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[strongagain]

Fantastic update, thanks.

[PFracture]

Great update merrix! congratulations! and.. what about the gym, and those deadlifts? penis positioning? sitting down on the bench to do some shoulder presses...?

[merrix]

Great update merrix! congratulations! and.. what about the gym, and those deadlifts? penis positioning? sitting down on the bench to do some shoulder presses...?

Thanks.
Think the deadlifts are in the update somewhere, but you're forgiven for missing it in that long text!
Couldn't do them first time I tried. Worked well second time. A little bit sore a couple of days after the next time. Worked great again next time. Managed to pack the package in a way that it doesn't get squeezed by the bar nor between my thigh and belly...
Don't ever do any heavy sitting work. I believe in the basic stuff. Never use chairs or beds in the gym... Deads, squats, weighted chins and dips, barbell rows, push presses. That's about all I do. But doing a heavy seated behind the neck press could possibly be a bit uncomfortable. Don't know for sure though.

[moetheman]

Another good update Merrix. I noted a couple of things that are especially interesting to me at the moment

Having to pump it up beforehand is still an issue. It feels already a lot better than initially (amazing how fast one gets used to things), but still it is not the way you want it...

This one has always been my fear but good to know that you're getting used to it. When you say that pumping beforehand is an issue, is it just an issue in your mind? I presume your wife is perfectly fine with the mechanical aspects of the implant now?

...my number of pumps have increased, I have twice measured it to 16.9 cm (6.7”).

This looks very encouraging. Do you think it will still increase in future? I've been seeing some posts on erosions, would this every worry you if the size kept on increasing? Sorry, not trying to be negative, but just trying to be honest and asking your thoughts since you're much further ahead than me.

[merrix]

Yes, the pumping is only a mind-issue.
Early days it gave me 'ED-feelings', in the way that I am still impotent. I just have frigging prosthesis to enable me to fuck.
I was also avoiding to pump in front of my wife. It just felt awkward.
But it has already changed. I don't think much about it anymore. Nowadays I normally start with pumping a semi (hanging 4:00) in the shower and start off like this. This would be around 10-12 pumps.
Then I would pump it to a perfect blowjob erection during foreplay (easily done with one hand while giving oral to wife, since at this inflation level bulb is still very pliable). This would be around 18 pumps, and angle would be around 2:45-3:00 with a nice flex in the base to allow my wife to be a bit creative during the oral.
Then I'll just pump it a bit more before penetration (another 4-5 pumps to make it perfectly hard for intercourse and with a 2:00-2:30 angle and still some base flex), and I don't care that she'll see. It's already become a non-issue.
Right after sex, I'll just press the deflate button and let the dick go down to a semi while catching my breath and doing the required and compulsory after-sex cuddling.
Later before going to sleep I'll squeeze hard and completely deflate before giving it one pump to set the valve in position to avoid auto-inflation.

Yes, my wife is fine with the mechanical aspect.

Increased pumps: My logic is that the increased pumps (and hence tissue expansion) REDUCES risk for erosion. The cylinders don't get any longer - it's a Titan. If my dick gets longer it just means it has made more space for the cylinders and pressure in both ends should be less, and risk for erosion should have decreased.

As well as monitoring how many pumps I get in, I have also recorded at how many pumps the tip-pain sets in. It has kept increasing as well. And as said before, when aroused and glans is engorged - there is no tip pain, it is only there when inflating without arousal. And I always stop at the point where the discomfort in tip starts. Reason is erosion risk. I don't want to let cylinders press the tip through pain and increase risk.
Maybe that's being over cautious, but I see no disadvantage with that cautiousness, so I might as well be.

[alibaba]

The pumping in front of my wife bit is tough to get my head around. Interesting how you have staged it. I cannot pump mine with 1 hand so that does not help. I am beginning to think a revision would solve that issue too. I think it would be easier if I had not had years of vacuum pump, then inject, then vacuum pump again, then the constriction rings combined with the 30 minutes or so to do it all. The implant is much less time consuming but all those years of delays, often far too long delays, are hard to get out of my head, especially when the pump gets in an uncooperative mood. Thank you for sharing your personal spin on it! d

[merrix]

The pumping in front of my wife bit is tough to get my head around. Interesting how you have staged it.

I had the same issue. But - and this is not only true for inflating implants, but as a general principle - when hiding something from somebody who already knows you're doing it, it just gets more pathetic than when being open about it.
If my wife knows I need to pump my dick before I can fuck her, it'd be more pathetic to hide under a blanket doing the pumping than just be open, strong and confident about it.

[RelievedofED1]

The pumping in front of my wife bit is tough to get my head around. Interesting how you have staged it.

I had the same issue. But - and this is not only true for inflating implants, but as a general principle - when hiding something from somebody who already knows you're doing it, it just gets more pathetic than when being open about it.
If my wife knows I need to pump my dick before I can fuck her, it'd be more pathetic to hide under a blanket doing it than just be open, strong and confident about it.

I understand being embarrassed about pumping etc but frankly was more embarrassed about having to take a pill than I have ever been about pumping the implant and hid that at times when I was just starting to need more and more help.My wife thought at first it could be something she wasn't doing right or because we had been married so long it wasn't great anymore and I didn't want to make her feel that way so hid the pill taking.

By the time most of us get to needing an implant it isn't a once in a while soft penis issue but a full blown un dependable erection. A partner that has been part of the whirlwind of emotions leading up to an implant is unlikely to be worried about how the erection is obtained just that it is. My wife and I are so happy that when a hard penis is desired it can be made to happen EVERY TIME. Pumping is not an issue.

Going into surgery you should know or be told that an implant isn't a cure as Merrix and others have said. An implant is a treatment for an incurable illness so pumping instead of just thinking will need to be done. That said it can be a GREAT treatment when it is the right time.

[strongagain]

Very well said, Bill. My words.

[alibaba]

I think ED leads to a bit of insecurity and as men we try to hide that. It takes a little effort to crawl out of that shell after years of failures and watching your wife's apprehension wondering if it is going to work this time or not. ED fucks with us many ways and probably the only place where modesty becomes obvious with me.