Please respond here or by PM if you can relate. It feels like I'm alone sometimes because this is not something that's easy or comfortable to talk about and frankly, not very common.
The first two urologist I saw at the age of 19 couldn't even conceive of the possibility of natural impotence, it HAD to be be psychological. As if all humans are born physically perfect, free from any defects and deformities.
I suffered in silence and isolation for the next 16 years.
My spontaneous erections during puberty were maybe 30%-50% and not very common, this includes mornings.
No idea what caused it, if anything.
Possibly an accident in elementary school, playing on the monkey bars, my shoes had no grip, I slipped and fell down taint first onto the bars below
. I remember sprinting in tight circles until collapsing on the ground, my friend giggleing while asking was I ok.Other than that, there is nothing else I can trace it back to, maybe it was simply a birth defect.
It's crazy to think something so small could have altered my life in such a dramatic way.
I was naive growing up and made up excuses about why I was not developing at the same time as my peers.
I avoided and brushed off any talk that turned sexual. Hiding this from my family and friends eventually became an impossibility and I chose to isolate myself from everyone as much as possible.
Of course, avoiding problems only makes them worse, both in reality and how you build it up in the mind to be bigger than it actually is.
Fast forward to today. Discovering FrankTalk has been instrumental in giving me the confidence in going forward with the implant. I cannot thank you all enough for sharing your most personal stories and experiences, good and bad.
I was blown away with how many guys out there are going through similar difficulties and especially how many were happy with their choice to go bionic.
That was the tipping point for me.
Feel free to contact me in any way you feel comfortable, I hope to be scheduling implant surgery as soon as next week.
