Hi Duke congrats on the update!
I’m wondering if and whether you bring up the implant to your partners. I just got cleared to use the malleable and used it with one girl so far. She was none the wiser, but I’m thinking that unlike an IPP they may suspect what’s up since they may feel the rods during BJs and your dick never changes shape unless due to glans engorgement.
I’m single like you and entered how you handled this situation.
Mark
Malleable journal - nervous but hopeful
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Gatorman97
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I have a Rigicon ..the one time i got oral after the implant g/f says you really can't feel the rods just feels like a very erect cock.
Rigicon since 6-2023 happy to share my experience and do show and tell
Re: Malleable journal - nervous but hopeful
Gatorman97 wrote:Hi Duke congrats on the update!
I’m wondering if and whether you bring up the implant to your partners. I just got cleared to use the malleable and used it with one girl so far. She was none the wiser, but I’m thinking that unlike an IPP they may suspect what’s up since they may feel the rods during BJs and your dick never changes shape unless due to glans engorgement.
I’m single like you and entered how you handled this situation.
Mark
i have had sex with three different girls since my implant, and 2 of them are from before i had the implant . Prior to the implant, i used supplements and cialis with good results for a fully engorged erection .
After the implant and having lost some girth . The 2 girls never made any comment on a difference regarding my erection , EXCEPT one asked me after we did a couple of " round the world" sessions and were relaxing , she asked : why doesn't your dick sleep ?
The newer one, who we haven't been able to see each other for a few months ,recent comment was : i miss riding your dick . Yeah ,that's mutual haha
but i don't tell any of them i have had an implant. i just let them enjoy the ride .
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duke_cicero
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Day 86 Update
Hey guys, so sorry I was away for so long without an update. I just got a major promotion at work, and (to be honest) it came somewhat unexpectedly. There’s a lot of crazy activity in the tech startup world, is the best way I can put it. I’ve been working 100-hour weeks for the past month. Things should probably begin to settle down a bit in the coming few weeks, but I’m also getting used to this being the new normal.
In any event, I apologize for my absence! I never want to do anything half-assed, which is why I blocked off about an hour to write this update post. I hope to get back to everyone here. I owe a number of people some responses.
What has sex been like?
I can only say that sex with my malleable is fucking crazy. You already have a sense of how busy I’ve been with my career, but I’ve been using every time management tool at my disposal (as well as sheer willpower) to make sure that I have the kind of sex life that makes up for more than a decade of not being able to perform like I know I should. If I want to go 10 rounds a night, I can go 10 rounds a night. End of story.
So far, I’ve had marathon sex with 4 different women, all of whom evidently had an amazing time. I have a beautiful Polish girlfriend here in Chicago who was with a different guy in a committed relationship for a few years while she and I had a purely social relationship. But as soon as I was cleared for sex with my malleable, I heard that she was broken up and wanted to hang out. She suggested a movie at a theater, and during the movie we were holding hands. I decided to do the thing that you only read about: I put her hand on my pants and had her feel me right there in our theater seats, hard and ready to go. She gave me a look and we left the movie early and went back to her apartment. Three hours later, she was sweating and shaking in bed, and remarking that “I’ve never cum that many times in my life in the same sitting.” I just laughed and laughed.
Do I bring up the malleable to my partners?
No. And I sort of doubt I ever will. So far, it hasn’t been an issue to conceal it, either. One thing I was a little worried about was being “found out” that I have a constant erection in some social situations. I’ve been bear-hugged by a few close friends and at work functions recently, and my number one fear was: What if someone brings up that they can sense I’m “happy to see them,” so to speak? But nobody has. And I sort of doubt that people are thinking about that possibility in the first place. Also, it bears mentioning that your confidence about walking around with a 24/7 boner and not having it bother you is also a big consideration. If you act like there’s any suspicion, people will sense that.
One caveat is that I do plan to bring up my implant if I ever get married. But right now I am enjoying being single so much that I don’t know that I’ll ever make that leap. My career is in a really interesting spot right now, I’m making more money than I ever have before, and I’ve finally got something of the sex life I really want. I think this is my time. I’m only in my mid thirties. If I decide to have a family a little later in life, maybe a decade from now, then I definitely think I can do that. But now? This is my time.
Does your malleable implant get noticed inside TSA’s full-body scanner?
Since my last update I’ve been on a handful of airplane flights. Everybody knows that you walk through one of those full-body scanner machines: You put your arms above your head and a big scanner passes over your body. If you’re a little sweaty or have a piece of metal or jewelry anywhere in your clothing, they yell at you to remove it and treat you like a criminal.
Right before my first full-body scan, I said to the (actually very nice) lady on the other side of the scanner: “Hey, just so you know, I have a medical device inside of me. You might see it.” She asked me if it was a pacemaker and I said No, it’s something near my groin. She nodded and said “You should be fine.” I went through the scanner and—nothing! I was immediately cleared and free to go.
The other handful of times I went through the scanner, it didn’t detect anything. I figure the capsule that forms around the implant is enough tissue to make it appear to the scanner that my penis is “all me,” so to speak, and that there’s nothing out of the ordinary.
What are the downsides, so far?
Not that many, honestly. But I also did a lot of research and thinking before going into this, so I knew what to expect. I didn’t expect my malleable to be anything like my normal penis—my normal, strictly biological, non-functional penis. There are far, far more upsides than downsides with my malleable implant. That said, there are still some downsides. But again, they are pretty minor.
I have to be a little smarter about clothing choices: I don’t wear form-fitting jeans anymore. It’s just not comfortable. In particular, I find that the zipper pressing against my implant is pretty uncomfortable. During my most recent business meeting, I wore a pair of pretty comfortable trousers, but I still think they were maybe a little too tight in the crotch area with a belt on. I could try wearing suspenders, but I’ve never done that before and I think that would take a little bit of practice. In most ordinary situations in my daily life, I wear stretch chinos, or athletic joggers, or even slightly roomier slacks. No problems at all. But I think I might be transitioning away from jeans. What I haven’t noticed until now: jeans are heavy!
Occasionally I have some (extremely) minor discomfort: I don’t normally wear underwear around the house, and so my malleable is “free floating” during the day. I think maybe the continual jostling in my gym shorts or what-not sometimes gives me a little bit of discomfort, but it’s really not noticeable unless you’re really paying attention. And since I’m hyper-focused on my penis these days, I think I’m paying extra-special attention to anything that might even seem like a little bit of a problem.
Other things I’ve noticed
Just some other random observations:
My general confidence is way up: I know this sounds crazy, but I think some of my recent promotion has something to do with my implant. My confidence at work and in my personal life is through the roof. Someone remarked during one of my recent presentations that “He seems so confident and prepared, he is so natural up there on stage, customers love hearing from him.” I was reasonably confident before, but now I feel like one of the major things that stood in my way in life is simply gone.
I’ve lost almost all interest in porn: I keep laughing to myself about this. I have almost zero interest in watching porn. Why, after all, should I have any interest in jerking off to sex when I could be spending that time having sex, myself? Porn just seems totally unappealing now. I do occasionally still watch it in a moment when a date falls through or something like that, but I think before the implant I was naturally much more interested in getting off with porn.
On occasion, I still worry about losing my erection: I know this is ridiculous, and that I’ve mentioned this before. But during sex, when I get into a position that would under normal circumstances cause me to lose my erection, there’s still a little flash of concern that goes through my brain. And then, of course, I remind myself that there’s nothing to worry about and keep on. But it’s interesting to be reminded of the fact that our brains are hard-wired a certain way after years of continuous reinforcement.
Thank you guys for all your support. I (quite literally) could not have done this without you.
Hey guys, so sorry I was away for so long without an update. I just got a major promotion at work, and (to be honest) it came somewhat unexpectedly. There’s a lot of crazy activity in the tech startup world, is the best way I can put it. I’ve been working 100-hour weeks for the past month. Things should probably begin to settle down a bit in the coming few weeks, but I’m also getting used to this being the new normal.
In any event, I apologize for my absence! I never want to do anything half-assed, which is why I blocked off about an hour to write this update post. I hope to get back to everyone here. I owe a number of people some responses.
What has sex been like?
I can only say that sex with my malleable is fucking crazy. You already have a sense of how busy I’ve been with my career, but I’ve been using every time management tool at my disposal (as well as sheer willpower) to make sure that I have the kind of sex life that makes up for more than a decade of not being able to perform like I know I should. If I want to go 10 rounds a night, I can go 10 rounds a night. End of story.
So far, I’ve had marathon sex with 4 different women, all of whom evidently had an amazing time. I have a beautiful Polish girlfriend here in Chicago who was with a different guy in a committed relationship for a few years while she and I had a purely social relationship. But as soon as I was cleared for sex with my malleable, I heard that she was broken up and wanted to hang out. She suggested a movie at a theater, and during the movie we were holding hands. I decided to do the thing that you only read about: I put her hand on my pants and had her feel me right there in our theater seats, hard and ready to go. She gave me a look and we left the movie early and went back to her apartment. Three hours later, she was sweating and shaking in bed, and remarking that “I’ve never cum that many times in my life in the same sitting.” I just laughed and laughed.
Do I bring up the malleable to my partners?
No. And I sort of doubt I ever will. So far, it hasn’t been an issue to conceal it, either. One thing I was a little worried about was being “found out” that I have a constant erection in some social situations. I’ve been bear-hugged by a few close friends and at work functions recently, and my number one fear was: What if someone brings up that they can sense I’m “happy to see them,” so to speak? But nobody has. And I sort of doubt that people are thinking about that possibility in the first place. Also, it bears mentioning that your confidence about walking around with a 24/7 boner and not having it bother you is also a big consideration. If you act like there’s any suspicion, people will sense that.
One caveat is that I do plan to bring up my implant if I ever get married. But right now I am enjoying being single so much that I don’t know that I’ll ever make that leap. My career is in a really interesting spot right now, I’m making more money than I ever have before, and I’ve finally got something of the sex life I really want. I think this is my time. I’m only in my mid thirties. If I decide to have a family a little later in life, maybe a decade from now, then I definitely think I can do that. But now? This is my time.
Does your malleable implant get noticed inside TSA’s full-body scanner?
Since my last update I’ve been on a handful of airplane flights. Everybody knows that you walk through one of those full-body scanner machines: You put your arms above your head and a big scanner passes over your body. If you’re a little sweaty or have a piece of metal or jewelry anywhere in your clothing, they yell at you to remove it and treat you like a criminal.
Right before my first full-body scan, I said to the (actually very nice) lady on the other side of the scanner: “Hey, just so you know, I have a medical device inside of me. You might see it.” She asked me if it was a pacemaker and I said No, it’s something near my groin. She nodded and said “You should be fine.” I went through the scanner and—nothing! I was immediately cleared and free to go.
The other handful of times I went through the scanner, it didn’t detect anything. I figure the capsule that forms around the implant is enough tissue to make it appear to the scanner that my penis is “all me,” so to speak, and that there’s nothing out of the ordinary.
What are the downsides, so far?
Not that many, honestly. But I also did a lot of research and thinking before going into this, so I knew what to expect. I didn’t expect my malleable to be anything like my normal penis—my normal, strictly biological, non-functional penis. There are far, far more upsides than downsides with my malleable implant. That said, there are still some downsides. But again, they are pretty minor.
I have to be a little smarter about clothing choices: I don’t wear form-fitting jeans anymore. It’s just not comfortable. In particular, I find that the zipper pressing against my implant is pretty uncomfortable. During my most recent business meeting, I wore a pair of pretty comfortable trousers, but I still think they were maybe a little too tight in the crotch area with a belt on. I could try wearing suspenders, but I’ve never done that before and I think that would take a little bit of practice. In most ordinary situations in my daily life, I wear stretch chinos, or athletic joggers, or even slightly roomier slacks. No problems at all. But I think I might be transitioning away from jeans. What I haven’t noticed until now: jeans are heavy!
Occasionally I have some (extremely) minor discomfort: I don’t normally wear underwear around the house, and so my malleable is “free floating” during the day. I think maybe the continual jostling in my gym shorts or what-not sometimes gives me a little bit of discomfort, but it’s really not noticeable unless you’re really paying attention. And since I’m hyper-focused on my penis these days, I think I’m paying extra-special attention to anything that might even seem like a little bit of a problem.
Other things I’ve noticed
Just some other random observations:
My general confidence is way up: I know this sounds crazy, but I think some of my recent promotion has something to do with my implant. My confidence at work and in my personal life is through the roof. Someone remarked during one of my recent presentations that “He seems so confident and prepared, he is so natural up there on stage, customers love hearing from him.” I was reasonably confident before, but now I feel like one of the major things that stood in my way in life is simply gone.
I’ve lost almost all interest in porn: I keep laughing to myself about this. I have almost zero interest in watching porn. Why, after all, should I have any interest in jerking off to sex when I could be spending that time having sex, myself? Porn just seems totally unappealing now. I do occasionally still watch it in a moment when a date falls through or something like that, but I think before the implant I was naturally much more interested in getting off with porn.
On occasion, I still worry about losing my erection: I know this is ridiculous, and that I’ve mentioned this before. But during sex, when I get into a position that would under normal circumstances cause me to lose my erection, there’s still a little flash of concern that goes through my brain. And then, of course, I remind myself that there’s nothing to worry about and keep on. But it’s interesting to be reminded of the fact that our brains are hard-wired a certain way after years of continuous reinforcement.
Thank you guys for all your support. I (quite literally) could not have done this without you.
Born 1990. ED since age 20 after a bicycle accident. Coloplast Genesis malleable implanted December 2024. Read my implant journal here.
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1day2Bbionic
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Duke....thanks for the update and congrats on all your successes in life lately. One question that has been talked about a bit in other threads. If you bring your malleable up to say 3 oclock or so does it stay up there like a natural erection or does it go back down to gravity? thanks
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OMG u have become ONE MILLION DOLLAR MAN(i remembe that my childhood movie),i m very happy for u bro that u are enjoying ur life and many many congrates for ur promotion
WE STILL ALL ARE WAITING FOR UR MILLION DOLLAR PIC
WE STILL ALL ARE WAITING FOR UR MILLION DOLLAR PIC
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duke_cicero
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1day2Bbionic wrote:Duke....thanks for the update and congrats on all your successes in life lately. One question that has been talked about a bit in other threads. If you bring your malleable up to say 3 oclock or so does it stay up there like a natural erection or does it go back down to gravity? thanks
Hey — if I bring my malleable up, it doesn't exactly stay like a natural erection, but as long as I put it in place inside a vagina it stays put. Which works great for me so far. I've never encountered a situation where I had a problem. But every erection is different, too, and lots of physiology goes into how erections sit. Probably as you heal up more, your situation will change a bit more. I still notice very tiny changes in the way mine works all the time, but I'm also paying extremely close attention.
wasim1 wrote:OMG u have become ONE MILLION DOLLAR MAN(i remembe that my childhood movie),i m very happy for u bro that u are enjoying ur life and many many congrates for ur promotion
WE STILL ALL ARE WAITING FOR UR MILLION DOLLAR PIC
Haha oh man — this is hard for me, I admit! I know I said I would do it but I'm scared of putting my penis on the internet, even though it's technically anonymous!
Born 1990. ED since age 20 after a bicycle accident. Coloplast Genesis malleable implanted December 2024. Read my implant journal here.
Re: Malleable journal - nervous but hopeful
Thanks Ducke.
What about the girth compared to before the implant? do you have engorgement during sex?
What about the girth compared to before the implant? do you have engorgement during sex?
Titan 24cm . December 2015
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duke_cicero
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maxxxxx wrote:Thanks Ducke.
What about the girth compared to before the implant? do you have engorgement during sex?
Girth is about the same. I do have engorgement during sex. I also still take Cialis a day or two before sex and find that helps things even more.
Born 1990. ED since age 20 after a bicycle accident. Coloplast Genesis malleable implanted December 2024. Read my implant journal here.
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newbiehere23
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Re: Malleable journal - nervous but hopeful
duke_cicero wrote:maxxxxx wrote:Thanks Ducke.
What about the girth compared to before the implant? do you have engorgement during sex?
Girth is about the same. I do have engorgement during sex. I also still take Cialis a day or two before sex and find that helps things even more.
Can you go without the cialis for girth engorgement? This is my only concern.
Also when were you clean for exercise again or when did you start lifting weights again
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