In Surgery and Posting Live - My Journal

[Hawkman]

Day 32 Friday

With this post, I have caught up several posts on my log. The posts probably will not be daily from here on out but I will continue to do updates.

I drove a friend to the airport today (2 hours each way) in long pants. It was no big deal. I can pretty much do any daily activities at this point but I am often aware of my penis and scrotum to a small degree and shift my weight as I sit. I am careful when bending my leg getting in or out of the car. I do get random stabbing pains or burning, or stinging pains for apparently no reason other than things healing. They are mild however and usually only last a few seconds.

My angle is dropping. My erect/inflated angle is about 2:30 o'clock. Even though the implant straightened my slight right curve, I still curve up slightly which is my natural penis curve which I like. I like that rather than rod-straight. I am glad for the drop to 2:30 O’clock because in the beginning, my inflated penis was at about 1:00 O'clock. I could not envision bending it down enough for some positions like "reverse cowgirl" but with her leaning forward so you can see the action.

[Larry10625]

... get the most out of your implant but, you don't have an LGX so you shouldn't expect permanent results like with the LGX. Larry

Thanks for the responses.

The Titan CLEARLY exerts tremendous pressure on the girth and length of my penis when pumped past intercourse level of firmness. Regardless of the model name, if cylinders are still stretching lengthwise before all the folds pump out it is exerting stretch. The question is not the model. The questions are: (1) Is it exerting a stretch longitudinally and girth wise (2) Does my tunica have the capacity to permanently stretch

In my case, I doubt #2 because I have stretched my tunica for years and have calcified plaques from long-established Peyronies. I seriously doubt there is the potential for further stretch with my tunica but I will make the effort and objectively keep precise measurements to see what the data shows in my case.

However, Individuals like Merrix and several others have well documented permanent gains with the Titan just as there are some with the LGX that have a floppy glans because they were not properly sized, and others with an LGX that complain they never feel any stretch.

I have a message in to doctor Brock to see if he can explain how the LGX expands girth and length and what the difference between the AMS and Titan is. I'll post when I get an answer.

Larry

[Larry10625]

Day 31, Thursday

I am getting very comfortable in general daily activity. Yesterday I edged the sidewalk, trimmed hedges, pruned a tree and cleaned up limbs with no problems other than when I slapped myself in the penis with a limb. It hurt but no big deal. Sitting seems pretty normal. Street clothes are good BUT I still have to pick and choose what I wear. The biggest issue is with the penis down the left leg in long pants, it is a bit of a problem bending that leg when I climb in or out of a car. It also exerts some pressure on it when I bend over. I do find if I keep my penis in the same position for several hours it hurts to move it. Ideally, I should probably reposition it every couple hours but I don't.

I have pretty much stopped all hot baths/soaks. I am pumping up to the max for about 30 minutes in the morning while I shave, brush my teeth then shower.

Although I feel much more like I am returning to normal during regular activity, the last time I had sex the tip of the implant right at the glans caused a stinging pain especially when I tried to keep going after I had a climax. I am not sure if the heightened sexual pleasure masked the pain until I had an orgasm or if my penis had just had enough by that point but it was enough to stop me. I am very impatient for those issues to be completely gone. I am ready for unrestrained, uninhibited, sex that takes no thought, planning, or caution. I think I am going to back off of sexual activity to just once or twice a week and hope I can feel improvement each time. One note on sensitivity. I have read some men who say they do not orgasm as fast and some that have at least initial problems having an orgasm during intercourse right after getting an implant. Some that had premature ejaculation consider it a plus. My experience is different. I see absolutely no difference in sensitivity or anxiety or anything else that might delay orgasm. I can tell that 1/3 of the length of my penis shaft on the underside right at the base is a little numb to the touch near where the incision was but it already seems to be improving and does not detract in the least from intercourse, probably because it is a small area on the underside of the base.

Finally, pumping and deflating is now pretty routine. They require no soaking and there is hardly even any scrotum discomfort when depressing the pump bulb

That's great. It sounds like you are progressing nicely. I think I heard that you should angle your penis upwards. I wear (and like tighty-whities and I always angle my penis upwards and never have any problem like you describe. Having said that, my flaccid dick is not long enough to go down my pant leg... is that a penis or a trunk? I think the issue with your glans is that once you have had your orgasm, the heightened intimacy is diminishing, therefore the blood flow to the glans is reduced therefore it is not as engorged and nit as protecting for the tips of the implant and since you are continuing you are still ramming those tips into the tips of the glans.

Larry

[Hawkman]

I think the issue with your glans is that once you have had your orgasm, the heightened intimacy is diminishing, therefore the blood flow to the glans is reduced therefore it is not as engorged and nit as protecting for the tips of the implant and since you are continuing you are still ramming those tips into the tips of the glans.

Larry

Thanks, Larry, you could be right about the glans pain after my last orgasm but right before surgery I had declined to the point that a 100 mg Viagra hardly affected me so I am not sure I am getting much glans enlargement during arousal. I certainly could not tell with the VED before surgery so I will have to pay closer attention. In general, however, I have noticed my glans is not as deflated as I feared it would be. Even when I cycle it looks ok. I don't think a partner would look and wonder why it was not engorged more as I feared before an implant.

[Hawkman]

Day 35 (5 weeks) Tuesday 9/11/18

Yesterday I had a little setback. For some unknown reason, I felt some strain where I assume my reservoir is. It was mild and not pain but it was discomfort. It was the type of thing that although it did not really hurt it caused concern because I have hardly felt the reservoir site since surgery and it made me wonder what was going on since I was not overly active and had not even moved fast to catch my balance. it was uncomfortable every time I needed my abdominal muscles for a movement. It baffled me and I frankly did not like it. I worried that Dr. eid warned me I might need a second incision for the reservoir since I had prior abdominal surgery but then did everything through the tiny incision in the scrotum. This morning I got up and it was like it never happened so I decided no need to bother Dr. Eid with my paranoia.

I notice my penis shaft is now healed enough that inflated it can tolerate a good firm squeeze and seems up to normal handling and wear and tear. I was a little surprised when I made a few test tugs and squeezes. It is only where the tips extend part way into the glans that I feel periodic discomfort in the form of low-level burning sensation. Even that area can be handled with care since only certain movements feel unpleasant.

I have returned to often wearing an athletic supporter over my underwear because my penis clearly is not yet committed to one position. When doing yard work or any moving around it keeps my penis in one place rather than flopping around my body. I also find if I point it down my left stride it just makes it a little more restrictive to bend down without bending my penis and glans which is still an uncomfortable feeling.

This morning I pumped to the max and just as the discomfort was getting to me I got in the shower as usual. The shower suddenly relieves or interrupts the nerve signals and I can continue to stay inflated longer. Finally, I deflated without squeezing my penis so it was only a partial deflation, still good enough for intercourse. After about 10 minutes I gave it ten pumps to bring it back up to maximum and to my surprise it did not seems to ever return to that typical feeling that I had to deflate or start squirming. I also studied the deflation button location when I am in the standing position. Up until now, I have had to feel around for it standing but I think I now have down in my head how to go directly to the deflation button.

One other issue - Right after surgery I noticed my urine stream was skinnier. It stayed that way and I assumed it was the new me and dismissed it. I assumed the cylinders crowded my urethra some. About day 32 it suddenly seems back to normal. I am not sure if I had some residual swelling that went down or if maybe a dog-eared fold in the cylinder was crowding it and just corrected itself.

[Hawkman]

Day 36 Wednesday 9/12/18

Sex continues to get better. We can enjoy our bionic penis with less care and risk of discomfort than we could at week three, although there is clearly a ways to go yet. In our last encounter, I inflated to a normal erection with one hand under the covers as soon as I sensed she was getting cuddly. Part way through foreplay I inflated to rock-hard even though I know that usually only has about a 30-minute shelf life at this stage of healing. This is what I have referred to as more than you would use for intercourse but I wanted to wield this thing with a maximum pump. It typically starts a feeling of stretching discomfort and minor pain after 25 -30 minutes but I would worry about that when the time came. My plan was that I would hit the deflate button when that happened and let some pressure off. At some point during intercourse, I began to feel that discomfort but we just were not in a stoping mindset. It was that stage where the struggle to engage your thinking brain and perform a logistic act was just not going to happen. I continued until she climaxed and then I had no trouble doing the same. I was however very glad to deflate at that point.

This is all significant because this was spontaneous sex. It was NOT the planed sex we are used to where I would not eat for hours so any Viagra / L-arginine could hit the bloodstream quickly, then timing taking the drugs, and then making sure the VED with an assortment of rings was available next to the bed. It was also not the most common routine of where I typically satisfied her before intercourse so I could concentrate of finishing with a penis that was capable of satisfying me but not reliable enough to do tricks on command. No such issue with my bionic penis. We both climaxed during intercourse and I was able to adjust position, angle, and intensity to her liking when she needed me to do so.

I asked later if it was too hard. She just laughed and said, "Oh yeh! You could probably tell I was not really enjoying it". She assured me it was not too hard at all. When I asked if she could tell the difference between me now and the VED, she said, "Yes, I don't think you even have to ask that". She was right. I didn't have to ask because this erection was sufficient to direct at my will or her will to do whatever we wanted it to do when we wanted to do it.

To think, that it will get even better

[lenders]

How is your length now? How much did Eid tell you that you get in the pre-op?

[Vagabond127]

I know your surgery is way done but watching your surgery...did it fuck with your head and make it feel more painful than you expected?

[Hawkman]

I know your surgery is way done but watching your surgery...did it fuck with your head and make it feel more painful than you expected?

If you read my journal I address that. I did not "watch" my surgery. They blocked just enough of my view with a little sheet stretched like a wall that I could not see my penis.

While I was a little nervous I was reassured by a friend that was awake for knee replacement. It was a great and an absolutely fun and interesting process. It sold me that I will never have general anesthesia again if a spinal is an option. I felt as good through surgery and the first 3 1/2 hours of the drive home as I did on the drive to NYC.

[Hawkman]

How is your length now? How much did Eid tell you that you get in the pre-op?

Dr. Eid promised me 6 1/4" or slightly more. I wanted him to stretch a little more but at least I had a promised minimum I could accept. At week3 I was 6 3/8" so exactly the "little more" he said I might end up with as a minimum. At 5 1/2 weeks, I am at a full 6 1/2 inches. I also gained about 1/8" or slightly more in girth over my pre-surgical measurements I documented.