Help me improve my situation

[sonnyjim]

Yes, it was fully inflated.

Even when I am by myself and I fully inflate it my glans do not engorge, I literally have to masturbate for about half an hour to be able to ejaculate and then hardly anything comes out.

I don’t know what to do, I don’t want to kill myself but I can’t keep living this depressed. I am 33 years old, I’ve been dealing with this since I was 27 and I don’t even know how it got this bad to be honest. I have read stories where people have fractured their penises and have had much more gruesome injuries than mine and they still got it fixed.

I feel hopeless like I am going round in circles and every time I try and come up with solutions, nothing works.

[iwantanewone]

Hi Sonnyjim,

I’m sorry you’re having so much trouble at such a young age! What I want to talk about though is your mention of suicide. I take this very serious as a family member has committed suicide and I want you to totally understand that those left never get over a suicide! It may seem like a solution to you but it is devastating for everyone that loves you… I know that you’re dick and a sex life is important and as long as you’re on this earth there is always hope and something new and something else to try. If you leave this earth it’s over… We are one and done in life! Please keep researching, see Different doctors,, mental health associates call family, friends… At your lowest moment if you think Of ending your life, don’t do it. Time has proven that if you wait just one minute it will seem better and not worth ending your life over… I will read all of your threads to see what your problems are but I don’t like to see suicide mentioned!

Stay alive and stay hopeful and seek mental health immediately! Feel free to PM me if you need to. More than sex and a big hard dick I am a proponent of people to stay a lot…

I want to see additional post that you are alive and well!

[sonnyjim]

I understand what you are saying and I wouldn’t want to put my family through all that pain either but I’m actually embarrassed to live essentially.

I just don’t understand how they cannot do any more to help me, even if it is surgically. They can surgically help people who have Peyronies IF it causes a curve but they can’t do anything if scar tissue actually hinders your function. Just because my dick is straight does it not matter if it functions then?

I had trouble accepting the fact that I have an implant but this just makes it even worse - I could of lived with it if i could still feel something and had glans engorgement.

It just doesn’t make sense to me.

[iwantanewone]

What state do you live in? Maybe you don’t want to post it publicly and that’s fine. Have you done research to find the surgeon that is considered a High-volume implanter with the best reputation and the most knowledgeable and that has been doing this for quite some time… I have not read all of your threads but the best thing to do is to keep working on the issue, do the research try and get yourself an appointment with the best penile implant surgeon around and go for a visit and sometimes it’s best to just start over! Good luck, please keep trying to find the solution and stay alive and stay well!

[iwantanewone]

OK I just read through some of your threads… It seems as though many people make suggestions to you and you ask a lot more questions and have your own set of answers… Frank talk is an excellent source of information and knowledge and how to get more informed… But, with that I will say that you have a very particular situation and you’ve been to some doctors and you’ve had an implant and the best thing you can do is find as I said earlier the best specialist for IPP surgery who has high volume with the best knowledge and go and start complete testing over and see what they have they have to say! I have had to do this many times where people keep telling me one thing and tell me something else and something else not necessarily about ED bed about many things in life as I am older than you… But I think you would benefit from doing as I recommended! Good luck!

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Yes, it was fully inflated.

Even when I am by myself and I fully inflate it my glans do not engorge, I literally have to masturbate for about half an hour to be able to ejaculate and then hardly anything comes out.

I don’t know what to do, I don’t want to kill myself but I can’t keep living this depressed. I am 33 years old, I’ve been dealing with this since I was 27 and I don’t even know how it got this bad to be honest. I have read stories where people have fractured their penises and have had much more gruesome injuries than mine and they still got it fixed.

I feel hopeless like I am going round in circles and every time I try and come up with solutions, nothing works.

But you can have sex now, its not going to be perfect but its a good first step. Try taking some pills or the gel people are talking about here for glans engorgement. You should also test drive it with partners and aim for the emotional connection (this is turns sex into a tramscendental experiance).

Im getting my implant soon and your post really keeps things in perspective for me, things CAN go wrong and ill need to accept that but remain optimistic.

[sonnyjim]

Your right, I can have sex now in the sense that I can actually put my penis in but with the lack of engorgement I do not feel anything and I can’t ejaculate.

I have no choice but to try the gel but I’m not very optimistic about it at all. I waited 6 years since the injury happened and literally nothing has changed. It’s hard for me mentally to accept it because I’m 33 years old, look about 25 and I am handsome so girls want to be with me, I just can’t give them the sexual side of things.

I have tried pills and they literally do nothing.

[frwmw1]

Trimix gel works different than pills.

[sonnyjim]

How do I deal with this shit? Because mentally it’s a struggle.

I have another 40+ years to live like this and I’m struggling to cope already at 33. I know I should see a psychiatrist or something but realistically they don’t know the struggles that people here on this forum have and it’s quite insulting when they say stupid shit.

[Trav8701]

Not sure where you heard this.... my glans is never engorged with morning wood
It engorges decently during arousal and sex tho.
It takes a little bit longer to engorge compared to before my jelq injury....but it is never engorged with morning wood anymore and it's been 5 years.
So maybe you should stop using the lack of morning engorgement as evidence that you're hopeless

Wouldn’t the pelvic floor be relaxed if I was sleeping though? I mean, I never wake up in the morning with everything engorged.

I’m not sure if an injury go to spongiosum would cause this numbness but it explains why the glans does not engorge though. Also none of this came up on ultrasound or mri (and if it did nobody said there was any abnormalities) but it has been this way since I had the injury. The glans feels so small compared to before, and cold. It also has white spots on it like you would get from a lack of blood flow.