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[Cajun Jeff]

My Story

by Notloc1129 » Mon Oct 14, 2013 10:57 pm

Hello all. If you are browsing through the young members section of this site wondering what the heck is wrong with me, I can tell you I know how you feel. I am a 24yr male, lift and run regularly, and in decent shape. Id say I have struggled with ed since the first time at 17. At thise times however it was mainly psycological as once I became comfortable I was ok. I was with a girl for 3 years. At the beginning i struggled on and off with psycological ed(I believe). As our relationship went farther it became almost sexless. After struggling with the ed I found myself want sex less and less and by the last year i could care less. The only time I wanted it was when I was 100% in the mood. Which might be once every 6 weeks. Then this relationship ended. I should note that somewhere in the middle of this relationship i noticed when I masturbated, the erection seemednot as rock hard as times past. A few months go by and I meet a woman. The woman I want to be with. Beautiful and sexy, what else could a guy ask for? Should have no issues down there right? Well turns out I just couldnt make anything happen down there. No matter what. I broke down eventually. I was able to obtain generic viagara, 100mg. I tried it and....it worked!...for some time. After apx a month its effectiveness started to dimish. I started experimenting. Viagara, cialis, levitra along with aix of alpha blockers. And they worked. A few months later i decided to see a doctor. I wanted to know if i had real issues. I feel pretty lucky with the doctor I got. He was very supportive and the first thing he ordered was a doppler. A note I want to say my girlfriend didnt know of My issues, too embarased and a very difficult subject to talk about as you all can understand.. The doppler test was interesting. I got i believe 10cc? Of cavject. It was the lowest dose. I got a partial as the guy did the test. Took a long time to find a reading but he eventually did. In my heart i didnt belive there was anything wrong with me physically, i just wanted to prove it. As he started going over my results I was thinking well heres where we prove iv just lost my mind. The results? "You have veinous leakage". As he said those words to me I couldnt believe it. I have veinous leakage. I felt strangely calm after hearing it because I i wasnt crazy, I had an answer. Fast forward a couple more month of continuing to keep meds for erections while still not telling my gf. Then one day she was straitening the house and I was at work and i get the message. "Do you need pills to get hard?" My heart sunk. After a fight and a lot of explaining about what it was I Had a suprise. She still accepted me. She was depressed shortly because she felt she wasnt attractive and the pills only made me hard. But after explaining you need to want it still, she felt better. And as of now she is my fiance. A couple months later I was helping my dad out working. As we were driving back from a job he out of the blue says " your mother said you went to a uro, are you ok?" (I dont live at home but my insurance is through them and they got a notice saying i went to a uro). I said i was fine but he kept pressing the matter for some reason. Eventually I gave in and told him everything. To my shock he then started telling me he thinks this runs in my family. He said he started having issues around the same age, so did his father and as far as he knows his brothers have had issues. Not the conversation I was expecting. He was upset. He felt responsible. Today, well as of now im taking a mix of pde5's and alpha blockers. Its not a path i want to continue my whole life but I do what I need to to maintain some sense of normal. Who knows down the road. Condsidering an implant. It would be noce to have an on demand erection and be spontainous. Veinous litagation? Never heard of any real success in the US. Iv heard of a doctor in china that supposidly does a much more intense litagation but im weary of traveling so far for a surgery. Well this is my story. Iv come to term sort of with living with ed. Sucks being so young and facing this problem, but we have to handle the cards were delt with.

[Cajun Jeff]

Welcome to Franktalk. Lots of great guys here.