Big Life Decision! Do I go for implant!

[meditate]

My situation is as follows: Dr. Eid has given me the go ahead for an implant if desired

Have been struggling with a scarred penis on the left side from a penile fracture about 5 yrs ago! I have had 2 fat grafts, PRP treatments, all of the basic strategies have been tried. It has been five years of torture, the last few my penis worked sometimes depending on the intimacy factor with ex girlfriend. The left side has lost significant girth, slight bend, if getting a hand job the left side will at times get soft, same with oral at times, also not much stability. When I masturbate and am getting close to climax I get fairly hard but need the constant stimulation or else it gets softer on the left side because of the scar. When flaccid the penis is a mess, it pulls into my body and shrinks basically feels like a hole between my legs, especially when sitting(driving), working out, etc.
My confidence and self esteem are really damaged, I am single 48 years old, attractive man who communicates well with women who loves sex. I find myself really wanting to be intimate but will not allow myself because of the mental destruction this has caused my psyche. I was with a woman last weekend and was fooling around and had an erection but as soon as I started to think about her grabbing me my erection at the site of the scar just deflated and my penis turned into a small ball of flesh because of the scar, it was a horrible experience the first one since my ex left! Lots of fun guys! I used to be quite the lover and now I am quite handicap. I went to a few urologists and one did a doppler I had an erection but pointed out the left side and how flat and unstable it was but said he couldn't do an implant even though I explained to j]him what happens, I take cialis, tried the shots(forget those!) Even if I just had a normal feeling flaccid penis I would be so much happier. I am so afraid because my penis still kind of works but I can't make it work the way I want it to, I am not living anymore. I told Dr. Eid and he didn't even hesitate the doppler showed scar tissue my erection was ok on the right side but left was banged up. He said if this has been bothering me for 5 years I should do it. I have spent over 20k so far trying to fix, I am at the end. Eid told me how many mens lives have been changed just there mental condition and how solid the erection will be.

Has anyone been in this place before the implant. Or can anyone just give some reassurance on going ahead with the implant, I know that I am the only one who can make the decision but its helps to hear from others who have been down this road. I know if I do nothing I will suffer tremendously by not really wanting to be intimate, and I have and am doing a lot of counseling around this, so I do have support!

Thanks so much for replies!!!

[williamb]

Meditate, it does not sound like things are improving for you, you have the opinion of at least one well respected expert so why not follow his advice. Ask the Dr about letting you talk to a patient of his that was in similar condition to yours to find out his thoughts.
williamb

[meditate]

Thank You! Dr. Eid has given me a long list of people to call, I am going to start soon. It is hard to believe that I amy go down this path it is easier to think about than just go ahead with decision an get the implant.

[dg_moore]

I always advise men who are contemplating an implant to get it when they first need it. Waiting doesn't improve anything - time is not your friend.

[ED2013]

Go for it!

[williamb]

I have just one week ago (10/31/15) received an implant and one thing that made my decision easier was two good Uro surgeons telling me that implant surgery is a very easy operation to perform correctly, its only about a 30 min operation. " If the doctor is experienced it is very simple" .
My pain has not been bad, Monday I started using Tylenol and only using Pain pills once a day. I have been out walking and picking up trash in the yard. It a little tender but not unbearable by any means.

[stringerbell]

That patient list is really key. Kramer gave me a list of over 150 people in a big book I could call anyone, I called about 10 people- truly helped.