Postby aussiePeyronies » Fri Feb 24, 2023 9:22 am
Day 17 Update:
Although there isn't really much to update, being locked in a hotel room with nothing to do, on pain killers, writing this journal is somewhat soothing. Letting out my thoughts and expressing myself.
Swelling and pain is down, albeit, in the slightest. In 4 days they are going to deflate me a little so I can get on a plane.
Does anyone have experience with initial deflation? My doctor is on holiday and he has left it up to the nurse to deflate me a bit for comfort, and so I can get on a plane. I think due to TEP, I will still be inflated a little for up to 6 weeks. I am worried that, if the nurse is inexperienced and deflates me too much, it will compromise the TEP.
Mentally I am struggling a bit, I am someone who is in the gym everyday, reading books, working on self-development. At the moment I can barely move, and its difficult to concentrate on reading considering I am on narcotics.
I have been thinking a lot about my decision, realising that every 5-10 years (maybe more, maybe less), I will have to go through this process again, although, quite possibly less painful and a quicker recovery, and less expensive. Risk of infection will still be there each time. I'm 34, if I live till 74, that could be 5-10 revisions required. Something to consider for the younger guys, I think the youngest guy I spoke to was a 20 year old who had peyronies, also from Australia.
Some other things I have been thinking, the trade off between not being able to get a natural erection, the intimacy of a woman touching you and feeling your penis grow, spooning in the morning and having your gf wake up to your hard erection. These things can be a very intimate part of a relationship. This in trade for an erection which can stay up as long as required, which also can have it's benefits. Is it worth it? In my case, yes. I got to a point where I couldn't have sex without the implant. I will till miss that intimate feeling of waking up to a woman touching me and my erection growing, and women themselves love touching you and seeing your erection grow, it reassures them that you're attracted to them, makes them feel sexy, and powerful.
Now, I've been thinking a lot about disclosure. A lot of women that are older 40+ I feel are a lot more understanding to Erectyle dysfunction, they have dated men with ED, some have health complications themselves, they understand. Younger women, in their 20s, some make fun of men who can't get an erection. I know some who, if you told them you have to pump up your penis from your scrotum, would call you an old man. I know some who, if you told them you had a bionic penis, they would laugh and call you a cyborg. Now, these aren't the type of women you want to ever date or be around. But, could this influence the decision of someone in their 20s who wants to get an implant but can still have sex with pills/injections? Possibly. Having one night stands and trying to pump discreetly in itself each time can prove to be difficult and laborious.
I just want the younger guys to realise that, an implant is a good option, but if your peyronies/ED isn't to the point where you can't have sex, consider VED/Traction first perhaps. Especially, if you are not yet in a financial position to afford one of the top surgeons. Consider, the amount of revisions required, the recovery, costs, risks of infections. I myself am a bit worried about my 2.5cm RTEs causing a wobbly erection. I was talking to someone who had 3.5cm RTEs and he does have a bit of a wobbly erection, he can mitigate this by pumping harder, however, that ends up being too hard for sex. Choosing a top surgeon is very vital to receiving a top result, and in Australia we are very limited. After 4 years of peyronies and spending 15k on surgery, the pain of recovery, I would want to have sex without having to worry about a wobbly erection slipping out of a woman's vagina (common in cowgirl position).
Now, I know I am stuck in a hotel room with nothing to do, inflated, only able to lay on my back and my mind may be wondering off into negative thoughts. 4 years of peyronies and I have passed on quite a few attractive females, I am looking forward to getting back out there and exploring the dating scene and sharing intimacy with women. My depression from peyronies affected other areas of my life, my career/study took a hit, general mental health, social life. I became a bit of a recluse, and I am starting to realise that it's time to come out of that isolated shell I put myself in. I have forgotten how to date, make friends, be social again.
Wish there was a group or club here in Australia for us implanted guys where we could get together and share our experiences, discuss dating, doctors, support each other. Mens mental health is already a subject which isn't talked about enough. Not many people can talk about peyronies either, most doctors even rush you out of their office. I can see some men here who are younger and don't have access to all this information, money for surgery, pills, VED/traction etc eventually falling close to suicide.
I received a message from a member today which was quite thought provoking, he told me that, some Australian doctors will use excessive RTEs as, they do not perform implant surgery in high volumes in comparison to Eid, Perito etc, so if they need to throw out an implant to install another one, it is too costly for them. Thus, they will use RTEs where necessary, avoid having to use multiple implants during one surgery.
Some things to think about I guess, when choosing surgeons in Australia.
Keep in mind, this is all written while in a hotel room, barely able to walk, in immense pain. 4 months from now I may write up a post telling you all how this has been an amazing experience and I recommend everyone to do the same. Keep in mind though, that the risks will always still be there.
Very interested in anyone else thoughts, especially younger guys, and members from Australia.
J
34 Years Old...Peyronies for 4 years. 20 Degree left and upwards curvature, major dents and narrowing, ED.
Implant + Tunica Expansion Procedure, 7th Feb 2023, Titan 22cm + 1cm RTE