I am so excited and happy for you to hear about your early experiences with your new bionic cock in Thailand! As you know, Thailand is never very far from my heart and mind and so I am living vicariously through you right now as I prepare for my return in July. I spoke with my girlfriend today and mentioned to her that it will be the rainy season there and that I fully expect that we will be able to find something enjoyable to do...indoors. She laughed and agreed.
You are WAY ahead of the game relative to where I was when I arrived in Thailand at 9 weeks post op. You have started earlier than I did. What you describe about the numbness in your scrotum and lower shaft is EXACTLY what I experienced. I really wasn't aware of how numb i was until we started having sex and only then did i really notice it. I would rub my finger gently in those areas and realized that i couldn't really feel anything. Fortunately the glans and upper shaft had good sensitivity and i asked my girlfriend to focus her attention and energy there, which she accommodated. Only with vigorous stroking/sucking there was i able to cum. I could also cum in her ass. Both of which, about 50% of the time throughout my entire stay.
I am now 3 months and 3 weeks postop. The good news is that sensitivity to those areas IS returning gradually as the nerves continue to heal, as I expected. Not 100% but way better.
That pain in the tips you experienced, I did too. I absolutely could not have sex at 100%. Too painful, and even then though 80% was much more comfortable with absolute capability of putting it vigorously in her ass, the numbness and novelty of it all kept me from cumming every time. I could go on for at least an hour at that level, but eventually would get sore (or tired) and have to tap out. Still, I was happy then to be having any sex at all! When i did cum, my girl would be very proud of herself. An endearing trait.
There was improvement near the end of my 3 weeks there. I was gradually able to cum more easily and the head-trip of bionic me and those distractions abated as i realized my girl was totally fascinated by the implant. At first i was going to the bathroom to pump. When i eventually just demonstrated it to her, I then discovered that she enjoyed playing with it and pumping it up on her own. (her hand strength could get me to about 60%, I pumped beyond that). Still, i relaxed when i saw her positive reaction to it and those mental distractions faded.
Yes, while you are in this still-numb state, blowjobs will not feel as intense. Be patient here. I'm guessing in 6 months or less you will have full sensation.
In the last couple of weeks my daily cycling has really shown improvement. For several weeks as i'd pump up to max it was really uncomfortable. I literally would set a timer for 5 minutes at max inflation....pace the floor, rap my knuckles on the counter, and when that timer went off i'd deflate with much relief. I wondered if i would ever really be able to get to that level and it not hurt. Just in the last 3 days or so suddenly i am able to pump up to the absolute max in which i cannot even get one more micro-squeeze in....and leave it there for a good :15-:20 minutes. A huge improvement and i see no reason why this improvement will not continue until i'm able to get it there for a full hour. I think you have the same to look forward to.
You're just going to have to come to terms inwardly about your new reality and accept it. What choice do you have? Focus on the fact that your ED is now behind you. So much that you have trouble taking the condom OFF! In my ED days, the act of putting the condom ON would immediately cause my erection to fade. Every time. Any woman who might think less of you for what you have and who you are is not a woman worth having anyway. Plenty of guys on this forum whose wives and girlfriends are ecstatic by the reality that they too are being sexually gratified....and that is what you are capable of now.
You still have a ways to go in recovery, but you are making great strides.
Press on, and keep those Thailand reports coming!
