When I was 3 years old I had an emergency circumcision, we thought everything went well. When I was 18, I shacked up with my girlfriend, (now my wife). I was having a lot of pain on the head of my penis and there were red spots there, sometimes the red spots would bleed. I saw a urologist and he told me I had balanitis xerotica obliterans (BXO) aka Lichen sclerosis (LS). He said I needed a circumcision. I told him I had a circumcision and he said it was not done properly so I had another circumcision. Can you imagine being a horny 18 year old SLEEPING with his girlfriend??? Yeah, hard on = severe pain. Anyway, I got through that. When I was 46 I was having the pain and bleeding again (I had been having it on and off all along but just thought it was the BXO (there is no cure). By this time we had moved an hour away from the 2nd surgeon so I got a referral to another urologist. He was a young guy and was a real dick. Basically he said, you have BXO, there is no cure, just live with it. Being a paramedic I knew there had to be something they could do about the pain and bleeding so, in 2013, I got a referral to another urologist - Dr. Woods. This guy use to be the chief of urology at Scarborough Grace Hospital in Toronto. When I saw him he said "you need a circumcision" I told him I had one and he said it wasn't done properly so I had my third. When I woke up the urologist told my wife that he was sorry and he took as little amount as he could but I am still skin deficient. Now I was diagnosed with type II diabetes so Dr. Woods sent me to a urologist surgeon in Kingston because he was supposed to be young and up on all the new procedures. I was excited because he said he was going to remove the shaft skin and put a graft in and cover ALL the penis. He sent me for an ultra sound and found out I had 7 to 9 cm of penis inside me that needs to have skin. He sent me to a plastic surgeon and they agreed on a plan. I went to the OR and when I came out there was SO MUCH PAIN and swelling and bruising. I got a hematoma the size of a softball. It wasn't going down so the plastic surgeon took me to the OR again and drained it. Then I saw it... the urologist had poked my penis head through the bottom of my scrotum and planned to lift it up and make me a new penile shaft from scrotal skin. I asked him if I really had enough because I thought everything I had down there was too small. He said there was more than enough. I asked the plastic surgeon about the hair and he said that he would deal with that after I had healed from the surgery. After the surgery healed the plastic surgeon told me that he doesn't deal with hair removal... I was PISSED.. that fucker lead me to believe he would fix it. I paid $1300 for laser hair removal and it only partially worked. In 2016, neither me or Dr. Woods were happy with the results and my dick was the same size... where is the 7 to 9 cm?? He sent me to Dr Brock (urology) and Dr. Gan (plastics). They said that there were several mistakes made. I gave consent for them to do whatever was necessary to fix me. They talked about removing the shaft skin again or just adding a graft but they wouldn't know until they had me open on the OR table. When I woke up they had what they called good news. I didn't need a graft, The last asshole just sewed my shaft to the half way mark up my head so Dr. Gan (plastics) just unfastened it and Dr. Brock (urology) put in a penile implant... I had never heard of an implant and now I had one. He explained it and I was so excited. A month later I was still having pain, swelling, fever and hallucinating. Dr. Brock said I was in septic shock (from infection) and I was dangerously close to death. I went to the OR and he had to remove the implant and wash out all the infection. For the next 6 months I had nothing and no sex, just me servicing her. Finally 6 months later I went back to the OR. I have a fairly large supra-pubic fat pad. After all the surgery in 2013 I was basically bed ridden on meds that kept me stoned all day, every day. I lost 40 pounds in a month and a half but it made little difference to the fat pad. When Dr. Brock and Dr. Gan (London Health Sciences). took me to the OR to fix the mess the 2 from Kingston created. Dr Brock gave me a penile implant and Dr Gan attempted to fix some of the mistakes made to the glans and removed "25" (I assume ml), he said that was a lot. I waited the 3 months like he said but it made very little difference to the fat pad. Doctors say to lose some weight but after the mess in Kingston, I lost 40lbs but that made very little difference. Maybe I need more liposuction (a lot more) or maybe there is some kind of "tuck" that can be done. This fat pad causes problems but mostly psychologically. My penis is not very big to begin with and all this surgery was to fix the length. Because they didn't remove or add to the shaft skin, I have not gained any length. Yes, I can have sex with what I have, I just don't have much. I had a video conference with Dr.'s Brock and Gan to address some of my concerns. Dr. Gan doesn't do hair removal and because of how easily I get infection plus being a type 2 diabetic, Dr. Brock is not comfortable do any non-essential surgery, so no bigger dick. This entire mess is depressing. Now I am shopping around to get a doctor to give me the appearance of a bigger dick by getting rid of the fat pad. Sorry, this is a long story but, it deals with 48 years of bullshit.
Larry
