Treetop - Introduction

[treetop]

All, my introduction.

My earliest memory of issues is when I was 16.

I was with a girl in my car, and we attempted sex. I was completely unsuccessful. This was very humiliating, although until recently I have not thought about it.

My first time having sex, was with a very beautiful girl, very sexy. She was my girlfriend and we spend a few weeks together before deciding to have sex.
We actually planned this for during a trip to the beach, where we spent 3 nights together in a tent.
My first night, we had oral sex, I was trying or waiting for an erection during this time, which never happened.
It was the 2nd or 3rd night before I was successful. Once we had sex a few times, my confidence was better and we had more luck.

This pattern has always followed me, where my first time with a woman is generally not successful, and it takes 2 or 3 nights before I am successful.

Even with my wife, when we were dating. And even after marriage until Viagra….

At 40, in 1999 I started taking Viagra. That worked very well for me. And that solved the issue, but we could never be spontaneous, usually if we tried without Viagra, it was a failure more often than not. We rarely tried to be spontaneous just because of this. I actually carried a keychain that had 2 or 3 Viagra pills in it.

I divorced in 2005, for other reasons but this probably contributed as my wife cheated on me.

Sometime in 2012 or before, I started using Trimix. I had good success until about a year ago. It did not seem to have the same effect. I may just need to make adjustments. To be honest my motivation isn’t what it used to be, as I am single and it is just for my own pleasure.
My last prescription in 2016, was for Caverject, this only gives me a partial erection, not enough for penetration, or just barely, and causes a lot of aching.

As far as injections I have read testimonials about scarring and other bad side effects. Plus the fact it needs to stay cold. I can’t travel very easy, and international travel can be a problem going through customs with refrigerated medication, and a bag of syringes..

I have done a lot of research following testimonials on franktalk.org regarding Implants. This has taken me to a new direction. I am still in the planning, thinking stage….

Thus I am now researching and seriously considering an Implant.

Several years ago I was using traction to increase my length. During about a 9 month period I went from 5 ½” length to 6 ½” length, as well as added girth to 5 ¾”.
Can’t find before pictures … maybe I will add later. But will post my pictures from back then. These pictures reflect my best and larges size if using Viagra and good stimulation. Injections are similar, but don’t get the glans pumped up quite the same.

Anyway…. I believe this year (2017) starts a new chapter in my life, and you should soon see a post of my implant journal if I make that final decision.

To all the posters and members on FT, I love this site, and find myself going over posts over and over, and enjoy the support of everyone here.

-Treetop.
(P.S. Treetop was my CB Handle when I was in high school…)

[David_R]

Looks great, treetop! Good luck with exploring your options!
David

[treetop]

Thank you David_R...

The more I concider an Implant, the more bad memories come up.
Time when we are at the Colorado River at night, at the water and wife wants to get it on.. Penis said Nope!!!

Time when not married and out with co-worker.. real hottie.. we are out as a group for drinks, after at her place she says 'Want to spend the night', she was a wild one and I knew what she wanted. I declined due to fear.. I knew I could not perform under the pressure. I didn't have Viagra with me in either case. ED Sucks....

[NeedleD]

ED does suck! I too have had the chance to fuck the girl of my dreams... But alas, Everyone here MUST have experienced that!

[David_R]

The more I concider an Implant, the more bad memories come up.

I truly hope you can reach the point where considering an implant does not bring up bad memories but instead gives you hope for a different and hard-whenever-and-for-however-long-as-you-want-it-to-be future. It is definitely a strong possibility.
David

[treetop]

Thank you.
Those memories are helpful in that I know with an implant that will never happen again.

I am also realizing all the opportunities that I never before concidered.

[williamb]

TreeTop, go for it and don't look back, and you will n ever have to back out because of non-performance fears

[Freemase]

Just be sure before you decide. Read posts like mine to follow what happens during and after. I don't want to loose my wife, not behind sex, or lack there of. It's the smaller details I found others who went through this that are missed which I try to cover. In the long run I feel in my situation, it is the answer. You just have be able to say that for yourself because this is irreversible.

[treetop]

Agreed... love seeing a wife post. And thank you for posting here.
I am still considering the implant, but it is so permanent... I want to exhaust all other solutions first.
Once I go implant there is no turning back...
TT

[Axeless]

I feel you about the first timer feeling, so my girlfriend did ask me after sex. " Are you gay, why is that your not getting sexually arouse of it's hard for me to get you an erection" so that's the story of it. How humiliating but true story of the noob first timer.