merrix wrote:alibaba wrote:jelquinginjury , some improvement is not a cure for e.d. Merrix was improved not cured. If he had been cured I doubt he would have had an implant. Hit and miss with pills or injections is some improvement. Young guys dating and hit and miss? That can end things in an instant.
Exactly. I was improved. But if the situation first is you need high doses of pills to even stand a chance, and then even with the pills you fail 4/10 - and then after a treatment you still need pills and now only fails 2/10, what is really the difference?
I didn't want to fail. I was looking for a cure, not being moderately impotent instead of severely impotent. I wanted to know I could get an erection when I was supposed to get one. Every fucking time. Those times when I was fucking like a madman in and out at lightning speed just to try to keep it up, and it still went down, they hurt. And no matter how understanding and loving your partner is, as a man it just hurts to fail in the bedroom with your woman. It wasn't enough for me to cut those times in half or whatever. I wanted to get rid of that shit. Forever.
So I moved on to the implant and have not regret it.
Thanks Merrix, you points make total sense but at the same time makes me a bit sad because reading this and other threads you have written in great detail leads me to think maybe my leak wasn't as bad as yours pre-scerothreapy.
Summary of my life with a venous leak :
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Pre ligation surgery 1997 (late teens early twenties) - Could get erect quickly but not enough for penetration. Performance anxiety didn't help being young and all that. Went to see urologist and underwent ligation surgery. Very painful and worked 100% for about 3 weeks ! Then went back to pre-opp state + 10-15% betterment. Viagra not available in the UK at this point.
Post ligation (23 – 36 years old) - Didn't use pills with my first wife because I didn't think I'd qualified for a free prescription on the NHS. Turns out I was because I was diagnosed with ED pre 1997!!!! 75/80% erection and would last 1 minute before climax or before I lost erection. Somehow managed to have 3 kids!!! Could only do missionary.
Post-divorce 2012-2015) - Shit scared that I wouldn't meet anyone else because of ED. Met lady couldn't have sex with pills or injections after first 5/6 attempts, thought it was time for implant. Been seeing her about 7 weeks, ordered generic Viagra and Cialis (high strength) mixed it up one night and able to penetrate and last about 7-8 mins. Been drinking so more relaxed. Thought I’d found a breakthrough. We then split because of distance and a month or so later met current wife. Kept mixing PD5’s and had best sex of my life. She introduced me to red wine and I could last 30 mins, sometimes losing erection but gaining it back quite quickly (most times). Life was good and I wondered if my anxiety was a bigger player than the leak I’d been diagnosed with in 97.
2015> – Noticed that I was losing my erections more frequently, could climax say 5/10. Read about Scerthreapy and booked appointment with clinic. Has surgery Sept 15th. 2 post opp massive erections a few days after. Day 5 bulge at base of penis and collapse. Went into shock depression. No erection for 4 weeks. Tried Viagra and got strong erection, not totally impotent after all then !
2016 onwards - Noticed that spontaneous erections harder to get, flaccid felt softer than before but didn’t care because 9.5/10 was able to have sex. Wife said girth had increased so again I felt after all the stress I’d come out top side.
Wasn’t to and by early December (15 month had huge erection that nearly burst through the duvet!) Trying for a baby and so sex non-stop during 8th – 12th December. All good then on ovulation day couldn’t get anything!! Thought it was the pressure. Got worse over Xmas and was like being back to post ligation days albeit taking pills! Now can only achieve a 40/50% with loads of stimulation, will lose this in seconds if I stop and this is on 20mg Cialis.
Today I’m totally impotent with pills for the first time in my life! Very scary and have booked implant surgery for May 20th and would have done sooner is I could have foreseen this nightmare.
Not sure if this for the best or not???? I guess I would have procrastinated for 3-4 years watching my erection quality get worse before taking action on the implant. On the flip side being totally impotent is not a nice place to be and it’s knocked my confidence big time.
In balance should have not wasted time and money on Scerothreapy and I still say to other guys keep your distance.
Hope I can be as happy as you Merrix post implant???
Gollam121
42 years old, Venous leak all my life. Pills worked but not so much then I foolishly did Scerothreapy (See young guys thread). Now totally impotent and just want an implant to stop me from completely crazy.
