Help me fight this. I m young and need help.

[Tylerdurden]

Hello everyone,
I am a 23 year old guy from India. I took finasteride drug for 5 months from january 2021 -june 2021 and stopped after noticing side effects like very very low libido and very weak erections,less sensations in the genitals, no morning wood, no nocturnal or spontaneous erections, numbness. I didn't stress about it much and didn't visit any online forum about this. Had a healthy lifestyle. But then in July I got into a relationship with my batchmate while we were attending classes online in covid. That is when I started thinking about it.
Took viagra. Gave me a good rock hard erection. Was very happy. Took it again. Didn't work. Again and again. Gave me half hard erections. In September we were called on campus. We talked about living together.
That is when I started things seriously. Visited the best urologist in the country. He prescribes me some supplements and said that my hormone profile was normal. This was very depressing. And I am in severe depression from that time. I tried pills, injections, lifestyle change, constriction ring, everything. But nothing works. I have this penis which has changed with decreased length and girth. It feels very different in my hand with a sheet of rubber around it.
In college I tried sex with my gf but I failed. Leave erections, my libido is also very low which again bothers me. I have decreased sensations in my genitals. So I can't orgasm with my gf giving me a blow job Or a hand job. But I can orgasm with masturbation but it takes a little time now and some different hand positions. And the blow job also doesn't feel as pleasurable as before. The only time I fel increased sensations is when I smoke some weed. My libido also increases then. I don't want to loose any more length or girth. I want my happiness back which has gone away because of this issue. I m in deep depression. I still have a healthy lifestyle. The only option I have now is getting an implant as soon as possible so that I don't lose any length or girth anymore. I will get it from Dr. Eid

I have a few questions:
(1) I m mentally prepared to get an implant. But my sensations have decreased in genitals. I want to know if that will come back with the implant with continuous cycling or it will stay like before? I m only 23 and want to enjoy my sex life. I know that my gf will get pleasure bcoz I will be able to go for as long as possible. But I want to know about my pleasure. I don't want to feel mechanical sex and want to feel pleasure.
(2) I have very low libido than before due to finasteride. It will be permanent maybe. I want to know how to deal with it mentally as a 23 year old(PFS guys please tell). Also will rock hard erections and the ability to perform help me increase my mental libido?
(3) I am at a very young age and going for an implant. Please Tell me ways to accept it as I regularly have suicidal thoughts. How to bring acceptance and again be happy?

I don't want to die. I have a loving gf and want to enjoy my sex life. Please help me to be mentally well and help my depression to deal with all these things.

Tylerdurden

[bldoink]

Welcome to the forum.

I wouldn't rule out some form of CPPS or Hard Flaccid.

Good luck.

[Tylerdurden]

My urologist thought of that but it's not that . All the symptoms of PFS.

[shrunken_dick]

I hope you have seen Dr.Rupin Shah. You don't need to visit Dr. Eid if you are in India. Dr. Rupin Shah is an expert in penile implant.

[Tylerdurden]

I only have one dick and I have already lost a inch. I want to have the best result. I have heard surgeons in India usually end up giving you a shorter dick after the surgery. It maybe true or not but in this case I don't want to have any kind of doubts. So. Dr. Eid it is.

[shrunken_dick]

What is your current length? Losing an inch means you have complete impotence.

[Tylerdurden]

I was 6 before. I am around 5.2 now. I rarely get morning wood and that too weak. I don't remember getting nocturnal erections for the past few months.

[Lost Sheep]

I was 6 before. I am around 5.2 now. I rarely get morning wood and that too weak. I don't remember getting nocturnal erections for the past few months.

Applying a vacuum twice a day for about 30 minutes has been shown to reduce size loss. Do not over do it, though. Too much vacuum can cause damage. Just enough to draw your penis up to an erection. Any Vacuum Erection Device (VED) will do. The medical grade ones are more durable and more comfortable to use (especially for sex) but for therapy, you do not use the constriction ring or have sex, you just apply vacuum.

Some apply vacuum intermittently for a minute at a time then release and repeat for the 30 minutes and some men apply vacuum steadily for the 30 minutes. That is up to you.

[Tylerdurden]

Okay. I will definitely do that.
Can you also answer the questions that I have mentioned above. I m in extreme mental agony and it will mean a lot if you help me answer those questions with all honesty.

[Lost Sheep]

Okay. I will definitely do that.
Can you also answer the questions that I have mentioned above. I m in extreme mental agony and it will mean a lot if you help me answer those questions with all honesty.

(1) I m mentally prepared to get an implant. But my sensations have decreased in genitals. I want to know if that will come back with the implant with continuous cycling or it will stay like before? I m only 23 and want to enjoy my sex life.

Your sensations may or may not be the same as before the implant or before ED. But you will become accustomed to whatever they are. The ability to get and remain erect is the greatest change...and the most positive.

I know that my gf will get pleasure bcoz I will be able to go for as long as possible.

Not necessarily so. Women make love with the MAN; their attention less focused on the penis.

But I want to know about my pleasure. I don't want to feel mechanical sex and want to feel pleasure.

From my experience, even if the sex feels more mechanical (lack of spontaneous erection does make it feel less "natural") I feel a great deal of pleasure. Even if it is less than before ED it is FAR superior to after ED and before implant.

(2) I have very low libido than before due to finasteride. It will be permanent maybe. I want to know how to deal with it mentally as a 23 year old(PFS guys please tell). Also will rock hard erections and the ability to perform help me increase my mental libido?

One deals with one's attitude by changing one's attitude. It is an act of will which you have control over. One may not be able to control one's condition, but how you FEEL about any condition is something one CAN control.

Yes, simply having a rock-hard penis does increase one's libido. In my experience, having an erection on demand does decrease the feeling of urgency about USING my erection. But having the ability definitely increases

(3) I am at a very young age and going for an implant. Please Tell me ways to accept it as I regularly have suicidal thoughts. How to bring acceptance and again be happy?

Your attitude is under your control. Totally you. At the extreme, even a man with no sexual possibilities can be happy. You are in a far better position. Remember that.