Yet Another Journal: Waiting for revision

[kbb1957]

I appreciate your openness and ability to communicate with writing prowess.
I am sending positive vibes your way. I’m certain you will come through the revision with impressive results and jump back in the saddle in no time at all.

After reading your experience with the OTR I am very glad I have the Classic/Genesis pump.

[NYCGay]

I think for those of us that never had a period of a reliably hard dick, this implanted period is bittersweet… it’s amazing to finally have this power we always craved, but at the same time it’s sad to think back to what could have been had we not had the problems for so long.

Yes, bittersweet indeed. I try not to fret too much about the past, but there is no denying that my ED was a major source of frustration and disappointment for me for over three decades. What would it have been like to be a young man and have the kind of erections that most young men have; to be able to just take your erections for granted; to be more worried about getting hard at an inopportune moment than not getting hard when you want to be? I never had that. No wonder we are trying to make up for lost time.

[NYCGay]

NYCGay
Sad to hear of your implant failure. Best wishes for a speedy recovery from your revision surgery.
Pete

Thank you, Pete!

[NYCGay]

I'm starting my own journey after a lifetime of trouble--first with the closet and then, working my way out, discovering I couldn't get it up sufficiently for penetration. After a lot of trouble I have a working implant and on Friday got my first PreP script.

I can certainly relate. When I had finally accepted that I was gay and worked up the courage to seek out other gay men and thought that I would at last have a sex life – then I discovered that I couldn’t maintain an erection. It was like a double whammy, a brutal disappointment.

Glad to hear you’ve gotten your PrEP script. That was another issue that tormented me when I was young: the fear of getting AIDS. I’ve been on PrEP for ten years now. It sure is easier to enjoy sex when you’re not constantly afraid.

[NYCGay]

I’ve had guys hungrily sucking on the pump with no idea that it wasn’t my testicle. Lots of hands and mouths on it and no one noticed I have an IPP.

Oh, now you’ve made me excited about getting the Classic pump! I’m not overly worried about partners discovering that I have an implant. When someone asks me what it is I have in my ballsack, I tell them. But having the choice, of course I would prefer having a pump that doesn’t feel like an artificial object!

[NYCGay]

Reading of your experience really makes me wish I was gay because God damn those clubs & the openness of it all sounds amazing lol.

While certainly not all gay men are promiscuous, quite a lot are, so if you want to play, you can always find guys to play with. I really enjoy places where you can both have a conversation, and get a blow job, sometimes at the same time. It’s just ... fun!

Thank you for your well-wishes. I do hope your implant will last much, much longer than mine. Clearly, most of them do.

[NYCGay]

After reading your experience with the OTR I am very glad I have the Classic/Genesis pump.

Yes, the Classic pump seems to be the better design. I got the impression that Dr. Eid, for one, has stopped implanting the OTR. (I could be wrong about that.)