Anxiety is definitely here but that's to be expected, right? When I feel nervous, I just remember the many times I've failed during sexual encounters. 15 years of disappointing erections and awkward silences after trying to initiate. I have had good sex before so I know what it's like and I know what I'm missing out on. ED is the absolute worst but I'm finally doing what's best for myself as a human being. Tired of taking all the different pills and trying to get all the variables right (empty stomach, no alcohol, etc.) and even then sometimes the cocktail of pills would not work. I've told myself though that in some way it's a blessing that the pills stopped working so I can knock this procedure out now rather than later.
What gives me the most anxiety is when I open my eyes for the first time after the procedure. What will it feel like? It seems like from reading these forums the experiences vary WIDELY from very little pain to a ton of pain. I'm on the younger side (early 30s) so hoping my body will be on the faster and less painful side. My doctor from what I can see is definitely well-renowned and is high volume so that gives me more confidence as well. Additionally, it seems like something I hear consistently is guys saying they wish they did this earlier.
I asked for 2 sick days. One for the surgery day and one for the day after. I also told my manager to expect at least 1 week work from home after the procedure. I'm restless by nature and hate being stuck at home and not working so really hoping I can get back to work ASAP. Believe it or not but I actually enjoy going to the office. My job is flexible though so I'm not too concerned about any performance reprimands or anything like that.
I'm doing this all solo. Uber'ing to the hospital the morning of the surgery and using a non-emergency medical transportation for the ride back home. Kinda wish I had someone for emotional support but for various reasons don't want to drag anyone into it. No one knows but me. Well I have you guys, ha!
So far I have bought a pack of toddler socks (I feel like such a pedo everytime I say or think these words) and a 3 pack of jock straps from amazon. Should I buy ice packs? Is it possible my doctor will provide? Will update this thread post-op. Wish me luck!
