zac white wrote:I get really pissed off with myself, this waiting for surgery still has me wondering if I will go through with it while at the same time I know that it is what I want and that I have made the decision. Your comments that it is the best thing possible for those of us that really have no other option has hit home and I do look forward to the time when we can have spontanious sex without the mental and physical torture as to the ability to perform. With just under two weeks to go I just need to hold it all together, why am I screwing with my mind I am a really a positive guy normally is it something that the rest of you went through?
I know I need a good boot up the arse but it is taking so F---ing long to happen. I have a great wife but I don't want her to go through these thoughts also so I continue to tell her how strong I am and so ready for it and I am, so why am I being so stupid!!! The only word I can think of to explain what I'm being. Stupid, Stupid, Stupid!
Sorry guys don't mean to be a pain but just need to voice these crazy thoughts somewhere, not the type of discussion that you have with just anyone except people like you who have experienced the whole thing.
I will make it and it will be the Best
Thanks for letting me get it out
Zac
I don't think anybody who's been through this didn't experience doubts and fears beforehand. The anticipation is truly the worst part, and waiting is indeed difficult, but it's all part of the process. Hang in there - before you know it it will all be over and you'll forget about this period.
Best of luck to you!
Dave