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[cumstein]

Thanks for the reply Merrix!. By presenting everything without a filter, we can at least go in with our eyes wide open. So If I get away with a week, great, if not then two and if not then three weeks.
But I have a place to come back to, I just don't want to sit on a plane for 4 hours with a 2 hour drive home if I am in big pain. May not happen, but if it does, I can just stay.

I cannot believe what sitting in that hotel room over the holidays must have been like. Awful, but it goes fast and then its over. I have had to do it a number of times also. Might have set you back on the head stuff. I have a pacemaker. I came back from 30 days of surfing and boom, my heart rate is at 30.
I went nuts. I lift big like you (can't do those squats or deads anymore at that level). I got the ICD implant and for me it was a nothing. The fucked up rare disease that caused it is the issue. First day I got the ICD dialed in I went skiing the bumps hard core with my son. He told me to turn the ICD off, HA because I was skiing again at his level given I could breath . Hope the old lady says the same thing, don't pump it up tonight , your killing me!!!
Best to you and your family.

[merrix]

9.5 months post op.
Haven't posted any pics for long time, and supposedly they say more than a thousand words, don't they?

First one is inflated near max. Somewhere between the 30 pumps I use for sex and the maximum 40. There is however no visible difference between the 30 and the 40. Only difference is basically the flex in the base. Shaft is spike hard in both cases, size is same. 30 pumps still has enough flex to be practical for sex, even though less than a natural erection, while 40 pumps cannot practically be used for good sex.
This pic is without any arousal and hence there is no supporting natural blood flow. That means bone pressed length is ~16.5 cm (6.5") and girth is ~13.6 cm (5.4"). It also means the glans is smaller, the foreskin is looser, and the dick is flatter.
When aroused and with a swelled glans, length increases ~1 cm to ~17.5 cm (6.9") and girth increases ~0.6 cm to ~14.2 cm (5.6").
Again, the length measurements are bone pressed with a ruler on top of the penis. But I don't have too much soft tissue covering my pubic bone.

Second pic is to show how well the Titan Touch deflation works in my case. This pic is taken 30-60 seconds after pressing the deflation valve once. And only a short squeeze for 1-2 sec that is.
I'd say it goes down to a level which pretty much corresponds to a natural penis after orgasm.

Third pic is taken after I squeezed the shaft. Normally I'd say my flaccid hangs more straight down. But there is a variation, and in this case, the pic is taken early morning in a hotel room before my workout, after 3-4 cups of coffee and with AC running very chilly. My scrotum was very tight and that's why the dick angle is different than when the balls hang lower (which they normally do).

Also worth noting: Discussed again a couple of weeks ago with my wife about what hardness she prefers etc. Now that I can choose, this is a meaningful discussion. Not so meaningful before implant ("Hey babe, what do you prefer, my semi or a proper cock?").
Anyway, she prefers it a bit softer than the 30-32 pumps I had been using. She simply thinks it is too hard. Way harder than a perfect normal erection, and it can sometimes be uncomfortable for her.
So lately I've been using 26-28 pumps and that seems to be better for her.

That's it for this time.

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[PFracture]

You know what Merrix? I couldn't thank you enough for posting these pictures along with a great description of the erect and flaccid state... Exactly like you described your erect result before... Amazing outcome! I hope that the ones who had doubts and judged you in the past in a negative way come along and congratulate you now.

By the way, I called both EID and Kramer 's office and their in-office consultation price varies a lot. 400$ for EID and 200$ for Dr Kramer? I was impressed, and curious at such a price difference on two top doctors? Eid is just 100$ less than Dr Goldstein in California, which is another World class doctor for ED, but is well known not for implants but the penile revascularization surgery.

ps: can you tuck your penis nicely to the side if you want without any discomfort while flaccid? One of my biggest fears is not being able to to do that, shall I have the implant, and have a hard time hiding a bigger flaccid penis....

[merrix]

Thanks PFracture. That is the whole purpose of me spending time here still. I just remember how extremely valuable this forum was to me in my decision process. Nowhere else to get this sort of information, is it?

Anyway, to answer your questions:
Price difference between the two gurus: I guess perhaps one simple reason is the business model. One entrepreneur running his business, and one guy working in a university hospital. Could think of other reasons as well, but I don't actually know.
Anyway, for me, I wouldn't care. Back then I wouldn't have let 200$ difference have any impact when the whole thing cost me 35-40 KUSD all in all anyway. I would still have chosen the one I think would give me the absolutely best chances of getting the best possible result. My choice fell on Eid, but Kramer was of course in the mix as well. As I have said before, it came down basically to following issues why I chose Eid:
* He was faster to respond. Same day. I still haven't heard back from my enquiry to Kramer...
* He had, according to me, a much more informative website.
* He was in a major city which I preferred both to travel to (international flight) and to stay in compared to Kramer's second tier city.

Can I tuck the flaccid away?
Yes I definitely can. Posting more pics to show you this. Can only post three pics in one post, so I'll attach 3 here and 3 in another post.

First one is another pic of my flaccid, when the scrotum is more relaxed (as it normally is) than it was in the pic in the previous post.

Second is a pic of what it looks like in underwear.

Third is a pic in clothes. These are a pair of tightly fitted shorts. As you can see, it doesn't look strange at all. And then I still have a >17 cm (when erect) Titan, which many people here claim does not get smaller when flaccid, and cannot be completely deflated, and is hard in the flaccid state. I disagree.
And finally, don't ask mewhy the F the pic is upside down. I have rotated it a hundred times in all different ways, and it always ends up upside down anyway...

Will post another post with three other pics.

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[merrix]

Continued from previous post (Answers I). Read it first if possible.

To further answer the question whether it is pliable and can be bunched away in underwear, look at the first two pics.

The first one shows that it can be bent completely. This causes no pain whatsoever. I don't even feel the implant in me when I do this.

Second pic shows how I normally wear the dick in my pants. Just tucked down. When I do, I don't even feel the implant. Just a completely normal feeling.

Third pic is just to show my pump. Or, actually, the pump cannot be seen - and that's the point. Eid did a great job of hiding it behind my balls and at the same height as my balls.
Even though it is this well hidden, I have no problem whatsoever to access it. Neither for inflation, nor deflation. I can do it easily either standing or lying down. With one hand if I want to. Can do about 20 one-hand pumps, then it gets too hard, and I must use two hands. Accessibility is no issue.

Hope this helps.
I do this for two reasons. One is to show people who think about getting an implant what results you can get.
And I actually do this for Dr. Eid as well. He deserves all the credit in the world from my side. What is his statistics in general? Is this how all of his patients end up? No fucking clue. All I know is that I got great results from him and the Titan he advocates.

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[lunacynic]

yikes! merrix you're truly a warrior! i'm still struggling with parking and never would have conceived of that particular option, and not from a simple lack of imagination. all the pix i see online promoting prostheses and procedures show a beautifully and evenly curved tube when bending one. up to a point . . ok. but sooner or later, and the more deflated the sooner, that baby is gonna kink! i hate the kinks!

[Xomanow]

Forget about the dick pics.......I wanna know your workout routine!......

[merrix]

yikes! merrix you're truly a warrior! i'm still struggling with parking and never would have conceived of that particular option, and not from a simple lack of imagination. all the pix i see online promoting prostheses and procedures show a beautifully and evenly curved tube when bending one. up to a point . . ok. but sooner or later, and the more deflated the sooner, that baby is gonna kink! i hate the kinks!

Maybe it's me not being a native English speaker, or maybe it's your Texan English, but I struggle to get the point you're trying to make.
The keywords "yikes" and "warrior" suggest me that you think I am fighting some sort of pain.
However, I thought the phrases:
"The first one shows that it can be bent completely. This causes no pain whatsoever. I don't even feel the implant in me when I do this."
and
"Second pic shows how I normally wear the dick in my pants. Just tucked down. When I do, I don't even feel the implant. Just a completely normal feeling."
quite clearly stated that there is no pain to fight. As said, I don't even feel the implant no matter how I bend my flaccid dick. And I can wear it any way I want in my pants - up, down, left, right, straight, bent. Whatever I think fits best.

And to be very clear then, what I mean when I describe how I normally wear the dick in my pants, is not that I deliberately bend it backwards like in the pic. The pic is just to show that I can. What I mean is I just wear it downwards, and then the pants will fix it in some sort of position as on the pic. I prefer this over placing it left or right, since the sideways approach will make it visible in some clothes, while as the bunched-down way will just create a bulge and no contours of the dick will be seen. This is clearly seen on the pic with clothes.

Regarding kinks, yes I get them (well, only one actually) when completely deflated. But first of all, the kink does not bother me. I don't feel it, unless of course I touch it with my fingers. Secondly, the kink is not even visible as you can see on my flaccid pics above.
According to what I have learned, kinks on a Titan when flaccid is a good thing. As long as they straighten when inflated. A perfectly sized Titan should kink when when deflated and have no kinks when inflated. That is what I have, and in my case, practice seems to support theory.

Hang in there and good luck with the parking.

[lunacynic]

merrix my apologies. allow me to attempt to deconstruct this colossal misunderstanding. to begin, in my defense, i don't speak "texan english". i'm an american and own a house in austin but, and i'm not making this up, i've lived in more than 30 cities in my life and all but one of them are not in texas i've been enrolled in seven post-secondary institutions, taught mathematics part time at a university, and written four books. my speech patterns result from an amalgam of those influences and others. i do however, admit to a certain excessive informality which, ironically, can be a problem for many, especially those, like yourself, who have learned and practice precise and excellent english! it's bad enough that i eschew the use of capital letters and often abbreviate or truncate common words, but i also play fast and loose with analogy and am not above mixing a metaphor if it amuses me but i swear, my motives are pure! i can be serious when necessary but most of the time i attempt to adopt a lighthearted and spontaneous attitude and speak tongue-in-cheek whenever possible

hence: yikes! this word is defined as an expression of surprise or alarm, but in common usage is never used in response to an event of serious or grave proportions. it's like saying, "wow!" or "hey!" or "whoa!" so, merrix i was astonished! (also quite impressed) to see your dick folded neatly in half, like a wallet! and part of my astonishment was the fact that, as you made so perfectly clear in your post, it didn't even hurt! yikes!

and to me it seemed another in a long series of tactics you've developed to address the many obstacles you've had to overcome in what has proved something of an odyssey for you. in this case you've found a novel approach to a common problem and arrived at a satisfactory solution. you face each and every challenge and fight your way through it! merrix you're a warrior!

but kinks are another matter. kinks are never good. kinks occur when a tube (or even a solid rod) exceeds its inner bend radius and inevitably results in some degree of structural damage. a fully deflated balloon is so flexible this phenomenon is too trivial to be considered, but in something as rigid as a copper tube . . you get the picture. kink and straighten a few times and it will break.

the implant cylinders are somewhere in between. obviously much closer to the balloon, and the greater the degree of deflation the less the problem, but a problem nevertheless. call me a kinkist if you want, i just don't like 'em

[merrix]

Great reply, simply great!

Regarding the kinks, I agree with you from a theoretical (engineering) point of view. But if this was a problem for implants, wouldn't we've heard plenty of people here having revisions due to the cylinders breaking (leaking) because of kinks?
Maybe there are plenty of these cases, but I've never heard of one.

And from a result perspective, I only see things being worse without my kink. Why? Well since the kink is there when flaccid, but not when inflated, it means that apparently my penis (the natural part left of it) does get longer when I inflate (this is confirmed by my measurements as well).
If the kink wasn't there when flaccid, I wouldn't get this length increase, would I?

Question is what'd happen if I had gotten a shorter implant, short enough to avoid the kinks when deflated.
Would it mean my dick would grow longer anyway when inflating (and being aroused), but then the dick would 'outgrow' the cylinders and the implant tips would be further back than now?
Or would the tips simply stay, and my dick would be just as long when flaccid as when inflated? Probably that's what it would be.
And if you're right, and kinks will eventually kill the implant, then maybe that'd be preferable.

I also struggle to believe that Dr. Eid, or any other experienced implant-surgeon, would deliberately target to insert implants sized with a slight kink when deflated if this was something that regularly caused problems. This would require him to do plenty early revisions, costing him money (he does revisions for free when they're his fault) and most of all killing his reputation.

But who knows. Time will tell whether my deflated kink is a problem or not. Right now it causes no known problems when deflated and makes my dick slightly longer when inflated...