deep down, there is a big part of me that is afraid that I will not have a satisfactory erection.

But, those days are gone. It's going to take time for my mind and my emotions to heal.

I have another date with a different girlfriend of mine this Saturday. We are exchanging late Christmas gifts and then getting right down to it, if our text message exchanges are any indication of her interest. I can't wait to update you guys.

Also, I know I'm late with a photo. I'll work on working up the courage to take care of that, too.

Love you guys. Thanks for all the ongoing support.