Completely impotent at the age of 22.

[tryfied]

I'm getting more and more interested in the idea of getting an implant. I can't imagine what kind of relief it would be to be able to present something decent as well as perform. I'm literally walking around like a zombie. I don't participate in anything and I feel completely isolated from the outer world.

I cry, cry and cry for loss, fear, anxiety, depression, regret, shame etc.

I'm soon going to see someone who performs penile implant surgeries on a regular basis. They work with other treatments as well. Not that I think I will benefit from anything else. But hopefully this will kick me in the right direction. Like I keep telling my relatives (and feel terribly about) - if this issue is going to persist, I'm going stop it somehow. Because 70 more years living on the side line, if you will, watching people around me enjoying their perfect lives. That's just too difficult.

Self pity is a bitch. I'm not sure how to handle it though.I have seen therapists. But they don't benefit my situation, as I am a stupid ignorant being unable to receive their assistance. Like some of you suggest, I need a solution for my problem. If I succeeded doing that I would receive strength enabling my self to overcome any triviality in this world.

I'm not sure if I expect any replies for this post. I guess I just wanted to tell you, how things are. Thank you all for supporting me.

[JDavid]

Tryfied, it sounds like you are working your way towards getting an implant. Imagine never having to conern yourself ever again with whther you can achieve an erection that will last as long as you want it to! For someone who has suffered as you have, that's an amazing idea.
What you need to understand is that the implants are manufactured machines and, with the rare possible exception of getting a defective one, the main primary variable is the skill and experience of the surgeon. Choose very carefully. If at all possible, be prepared to travel. My surgeon supposedly does more that any other surgeon on the west coast of the U.S. He repairs others' less than successful outcomes. But it is far better to have the best outcome intially. He has an arrangment with a small but nice hospital where he performs about ten implant surgeries per week. Total charges, surgeon, hospital, and device are about $18,000 (15000 E). There is another doctor whose name I forget who has similar arrangements at the Cleveland Clinic. I don't know anything about his outcomes. I used my health insurance and total out-of-pocket expenses were under $1500 U.S.
I have to say my implant has been excellent with no loss of length or girth. you expressed concern about it being cold. My implant stays as warm as the rest of my body so long as I am dressed or under the cover in bed. If I lie on top of the covers naked it will be colder. I was prepared for that and it is not a problem to me and my partner has not complained.

[soulforged]

somsething is really not right here
from what i know jelquing is pulling your penis in flacid state?
i guess you can injur your penis but completely impotent because of that?
i guess something is very wrong if injections did nothing to a guy your age but you have to get to the bottom of it and find out exactly what you have damaged
if you have a venous leak you can just use injections + ring or a pump with a ring i guess
its not that an implant is out of the question but you are very very young you should exhaust all other options

[tryfied]

Jdavi >
You are absolutely right about that. It is an amazing idea. I'm going to see someone who specialize in this kind of treatment in my country. They supposedly do 30 penile implant surgeries a' year. Maybe I should see someone, who does this on a more regular basis.

If I have to travel, so be it. I'm eager to hear, what they have to say about my situation.

soulforged >
I totally agree. This is the reason, why I'm being constantly confused. I may have done this jelqing in an erect state. Maybe that's what I did wrong. Problem is, I hardly recall what I did. But anyway. The case now is, that injections don't work. The idea of injections is not really appealing to me anyway. I mean, if I have to inject my self in order to get an artificial erection for the rest of my days. Well, then I might as well get the implant.

[soulforged]

Jdavi >
You are absolutely right about that. It is an amazing idea. I'm going to see someone who specialize in this kind of treatment in my country. They supposedly do 30 penile implant surgeries a' year. Maybe I should see someone, who does this on a more regular basis.

If I have to travel, so be it. I'm eager to hear, what they have to say about my situation.

soulforged >
I totally agree. This is the reason, why I'm being constantly confused. I may have done this jelqing in an erect state. Maybe that's what I did wrong. Problem is, I hardly recall what I did. But anyway. The case now is, that injections don't work. The idea of injections is not really appealing to me anyway. I mean, if I have to inject my self in order to get an artificial erection for the rest of my days. Well, then I might as well get the implant.

it is VERY rare but injections can NOT work if you are really depressed/stressed out
for example when i started developing ED they did a doppler on me and the injection barely did anything
yet later on a second doppler i got a huge erection from a lower dose cuz i was relaxed
like im saying,if your doppler is clean you might wanna do some of the other check ups,like an MRI or maybe a pudental nerve test
BUT the first guy u need to see a therapist,so you can eliminate that option out of the way
i dont think you have damaged yourself with that jelqing crap because if you did you would have felt unimaginable pain

[tryfied]

My doppler was not clean. It clearly showed internal scar tissue. So I guess it makes sense anyway. So I'm not sure if other tests would make sense.

[soulforged]

My doppler was not clean. It clearly showed internal scar tissue. So I guess it makes sense anyway. So I'm not sure if other tests would make sense.

oh,why exactly did it show?
corporeal fibrosis?

[tryfied]

My medical journal just stated, that the doppler showed clear signs of intracavernous scar tissue. For all I know it could be a lump of some kind - maybe fibrosis yeah.

[blimpy82]

Hi Tryfied. Thanks for sharing your story. And please chill out

I have 2 advice for you:
- First of all you need to understand: it's just a dick. I used to be depressed over my ED (i was 24 when i got it), lost a girlfriend over it. Some years ago I enrolled in a gymn and that changed my life. As I became stronger and more fit I realised I am a powerful man, all my organs are working perfectly and in sync, except one of course :-p
Once I realised that i started dating. Of course I wouldn't try to pick up sex-crazed skanks in discos. I started long dates with nice girls. Until one day I said what the heck and brought one home. A nice girl. As we started to undress I told her: look i can't fuck you, I mean, we can do everything but my dick doesn't work. I don't know why but it just doesn't. We were a bit drunk and we spent a good time. Turned out she was one of these girls who took lots and lots of stimulation to get an orgasm and normal, potent guys would never spend enought time on her , especially in the clit. So I mean .. it's just your dick, man. You can still make a girl come, you can still get off , yourself right ? If it's about confidence and girls , not all of them mind so much about it. And the ones who do, fuck them what do you care. After all, you now have a bigger problem that ed - your brain is depressed. Find another way of making it work right. By the way most prostitutes I know of are paid mainly to make a men feel good and they know how to do it for ANY men. Many of them are seen by old men with limp dicks anyway. They are paid to make you feel good and they will.

- The only test you really need is a cavernosography. They'll inject contrast in your penis and take x-rays of it. Only then they can tell what's wrong. And see a specialist for pete's sake. Try the Puigvert institute in Barcelona on your next holidays for example. Also, get the book "atlas of sexual dysfunction" and "new frontiers in men's sexual health".

finally so what you can't get an erection, you can still please a woman, you can still run, work , I dunno you can still do so many cool things. whatever you do please stop wasting yourself over it

[tryfied]

Your comments are very encouraging. Especially when they come from someone, who has dealt with this "bitch" for 8 years (did the math )
I wonder how you manage to tackle it for so long. Did you ever consider the implant option?

I know I should relax more. It's very difficult though, as you probably know. Girls like guys with confidence. Sure they do. I just don't see how, I would we able to like myself in this situation. And if I don't like myself I suppose no one else would.

I have been reading a bit about the subject of cavernosagraphy lately. I have found a doctor in London, who perform these, so I guess I will try to consult him. But yeah. Barcelona could be an option too. I'm also soon having an MRI by the way, but I'm not sure how much it will show.

By the way. The other day I received an email from Pegym. They wished me a happy birthday. Pegym was the site, that taught me about these jelqing techniques, which eventually ruined my whole life-quality. So no thanks Pegym. Because of you, it can never be just that. This was kind of a "laugh". Ironic eh?

Stay away from these excercises guys. They will mess up your whole life.