In Surgery and Posting Live - My Journal

[Hawkman]

Day 22 Wednesday

Today I am just basking in the afterglow of yesterday. I am no worse off for the test drive. I can now pump the entire way up without a break. By "entire way", I mean to a granite-hard stretching erection that is beyond what you would likely ever use for intercourse (35 pumps). The number of pumps may vary if my penis still stretches some either length or girth. Also, my pumps may not be full pumps. The firmness of the pump ball is astounding when you first feel it. It takes strength to squeeze it before it gets broke in. That combined with soreness, in the beginning, means you are seldom totally collapsing the pump ball with each pump. I can stand about 20 minutes at rockhard inflation. The last 5 minutes are trying to distract myself from the discomfort. By the last minute, I am watching the clock second hand ready to hit the deflate button. The hope is that I will get some more size from this and at the very least it will prevent scaring to form around the newly placed deflated cylinders and reducing size.

I can now distribute my weight on a chair so there is only minor discomfort. My penis is still a hassle deciding on whether to put it up or down since it would prefer I walk around nude with it pointing to 4 o'clock when deflated. This is characteristic of the Titan cylinders until they soften up at a few months. Again this is all doable, it just is not natural and takes thought. No matter where you put it (down your leg or pointed up) there is the sense you are partially erect so sitting or bending over to pick something up bends your penis in an uncomfortable way. Also when a new Titan is totally deflated the cylinders are like crumpled straws that have some pointed corners on them (dog ears) that are uncomfortable on your healing penis. That also generally improves greatly in the weeks ahead. The AMS LGX 700 has less of those issues since the cylinders contract and expand lengthwise (up to 20%) and give a more comfortable smaller deflated state.

I now have periods when I don't feel like I had surgery such as when laying in bed or in a bathtub, or even on rare occasions when standing or walking. Then there are those times when you carry groceries in and accidentally swing a sack of groceries into your penis or scrotum and you immediately know you have a ways to go before you are fully healed.

I intend to start back at some exercise tomorrow. I will start with some moderate Bowflex stuff and some pullups and see how it goes.

[Hawkman]

Day 23 Thursday

I resumed some "moderate exercise today. Dr. Eid told me that I could resume exercise at 6 weeks but when I pressed him and said some exercises are not lifting, such as pull-ups etc. he said moderate exercise at 3 weeks. So, I cut my weights in about half, reduced from 3 sets to 2 sets, and increased the reps by a few. I also cut my pull-ups to 10 on the first set. I also eliminated some exercises to reduce the number. All and all, it felt good to do something rather than atrophy. I felt no strain but only did upper body.

I drove to an appointment 1 hour in each direction with no issues other than I like to unleash my penis and did so but threw a shirt over my lap while driving. I always try to remember to put it away before I jump out of the car

I pumped up the second time for 30 minutes at about 9 PM. I pumped so tight that it was one of those where I was literally counting off the seconds for the last two minutes until I could hit the deflate button. As I deflated I soaked a little more to give my penis and scrotum a little relaxation. I dried off and came to the PC and my wife asks if I am on the forums. I said yes. Her response was "you can't get lucky on the forums". I have to admit that it took about 1 1/2 seconds for me to even figure out what that meant. I have to admit that I was pretty nervous about pumping up again after my aggressive session minutes earlier in the tub BUT I have never been one to turn down sex. I did not tell my wife I thought we would give it a 2-day break. I did ask if she honestly wanted to or if she was just being nice and giving me a pity "F" . When I saw she was interested I did what any good husband would do. I pumped up. She was interested in feeling it as it expanded and said it felt like I was getting a natural erection.

Sex was a little less uncertainty and fewer moments of discomfort than on Wednesday's test drive. Since this was not the experimental test drive it started much more naturally and romantically with foreplay. Afterward, I was able to deflate without being in the tub but I did put a warm rag on my scrotum to relax it a bit. I have to admit that I felt discomfort during the night and got in a hot bath the instant I got up first thing this morning without pumping up. I also told my wife exactly how my routine goes and that until I heal, she should let me know she is interested before I cycle to the limit of my tolerance in the evening

This thing is awesome and I cannot wait until I no longer need to be careful!

[Larry10625]

Day 23 Thursday

I resumed some "moderate exercise today. Dr. Eid told me that I could resume exercise at 6 weeks but when I pressed him and said some exercises are not lifting, such as pull-ups etc. he said moderate exercise at 3 weeks. So, I cut my weights in about half, reduced from 3 sets to 2 sets, and increased the reps by a few. I also cut my pull-ups to 10 on the first set. I also eliminated some exercises to reduce the number. All and all, it felt good to do something rather than atrophy. I felt no strain but only did upper body.

I drove to an appointment 1 hour in each direction with no issues other than I like to unleash my penis and did so but threw a shirt over my lap while driving. I always try to remember to put it away before I jump out of the car

I pumped up the second time for 30 minutes at about 9 PM. I pumped so tight that it was one of those where I was literally counting off the seconds for the last two minutes until I could hit the deflate button. As I deflated I soaked a little more to give my penis and scrotum a little relaxation. I dried off and came to the PC and my wife asks if I am on the forums. I said yes. Her response was "you can't get lucky on the forums". I have to admit that it took about 1 1/2 seconds for me to even figure out what that meant. I have to admit that I was pretty nervous about pumping up again after my aggressive session minutes earlier in the tub BUT I have never been one to turn down sex. I did not tell my wife I thought we would give it a 2-day break. I did ask if she honestly wanted to or if she was just being nice and giving me a pity "F" . When I saw she was interested I did what any good husband would do. I pumped up. She was interested in feeling it as it expanded and said it felt like I was getting a natural erection.

Sex was a little less uncertainty and fewer moments of discomfort than on Wednesday's test drive. Since this was not the experimental test drive it started much more naturally and romantically with foreplay. Afterward, I was able to deflate without being in the tub but I did put a warm rag on my scrotum to relax it a bit. I have to admit that I felt discomfort during the night and got in a hot bath the instant I got up first thing this morning without pumping up. I also told my wife exactly how my routine goes and that until I heal, she should let me know she is interested before I cycle to the limit of my tolerance in the evening

This thing is awesome and I cannot wait until I no longer need to be careful!

It gets better my friend. You ARE doing exactly what is needed to get the most out of your implant but, you don't have an LGX so you shouldn't expect permanent results like with the LGX. I got a good chuckle when you said you were watching the second hand tick by when cycling. I know exactly what you mean both with the implant and the VED. Dr. Brock tells his patients to use the VED before getting implant and during the first 2 years of the LGX implant.

Larry

[Hawkman]

... get the most out of your implant but, you don't have an LGX so you shouldn't expect permanent results like with the LGX. Larry

Thanks for the responses.

The Titan CLEARLY exerts tremendous pressure on the girth and length of my penis when pumped past intercourse level of firmness. Regardless of the model name, if cylinders are still stretching lengthwise before all the folds pump out it is exerting stretch. The question is not the model. The questions are: (1) Is it exerting a stretch longitudinally and girth wise (2) Does my tunica have the capacity to permanently stretch

In my case, I doubt #2 because I have stretched my tunica for years and have calcified plaques from long-established Peyronies. I seriously doubt there is the potential for further stretch with my tunica but I will make the effort and objectively keep precise measurements to see what the data shows in my case.

However, Individuals like Merrix and several others have well documented permanent gains with the Titan just as there are some with the LGX that have a floppy glans because they were not properly sized, and others with an LGX that complain they never feel any stretch.

[Hawkman]

have been neglecting my Journal here on FT so I will catch it up.
Day 25 Saturday

Every day is a slight improvement. it is noticed mostly in a lack of pain in the scrotum when pumping up the device and greatly reduced discomfort in the penis when remaining inflated to the maximum for 30 + minutes.

I am now starting to pump up in the morning before my shower. I shave, brush my teeth, then get in the shower and no longer take a morning soak. I can deflate standing up and I feel like the entire soaking thing will be winding down within a week. I am still not sure I can deflate when my scrotum is tight. That was an advantage of the warm water. Maybe it is just a matter of digging around more to find the pump valve.

While generally comfortable, I still have random stabbing pains like a pin sticking in me for a few seconds. If I wear street clothes for many hours I still love to get them off and just free my penis for a couple hours. Positioning my penis is still an effort although I notice the inflated penis angle dropping to about 2:00 O'clock and my deflated angle also dropping a corresponding amount. It gives me the option to go up or down in my clothing but neither is real comfortable for hours.

[Hawkman]

Day 27 Sunday

I am not sure if I pumped up slightly more or what but for some reason the evening session in the tub was intense during the end of the 30 minutes. More discomfort than the last couple days.

I finally have measurements for all those that obsess over such things as I always have.

My pre prostatectomy/pre Peyronies Disease length was 8 1/8" 8 1/4" (15 years ago)
My pre implant length the instant it came out of the VED was 6 1/2" BPEL (6" was usable length from my body and the VED Washer-like ring)
My Pre-implant measurement and promise from Dr. Eid was 6 1/4 maybe a little more
My measurement at week 4 post surgery is 6 1/4" maybe 6 3/8" (EXACTLY what I was told by Dr. Eid)
This measurement is without any arousal or engorgement in the glans like I had from the VED and I am not prepared to use the VED at this point.

My girth pre-op the instant it came out of the VED was 5 1/8"
My girth at week 4 Post op is 5 1/4" (a slight gain)

Considering that my VED size would slowly diminish after withdrawing from the VED, I have more usable length now than before surgery. I have slightly more usable girth, and I have a MUCH more firm serviceable erection that can perform in any position indefinitely (as long as my body can hold out)
If I use the VED to engorge the glans or other methods such as ED drugs (not likely) I think I would gain at least another 1/4"
I also think there is some chance my length or girth will increase in the next 3 months. I am not real hopeful of this because of my well-established plaque and the fact that i could get no more even with multiple stretching routines with heavy tension.

[Hawkman]

Day 29 Tuesday,

Mowed the front and backyard with a walk-behind mower. Without a doubt, today was the most comfortable day since surgery. I am getting more confident at pumping up and deflating outside of a shower or tub. They were so helpful in the beginning both at soothing discomfort and relaxing the scrotum and probably even warming the cylinders up. I still get discomfort maintaining a maximum inflation for 30 minutes. I assume that means it is doing something like stretching the tissue. Dr. Eid's office assures me I cannot pump hard enough to damage the implant or my penis. Now that I hit 4 weeks my understanding is that Dr. Eid is content if I only inflate once a week whether for sex or to just cycle the implant. The drawback in daily pumping (other than time) is that like any man-made device, an implant only has so many pumps in it before something fails. Since the pump is the most likely thing to fail I might cut back to inflating once a day and hold for at least 30 minutes. This gives me maximum time inflated and cuts my pumping in half.

To those that wonder why not inflate only for sex, my answer is: 1) To soften up the cylinders some so I can more quickly get to a more flaccid-like state when deflated. 2) at this early stage I still hope for some expansion in length or girth. I do acknowledge that the likelihood is not great since I suspect my tunica is stretched to the max with years (off and on) of high tension traction and VED use and years of Peyronies Disease. I think I will set a period of about 6 more weeks. If I see no gains in that period I will likely reduce inflation to sex (hopefully a few times a week.) If I see any gains I will continue for another 6 weeks.

[Hawkman]

Day 28 Monday

For some reason, today was just an uncomfortable day in my clothing. I wished I could be in a nudist camp

[Hawkman]

Day 30 Wednesday

I had two great days in a row. I am still very aware of my penis and scrotum when I sit. Soft seats that tend to bulge up in the middle when you sit down are the worst but it is all manageable. I can now tuck my penis down in pants if they are not tight. No jeans for sure. I mostly wear Duluth Trading Firehose Flex work pants. Good fit with lots of give.

Sex although fantastic can still be painful. In fact, it will be painful if we are not careful. It has to be choreographed so there are no unexpected sideways hip movements. If the female wants to move sideways a few inches from the edge of the bed without warning it is not good. It also requires lots of lubricant. Patience is clearly the name of this game and I am not that patient because I can already see how incredible this is going to be. I am almost to the point of walking in a large room full of people and instead of thinking negatively, thinking there is no one in here that has the sexual stamina I have.

A couple more psychological observations. I find that my obsession with size is greatly diminished. Maybe because of the rock-hard worry-free (adjustable) erection. Maybe because it looks bigger to me than before surgery, but I am very happy with what I have. Would I turn down more size? NEVER, but it seems a minor issue and I am relaxed knowing I am not slowly losing more. I also find that I am relaxed about anyone knowing I have an implant. I carefully guarded this under the guise of hernia surgery but I find myself wanting to give a full account to people. While I have not done so out of consideration for them possibly not wanting to know, I feel so confident with what this is, that I am proud to have it. To me, it says that I am fully functional in a way that other men only dream of, especially men my age. And that is coming from a guy that used to have multiple orgasms from one erection and never lost an erection in my life before prostate cancer surgery. I don't want to get radical here, but I am almost to the point that if I was a man in his 60's that was beginning to suffer the first stages of ED I would want this to preempt the struggle and decline. It is like why fight a decline you never have to experience? The real answer I guess is there is some risk of infection and there are botched surgeries by low volume surgeons. There is also limited life expectancy for an implant but that is true of everything including life itself.

[Hawkman]

Day 31, Thursday

I am getting very comfortable in general daily activity. Yesterday I edged the sidewalk, trimmed hedges, pruned a tree and cleaned up limbs with no problems other than when I slapped myself in the penis with a limb. It hurt but no big deal. Sitting seems pretty normal. Street clothes are good BUT I still have to pick and choose what I wear. The biggest issue is with the penis down the left leg in long pants, it is a bit of a problem bending that leg when I climb in or out of a car. It also exerts some pressure on it when I bend over. I do find if I keep my penis in the same position for several hours it hurts to move it. Ideally, I should probably reposition it every couple hours but I don't.

I have pretty much stopped all hot baths/soaks. I am pumping up to the max for about 30 minutes in the morning while I shave, brush my teeth then shower.

Although I feel much more like I am returning to normal during regular activity, the last time I had sex the tip of the implant right at the glans caused a stinging pain especially when I tried to keep going after I had a climax. I am not sure if the heightened sexual pleasure masked the pain until I had an orgasm or if my penis had just had enough by that point but it was enough to stop me. I am very impatient for those issues to be completely gone. I am ready for unrestrained, uninhibited, sex that takes no thought, planning, or caution. I think I am going to back off of sexual activity to just once or twice a week and hope I can feel improvement each time. One note on sensitivity. I have read some men who say they do not orgasm as fast and some that have at least initial problems having an orgasm during intercourse right after getting an implant. Some that had premature ejaculation consider it a plus. My experience is different. I see absolutely no difference in sensitivity or anxiety or anything else that might delay orgasm. I can tell that 1/3 of the length of my penis shaft on the underside right at the base is a little numb to the touch near where the incision was but it already seems to be improving and does not detract in the least from intercourse, probably because it is a small area on the underside of the base.

Finally, pumping and deflating is now pretty routine. They require no soaking and there is hardly even any scrotum discomfort when depressing the pump bulb