Postby C_lab34 » Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:25 am
Getting close to the five week point. I'm getting a better perspective now for just how long it is going to take to fully heal. I have a long way to go. I've been having sex once every other or day or so because of soreness. Also, I am still not pumping up all the way because my tissues are still getting stretched and expanding from the pressure of the hard cylinders. To me, this is a good sign, as I am slowly gaining or regaining size. Right now I have two benchmarks that are constantly, slowly improving day by day. How much I can pump up for sex, and how much I can pump up for cycling and tissue expansion. The max I can pump up now is just too painful to use for sex, even though I believe I have not yet reached full inflation. What I can now pump up to for sex is harder and fuller than it was right at the beginning, but I still feel soreness and because of this, I am not getting much natural engorgement. I do get more natural arousal when I lightly masturbate, so I think that in time this will be much more prominent during actual sex too. I also have to keep in mind that this very early, I almost want to say rushed, protocol of cycling and having sex within a month of the surgery seems to be right on the edge of acceptable. I can see why a lot of doctors tell their patients not to do anything with it until the six week mark. The truth is that for all of the progress I've made so far, I'm just not healed yet. I think now that I really won't have a finished product until around the six month mark, maybe even later. But I really like where this is going, and I think in time the minor issues I've experienced will work themselves out.
My implant is expanding more easily in girth in the bottom half of my shaft. It's getting very wide there, and narrows as it gets closer to the glans. For Alibaba and others that are concerned about the capacity of AMS devices, I really think that the limitations have more to do with your tissues and how they stretch out than whether you have an AMS or Titan. I could be wrong, but this is what I think now. And the primary reason I think this, apart from what Dr. Kramer has said repeatedly, is that I can see it with my own penis. On the bottom half of my penis, for whatever reason, my tissues just have more elasticity or ability to stretch, and the CX is really widening everything out in that area. Closer to the glans, where my tissues must be tighter, probably more fibrotic and resistant, the cylinders are narrower. Now I also think that over time the CX will put enough pressure on that region to stretch it out and I'll gain thickness there too, but it's going to take more time, and probably won't ever quite match the bottom half. I've already seen a little bit of a difference as I pump up more, with the mid shaft now wider than it was initially. So the expansion is creeping its way up the shaft, working on the tougher tissue more slowly but still surely. I wanted to provide these minute details for the more girth minded fellows, who may be concerned about the AMS, because we've all heard that the Titan has the reputation for providing better girth. And, who knows, maybe at bottom it is still better, but I think my AMS CX is doing just fine, and I see a lot of potential for gains too.
Sex is a lot better already than it used to be, even though I am still limited in some ways by soreness. One thing I've been able to really enjoy is close, full penetration without a lot of in and out movements. I always had to maintain a steady rhythm in the past, and now I can really go in to the hilt and stay there, and grind and move more subtly up and down and side to side. My girlfriend loves this and I think it would be a big hit for any woman, as it feels very intimate and most likely provides a lot of pressure and stimulation on the clit. Every move I make is no longer constrained by considerations for keeping my erections, which is such a huge relief and something that, as I have said many times, I have never had the pleasure of enjoying. Now, with all of that being said, I do remember some words of caution and qualification from some other members that I would like to take the opportunity to repeat. The implant has made sex much more enjoyable, and it provides exactly what it sets out to do, a hard penis that lasts as long as you want. It does not, nevertheless, fix the larger problems in a relationship, lift you out of poverty, or save your soul. I am already more confident and relaxed, and it has had a positive effect on my psyche. But there is still a lot of work I need to do on myself, and my relationships, that has nothing to do with the implant. One of the worst aspects of having serious ED is that it can cast a darkness over your life that makes it very difficult to reasonably order your priorities and values. Maybe I'm alone in this when I say that, in the past, I would catch myself thinking "If only I weren't impotent, everything would be great." Well, it is a lot better to be potent, to know you can perform at any time than not, but with that obstacle out of the way, all the others loom. And I can see much more clearly now just what parts of my life and character need improvement, and that improvement will have to come from a different part of myself, a part that can't just rest on confidence about sexual ability.
