young_and_impotent's story

[young_and_impotent]

I will write my updates here. Read my first post for more context. viewtopic.php?f=14&t=10019

I am definitely suffering from depression now. I had left my job to study to get a more challenging job. My career trajectory was good. Suddenly I came to terms with my severe ED and next to no libido. I have next to no erections with pills, next to no sensations in my penis. A girl can blow me without any response. So implant is not an option because I would be putting tubes inside rubber which is ridiculous. My career is taking a massive hit. I can't study a single word. All my waking ours is browsing internet forums looking for answers.

Anyway so today I went for a penile doppler test. At first they wanted to see if anything happened with viagra. Today I had 10mg cialis 50 mg viagra and 5 mg cialis last night. Still nothing happened. So we went ahead with the penile doppler test asked the doctor what injection he was using. He said 'it is a drug to stimulate your penis'. Little did he know I am a member of franktalk and I had all the knowledge of trimix bimix quadmix. I think it was most probably caverject. He injected it with what seemed a thick needle. It even pained on injection and there was some initial pain.

Then he told me to basically hold the penis with a fist to stop the bleeding. Then asked me to masturbate. I did do it for a long time nothing really was happened. Finally I got a semi, I generally get one erection per day on cialis for a few seconds. Even that was better than this semi. Then he told me to stimulate myself more and put on a porn vid. It was some 'white guy with big dick with an asian'. I love asian, that was one of my favorite genre when I used to indulge in porn and masturbation long back. I finally got a proper erection which didn't go down on standing up. All my erections collapse on standing up. He told me to masturbate till ejaculation. I had not masturbated in last 3 months, partly due to no desire and partly due to doing a 'reboot on nofap'. I do think porn has also played a role in my severe ED. Anyway I did masturbate for 10 mins and finally ejaculated in a long time. There was a lot of cum. But as soon as I cumed my erection subsided. Don't know if this is a bad sign.

The doctor said there was absolutely no problem in my hardness and erection. He said everything was fine. He didn't believe I had a problem and said the girls I attempted to have sex with were not 'good enough'. Of course this is not true because I was in love with one of the girls and I know my body. He told me to just go and try to have sex. Lol. This is just not possible because of my severe ED.

The bottom line is I am very happy that I don't have venous leakage and injections could work for me.

Now the next step is to convince the doctor to give me trimix (if they even have it). On googling I didn't see trimix available in India. This is weird because franktalk members order their trimix for India lol. I even went to a shady doctor today so that I could get some testosterone shots or hcg shots. My test levels came to be 600+. My test levels are usually in 400-500 range so I don't really believe this reading. The lab was supershady and the doctor was definitely a crook. These guys are shady even by Indian standards. But this is why I went there in the first place.

Do I have any sensations in my penis? No
Do I have any libido whatsoever? No
Will I ever have sex with a girl? Maybe with injections.

And that is all the hope I want to lead a happy and successful life.

My next aim is increasing my test levels 'naturally' and trying out supplements like dostinex/Selegiline but before that I will try to supplement in Tyrosine. I hope taking tyrosine is more 'natural'. What else can I try? I think there is some problem with my dopamine because it takes too much for me to get aroused.

If venous leak isn't the cause of my ED and test levels are not in the dumpster then what could be my problem. Trust me I don't just have 'performance anxiety', pills don't work at all.

I also spend more than an hour in the gym everyday since the past 3 months. And will soon start taking anti-estrogen supplements. I have a bit of gyno and fat. Of course there are others who have much worse gyno and are fully functional. I understand sex is not everything but all I needed was a little hope.

[young_and_impotent]

Went to a see the urologist again. He told me to go for penile doppler test. I will go for it even though I have had one before. Last one didn't have any outflow. I also want to know what chemical they inject. Last penile doppler guy injected using a thick injection. I am seriously thinking of taking the 31 gauge injection and going. That thick injection was painful.

Then the doctor said as oral medications are not working he will most to injections. Unfortunately he kept on saying Papaverine injections. Wtf I thought they were ancient. He doesn't even know about PGE-1 let alone trimix. Finding a good urologist here is next to impossible. At least he is young and listens, the older ones don't even take me seriously.

Anyways will update you after the doctor teaches me injections. Inspite of my severe ED I am scared of priapism.

[Larry10625]

Went to a see the urologist again. He told me to go for penile doppler test. I will go for it even though I have had one before. Last one didn't have any outflow. I also want to know what chemical they inject. Last penile doppler guy injected using a thick injection. I am seriously thinking of taking the 31 gauge injection and going. That thick injection was painful.

Then the doctor said as oral medications are not working he will most to injections. Unfortunately he kept on saying Papaverine injections. Wtf I thought they were ancient. He doesn't even know about PGE-1 let alone trimix. Finding a good urologist here is next to impossible. At least he is young and listens, the older ones don't even take me seriously.

Anyways will update you after the doctor teaches me injections. Inspite of my severe ED I am scared of priapism.

So, prove to him you know what you are talking about and ask him for the drug you want. If he gives you a reason for not, suggest another one. Don't keep your research a secret... use it. Maybe once you can get a good hard on, it will improve your confidence and then increase your libido and sensation. ED kills a lot and a good stiffy cures a lot.

Larry

[young_and_impotent]

True Larry, I will definitely bring up Trimix. Aprosdatil was still ok, but papaverine is a joke. Strange thing is that trimix is so fucking old. Like I was surprised it is older than even viagra. It should be known everywhere.

[defiant]

Why are you deadset against an implant out of interest?

I don't have one but once you get your head around it, it's not so bad I'm sure of it.

It gives you a normal looking, normal feeling, functional dick. And if you have total ED, there really is no other option.

Consider it if trimix stops working. Just consider it, carefully.