im extremely paranoid last hours.

[imdisgusting2002]

i could not sleep after i woke up laid there on bed and thought to myself "what if i get the implant surgery and the surgeon accidentally cuts of my dick" yeah i do have psychosis and the sexual dysfunction happend because of antipsychotics. but the idea of having a doctor mutilate my penis just does not stop. my father thought i was being ridicilous, is there any person that got his penis mutilated by a psycopath doctor ?

after thinking about this yesterday i thought of a guy who was forcibly turned into a girl by doctors. and that freaked me even more to the point of me fantasysing( in my mind) turning into a woman and bunch of tribe people kidnapping me and r*ping me . i intentionally raped myself in my own mind.

is the doctor alone in the room while operating on me? or is there nurses and other doctors and perhaps security guard etc that would prevent that from happening. i am thinking if i do get the implant someday (not any time soon) i want to hire a bodyguard for 1 day just to check if the doctor didnt harm me ?

also what if the doctor stabs me in the dick.

are these fears normal ?

[Gt1956]

i could not sleep after i woke up laid there on bed and thought to myself "what if i get the implant surgery and the surgeon accidentally cuts of my dick" yeah i do have psychosis and the sexual dysfunction happend because of antipsychotics. but the idea of having a doctor mutilate my penis just does not stop. my father thought i was being ridicilous, is there any person that got his penis mutilated by a psycopath doctor ?
after thinking about this yesterday i thought of a guy who was forcibly turned into a girl by doctors. and that freaked me even more to the point of me fantasysing( in my mind) turning into a woman and bunch of tribe people kidnapping me and r*ping me . i intentionally raped myself in my own mind.
is the doctor alone in the room while operating on me? or is there nurses and other doctors and perhaps security guard etc that would prevent that from happening. i am thinking if i do get the implant someday (not any time soon) i want to hire a bodyguard for 1 day just to check if the doctor didnt harm me ?
also what if the doctor stabs me in the dick.
are these fears normal ?

Are these worries normal, NO! The boy that was made into a girl is very well documented online. This was a mistake that reflected the thoughts of the time that gender was learned, not born with. He transitioned to a male later. The thinking that lead to that mistake has been soundly refuted.
No, you won't be able to have a guard in the operating room. Even if you did get one what gives you the idea that he would know what was happening?
Just my non medical opinion here. Stop visiting FT until you get you mental health under control. It's my guess that if your implant surgeon gets any kind of idea of your issues that he'll decline to operate on you. The last thing he wants is to deal with these thoughts as you recover.

[imdisgusting2002]

i could not sleep after i woke up laid there on bed and thought to myself "what if i get the implant surgery and the surgeon accidentally cuts of my dick" yeah i do have psychosis and the sexual dysfunction happend because of antipsychotics. but the idea of having a doctor mutilate my penis just does not stop. my father thought i was being ridicilous, is there any person that got his penis mutilated by a psycopath doctor ?
after thinking about this yesterday i thought of a guy who was forcibly turned into a girl by doctors. and that freaked me even more to the point of me fantasysing( in my mind) turning into a woman and bunch of tribe people kidnapping me and r*ping me . i intentionally raped myself in my own mind.
is the doctor alone in the room while operating on me? or is there nurses and other doctors and perhaps security guard etc that would prevent that from happening. i am thinking if i do get the implant someday (not any time soon) i want to hire a bodyguard for 1 day just to check if the doctor didnt harm me ?
also what if the doctor stabs me in the dick.
are these fears normal ?

Are these worries normal, NO! The boy that was made into a girl is very well documented online. This was a mistake that reflected the thoughts of the time that gender was learned, not born with. He transitioned to a male later. The thinking that lead to that mistake has been soundly refuted.
No, you won't be able to have a guard in the operating room. Even if you did get one what gives you the idea that he would know what was happening?
Just my non medical opinion here. Stop visiting FT until you get you mental health under control. It's my guess that if your implant surgeon gets any kind of idea of your issues that he'll decline to operate on you. The last thing he wants is to deal with these thoughts as you recover.

thank you. the thing is my father said im a pervert (sick in the mind) and said everyone has those thoughts. im glad not everyone has freaky psychotic mind like me the world wpuld be miserable lol. anyways thank you n God bless

[Cartman]

i could not sleep after i woke up laid there on bed and thought to myself "what if i get the implant surgery and the surgeon accidentally cuts of my dick" yeah i do have psychosis and the sexual dysfunction happend because of antipsychotics. but the idea of having a doctor mutilate my penis just does not stop. my father thought i was being ridicilous, is there any person that got his penis mutilated by a psycopath doctor ?

after thinking about this yesterday i thought of a guy who was forcibly turned into a girl by doctors. and that freaked me even more to the point of me fantasysing( in my mind) turning into a woman and bunch of tribe people kidnapping me and r*ping me . i intentionally raped myself in my own mind.

is the doctor alone in the room while operating on me? or is there nurses and other doctors and perhaps security guard etc that would prevent that from happening. i am thinking if i do get the implant someday (not any time soon) i want to hire a bodyguard for 1 day just to check if the doctor didnt harm me ?

also what if the doctor stabs me in the dick.

are these fears normal ?

My brother, I've yet to hear any man here regret getting their implant. You have to give yourself a break. My brother goes through these episodes of self doubt for everything. At the end of the day, he says it's just exhausting. You can spend hours thinking of horrendous outcomes that will never happen.

Like the other guys said, if you mention this to your doc, he will cancel the operation.

You'll be fine and very happy with the outcome. I'll repeat what the rest of my bionic brothers say "The only regret we have, is not having it done sooner"

Take a breath and have faith in the science.

[ThailandBound]

Apprehension is normal. Very normal.

What you describe is not.

You have ED and the implant will solve it. Many here attest to that. 10 years worth of posts at your disposal that bear that out. Not one post that reflects what exists in your fevered mind. It has never happened. My guess is that after you have the implant your mind will find the next worst case scenario to attach itself to, rendering you with a troubled mind and future that is well beyond the scope of a medical procedure.

I sincerely hope you find a competent, compassionate, and science based counselor to help guide you with these specific horrific fantasies as well as a better state mentally, physically, and spiritually. Best wishes.

[Fourtytwo00]

Which kind of antipsychotics are you taking and how much per day?

[Craigohbig]

Grow up