Postby Minnesota#2 » Fri Nov 18, 2022 7:18 pm
8.5 WEEK UPDATE
Tomorrow will mark 60 days since I had my surgery. Since my last update, I haven’t been sexually active with anyone, so I have nothing more to add. As I said before, I have had sex 3 times. So far, not one girl has said or noticed a thing that I know of. My sensation is great. My libido was somewhat crushed naturally from the problems I had with ED for so long. Now, even if I am not that horny, if I give myself an erection, I usually get into it very quickly. It is quite a lot for the brain to process, I think. Going from basically knowing gyou are impotent and probably going to let yourself and your partner down, to having a penis that works on demand…. It is actually amazing. I think back to older gentleman who are n o longer with us who had this issue and either this wasn’t an option, they didn’t know about it, or had too much pride to do anything about it… My heart goes out to them. It is a strength to take action against this problem, not a weakness. My brain rewired itself to not want to have sex anymore after so many failed attempts. I can feel my libido sparking back up and being how it used to be again. I feel more alive again.
After my 3 week follow up, they deflated me and showed me how to use it. That was very painful as I have said. My first 10 days were brutal, but days 11-60 have been unreal how quickly I have healed and have changed not only sexually but especially mentally. I went from thinking I made a mistake and that I’d never get used to my new self, to forgetting about it and realizing I have my sex life back. The "what have I done" that kept creeping in is gone. I recently went on a date with a very beautiful, popular, and I’d say somewhat famous person with no issue at all. I never imagined I’d go into something like that before with confidence. My ED problem defined me, and it was just a monkey on my back. It never left me, it consumed me. I realized I was an extremely confident person who had so much figured out, but being told my problem was in my head year after year, relationship after relationship just crushed me. I fought so hard to keep my life going, to be confident, try with girls, try everything to beat this. Finally, I was told this was not a mental problem, it was medical. BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. Knowing it wasn’t mental and finally having answers. My friends told me they felt for me and loved me regardless, but they said its so nice to have the “old me” back again. They said I am even funnier, and more outgoing, and that they forgot how much they missed that. They said I didn’t completely change, but there was something off. And my ED was definitely my issue. It literally feels like I went back in time the 8-9 years before I ever had any issues. I struggled for all those years but am myself again. That being said, if the MAYO, the best hospital in the world would have confirmed that my problem was mental this last go around, I would have accepted it and still took action with this implant. At the end of the day, who cares what is causing it. It is happening, and you keep trying and trying and nothing works… Do something about it! You are not the only one. You aren’t sooo unlucky where nobody understands. This forum is a blessing because I finally realized that I am not crazy, and there are solutions. You are just one less success story until you make the jump.
I am now 8.5 weeks in, and I am back to my full workout routine. I am back to work, I sleep great, wear any clothes I want (sometimes double up on underwear if wearing tighter Lulu jogger pants that are lighter colored or something at the gym). Sometimes I need to adjust a little more or switch up what I wear or how I wear things. Especially with the titan, you really are a shower, and it is definitely a much harder flaccid. That was a huge concern of mine because I didn’t want people to think I had a chubby in the shower. Directly after surgery, my flaccid was sitting at 3 o clock. Seemed like a boner to me! That anxiety subsided as things got better every day. My flaccid now sits at around 5 o clock. If you imagine a normal flaccid that rests on your balls, mine is maybe just a tiny bit higher than that, like 1 cm gap between my shaft and balls. I don’t think people could tell. Put it this way, I wouldn’t shy away from showering around other people at this point. My penis looks normal. My flaccid is much bigger than it was (see signature). My erection is about 6 inches, which I am thinking I am almost exactly at pre implant length, and if not, then I am actually just slightly bigger, and my girth is definitely girthier. The only slight issue I have is my glans aren’t as hard. I guess they call this floppy head, which makes sense because it does kind of flop if I move my erection around quick you can feel it, or when entering a woman it doesn’t slide in as easy as it used to, but it looks normal and is still engorged. This is not a major issue. Not the end of the world, and all the sensation is still there. I am considering a very small dose of Cialis each morning to possibly help the issue, which some people have discussed here on FT.
For any of those following along, I apologize for the gap in time for my update. Life has been busy, and things have been good, so I haven’t been obsessing about going on FT to read. I know that is a good thing for me, but I will be better, as it would be selfish of me at this point to not keep people informed and just simply doing my best to advocate. This has given much of my life back. If you are on the fence, just do it. I truly think for most, the pros outweigh any cons. Just make sure you are with a skilled surgeon. All medical professionals are skilled, but I believe finding the right surgeon is important. It is a process that takes diligence, patience, time, resources, and headaches, but it is something that caused a little pain for an immense, life-changing gain.
Best!
MN#2
Now 29. 27y/o when implanted. For 9 yrs was told it was PerfAnxiety. Tried almost everything imaginable. Diagnosis: Low penis inflow via Doppler. 9/20/22 Dr. Kohler RochesterMayo. Titan 22cm no RTE 125cc. Pre Implant length:6 Girth:idk. Post: L:6 G:4.6
