How much mental baggage did you drop?
How much mental baggage did you drop?
After you got your implant, how much mental baggage did you feel like you dropped? Did it surprise you? How did it affect you in ways you hadn’t predicted?
Genetically sky-high Lp(a) of 390 led to various heart diseases. Ultra-low testosterone of 120 (now 480 with Clomid) also contributed to ED at age 41. Managing with daily Cialis, but for me, the implant is a "when", not an "if".
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Re: How much mental baggage did you drop?
Nocturne wrote:After you got your implant, how much mental baggage did you feel like you dropped? Did it surprise you? How did it affect you in ways you hadn’t predicted?
Essentially all of it — 99% of it. Getting the implant is one of the best things I've ever done for my mental health. Sometimes, when I'm making out with a girlfriend or changing positions while having sex I have an intrusive thought, really just the fear, about losing my erection. It shows how deep-seated the anxiety and pain is.
Born 1990. ED since age 20 after a bicycle accident. Coloplast Genesis malleable implanted December 2024. Read my implant journal here.
Re: How much mental baggage did you drop?
duke_cicero wrote:Nocturne wrote:After you got your implant, how much mental baggage did you feel like you dropped? Did it surprise you? How did it affect you in ways you hadn’t predicted?
Essentially all of it — 99% of it. Getting the implant is one of the best things I've ever done for my mental health. Sometimes, when I'm making out with a girlfriend or changing positions while having sex I have an intrusive thought, really just the fear, about losing my erection. It shows how deep-seated the anxiety and pain is.
Thanks for the response. I’m a bit older than you (51) and see that you’ve only had your implant for a year or so. I don’t have one (yet), but have been dealing with ED for a decade, plus some other very serious health issues. I absolutely hear you about the deep-seated anxiety and pain, but I have a feeling that will fade for you over time. I’m going through a second round of anxiety and pain over ED right now, and one thing it is showing me is that while it took years, I was able to shed most of it on my own once my sex life was able to return to more-or-less normal,
I think if I had an implant, and the anxiety demon in my head tried to fuck with me in the middle of sex, I’d pull out and do other stuff for a bit while keeping my impossible-to-lose erection, just to fuck with IT. Ha!
Genetically sky-high Lp(a) of 390 led to various heart diseases. Ultra-low testosterone of 120 (now 480 with Clomid) also contributed to ED at age 41. Managing with daily Cialis, but for me, the implant is a "when", not an "if".
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Re: How much mental baggage did you drop?
Nocturne wrote:duke_cicero wrote:Nocturne wrote:After you got your implant, how much mental baggage did you feel like you dropped? Did it surprise you? How did it affect you in ways you hadn’t predicted?
Essentially all of it — 99% of it. Getting the implant is one of the best things I've ever done for my mental health. Sometimes, when I'm making out with a girlfriend or changing positions while having sex I have an intrusive thought, really just the fear, about losing my erection. It shows how deep-seated the anxiety and pain is.
Thanks for the response. I’m a bit older than you (51) and see that you’ve only had your implant for a year or so. I don’t have one (yet), but have been dealing with ED for a decade, plus some other very serious health issues. I absolutely hear you about the deep-seated anxiety and pain, but I have a feeling that will fade for you over time. I’m going through a second round of anxiety and pain over ED right now, and one thing it is showing me is that while it took years, I was able to shed most of it on my own once my sex life was able to return to more-or-less normal,
I think if I had an implant, and the anxiety demon in my head tried to fuck with me in the middle of sex, I’d pull out and do other stuff for a bit while keeping my impossible-to-lose erection, just to fuck with IT. Ha!
It's been 5 months but I find it gets better every day, so I think you're right. And yes, I've done exactly what you've described, haha! I'm glad you've been able to shed most of your sexual anxiety.
Born 1990. ED since age 20 after a bicycle accident. Coloplast Genesis malleable implanted December 2024. Read my implant journal here.
Re: How much mental baggage did you drop?
Nocturne, just about all, and some of it continues to surprise me. Like having cool air from a fan hit me, or walking around while we're changing positions or taking a break. I'll get a flash of concern that I'll lose the erection, and am amused that I still automatically worry about that 
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Nocturne wrote:After you got your implant, how much mental baggage did you feel like you dropped? Did it surprise you? How did it affect you in ways you hadn’t predicted?
Feb 2025 - 58 yo, 38 with greatest wife ever
AMS CX, Tenacio, Dr Broghammer (excellent) - pre-op L:7", post-op @ 3 mos L: 6.75" G: 5.5"
2 wks pain, cycling-sex-lifting @ 7 wks, only minor discomfort @ 10 wks, felt like 'new normal' @ ? mos
AMS CX, Tenacio, Dr Broghammer (excellent) - pre-op L:7", post-op @ 3 mos L: 6.75" G: 5.5"
2 wks pain, cycling-sex-lifting @ 7 wks, only minor discomfort @ 10 wks, felt like 'new normal' @ ? mos
Re: How much mental baggage did you drop?
I dropped all the ED baggage, but am now working through sex addiction issues, haha!
Prior to implant I would often feel very lucky if I managed to have really great penetrative sex and that I should be satisfied with that for a while, rather than attempting again relatively quickly and being disappointed.
But now I really just want to fuck every day. And I put a lot of effort into trying to fuck every day by keeping my existing set of fuck friends happy and constantly working on developing a pipeline of new potential friends. I enjoy it, but it is consuming.
And when I have fucked a couple of days in a row and then don’t have a date lined up, my lord I get horny! I have to remind myself masturbation is an acceptable solution, but I really crave feeling pussy on my cock. And then sometimes I go on first dates where I get cockblocked in the end, and, phew, I go into a tailspin of horniness. I usually go home and furiously jack off thinking about coming on her face!
I feel like it’s all the sexual equivalent of “first world problems”. For the first time in my life I have “big hard dick problems”!
But the ED fears went away pretty quick, despite a lifetime of ED.
Be well,
Leto
Prior to implant I would often feel very lucky if I managed to have really great penetrative sex and that I should be satisfied with that for a while, rather than attempting again relatively quickly and being disappointed.
But now I really just want to fuck every day. And I put a lot of effort into trying to fuck every day by keeping my existing set of fuck friends happy and constantly working on developing a pipeline of new potential friends. I enjoy it, but it is consuming.
And when I have fucked a couple of days in a row and then don’t have a date lined up, my lord I get horny! I have to remind myself masturbation is an acceptable solution, but I really crave feeling pussy on my cock. And then sometimes I go on first dates where I get cockblocked in the end, and, phew, I go into a tailspin of horniness. I usually go home and furiously jack off thinking about coming on her face!
I feel like it’s all the sexual equivalent of “first world problems”. For the first time in my life I have “big hard dick problems”!
But the ED fears went away pretty quick, despite a lifetime of ED.
Be well,
Leto
50. Implanted 5/21/2024 at Kaiser SSF. AMS 700 CX 21cm, 3cm RTE. Penoscrotal. Venous leak my whole life. Pills helped, but hated the side effects; worked less as I aged. Skipped injections. Grateful to bionic brotherhood that helped me make this decision.
Re: How much mental baggage did you drop?
I Faught ED for 11-12 years and it almost destroyed my marriage. I became consumed with the inability to function sexually. Double, triple dose of pills and then ever increasing injections mixed with pills left me depressed. Took a few months to adjust to having a hard on you ca trust but after a few months it just give me pleasure to laugh in the face of my ED!!! Been the best thing I’ve ever done since my ED started. Wish I had just skipped injections and went straight to implant but that too is in the past! Almost 3 years now I can have a stone hard throbbing dick any time I want it! A little cialis on sex days aids with the throbbing pulsing erection I love so much!!!
59 years old ED started mid 40s pills failed after 10 years. Injections works but diminishing results with pain. Implanted 5-22 Baylor,Scott,and White Dallas.Dr Michael Wierschem, infrapubic Coloplast with Classic pump 20cm and 1cm RTE. Going strong
Re: How much mental baggage did you drop?
Rider1400 wrote:I Faught ED for 11-12 years and it almost destroyed my marriage. I became consumed with the inability to function sexually. Double, triple dose of pills and then ever increasing injections mixed with pills left me depressed. Took a few months to adjust to having a hard on you ca trust but after a few months it just give me pleasure to laugh in the face of my ED!!! Been the best thing I’ve ever done since my ED started. Wish I had just skipped injections and went straight to implant but that too is in the past! Almost 3 years now I can have a stone hard throbbing dick any time I want it! A little cialis on sex days aids with the throbbing pulsing erection I love so much!!!
I’m really happy for you, Rider. I’m not convinced it’s my time just yet, but that time is coming and when it does I hope I end up feeling like you do!
Genetically sky-high Lp(a) of 390 led to various heart diseases. Ultra-low testosterone of 120 (now 480 with Clomid) also contributed to ED at age 41. Managing with daily Cialis, but for me, the implant is a "when", not an "if".
Re: How much mental baggage did you drop?
I am scheduled for my implant July 03 of this year. It’s gotten to the point mentally, that I don’t want to have sex anymore. I have a severe case of ED and PD, after injections of trimix for a year I have major scarring and I have lost 3 inches on my dick. I was always 5 inches and now under 3inches. After I cumm, the condom won’t stay on me. It’s mentally fucking with my head. I’m 71 years old and in decent shape, but having the implant will only give me at best 3.5”, that sucks and will I ever want sex again. Is it really worth the hassle getting an implant
Re: How much mental baggage did you drop?
Bilko, is there a chance you could regain some size with a VED? With your issues, I hope you find a surgeon who has experience with the scarring.
86 years
Inject testosterone weekly.
Implant on 1/22/19 by Dr Avila.
Scrotal, hor. incision just over 1"
18cm AMS 700 CX, 3.5cm RTE 100cc res
Gleason 6 prostate cancer. Monitoring it for now.
Update: On my last biopsies the cancer wasn't found.
Inject testosterone weekly.
Implant on 1/22/19 by Dr Avila.
Scrotal, hor. incision just over 1"
18cm AMS 700 CX, 3.5cm RTE 100cc res
Gleason 6 prostate cancer. Monitoring it for now.
Update: On my last biopsies the cancer wasn't found.
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